my secret sin episode 1

MY SECRET SIN.

That Friday night, I was supposed to be in the vigil leading the worship song but there I was in Fred's bed moaning in painful pleasure as he cuddled and caressed me.

Being the choir mistress, I was the one to take the worship songs that night but I maneuvered my way to his home.

"Can we go another round?" Fred asked teasingly.

"You don't get tired? Oliver Twist," I said staring at the wall clock. It was few minutes before 1 a.m.

"I need to join them in the church," I said uncovering myself from the bedsheets and hurriedly picked up my dress from the floor.

"It's already late and dangerous out there. Just pass the night here again please." "Akuna! It's better late than never. Don't forget, I'm the one taking the worship."
"Do you want to get raped out there? The one I gave you is not enough for you, right?" he asked mockingly as he sat upright on his bed placing a pillow on his laps to hide his erected stuff.

"I won't get raped because we are going together. Dress up please."

"Have you gone insane?" he giggled. "I just finished feasting with the devil and you expect me to go to the presence of God? Come on babe, I still have conscience."

"What are you insinuating? Are you saying I don't have conscience? Thank you for reminding me that I'm Jezebel." I said trying to ease the guilt.

I hurriedly picked my Bible and my scarf from the floor and dashed out of the room. "Onyeche, wait let me see you off," I heard his voice from a distance.
That was not the first night I spent in his house in the name of vigil, neither was it the second nor third.

You may think that was the worst thing I have done. No, I did worse than that. I aborted two babies for Fred, the assistant prayer band leader who was always leading the prayer section.

My father who was a well thought of elder in the church was glad that her daughter was burning for God.

I was not just deceiving my father, I was deceiving the members of the church, I was deceiving the pastor whose favourite I was.

Never had he ministered without me acting as the backup singer. He trusted and believed so much in me. And above all, I was deceiving myself as my self-worth was dwindling.

When I got to the church, Agnes was still leading the praise section.

It seemed she was stylishly waiting for my arrival to take the worship section as I was considered to be the most fire-branded member of the church.

As the choir mistress, I was supposed to be seated at the front seat, but I sat behind so that my incoming would not be noticed.

I glanced through the pulpit, the pastor's gaze was on me and I trembled within as he signaled an invitation.