Diary of an ugly girl episode 1

-Diary of an ugly girl-
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Proudly written by Okonkwo Blessing

Episode one
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Miranda pov

I have been standing in front of the mirror for over thirty minutes I guess, I'm just afraid to open my eyes ..... I'm scared to see my image, it is not something worth watching
I hate seeing my image cos it always makes me sad and it makes me to question God for creating me this way. My own image turned me into a jelouse human being, I envy those with pretty face and nice body.... And I wonder if it is the same God that creates us both
I think I'm the most ugly girl on Earth, I've searched everywhere and I couldn't see anyone that is more ugly than I am. I've never boast of being more pretty than someone

At last I slowly open my eyes to see the most ugly human on earth. Seeing my own image nearly makes me to puke
Fat and red cheeks, flat nose, chubby or I must say fat body, big ugly eye balls, ugly hair and so small in height ..... I nearly escape dwarf. I am twenty years old but I look like a girl of ten years old
I let the tears slide as I quickly ran out from the mirror, I look at my self on the mirror once in a while and anytime I did.... I learn to hate myself the more


I flung on my bed realsing the tears in my heart, it hurts so much and it hurts much that my own mother is so ashamed of me
She has never introduced me to any of her friends and she never let the public know that I'm her child
So as my two sisters, they are also ashamed of me. We attend the same school but no one in the school knows that I'm their sister

Mum should have killed me the day she gave birth to me. Why did she let me to live when she knows that she can't boldly expose me to the public as her daughter
My life is such a bitter one and anyone that has not been in my shoes can never understand it
I have no friends ever since my childhood and I never get to enjoy a happy childhood rather I was bullied by my mate, even till this age I am still bullied
No guy has ever looked at me twice talk more of asking me out, my face is kind of scary to them
So stupid as I am, I was crushing on a guy that can nerver ever be mine. He has not for once look at me and I don't think he will ever do. I know I'm wasting my time loving him but I don't think is a burden to me


After crying my heart out, I wipe my eyes and breath out. This has been my usual routine anytime I look at my self on the mirror
Just then the door creak open and Mandie my junior sister pop in her head, she despise coming into my room
"Listen Miranda, my boyfriend wants to have dinner with mum and my sister so better not show up coolval stories cos you are not needed there
I don't want your ugly face to scare my boyfriend away" she said rudely and slam the door behind her and more tears fell down my check
Why are they treating me this way, am I the one that creates myself. If my own family are treating me this way what else do I expect from outsiders

Mandie and Clair has never for once call me their sister talk more of mum, she has never showed me a motherly love
About one hour later, after I'm done bathing and dressed in my nightie .... I heard chattering from the dinning, I guess Mandie boyfriend is here
I fell like an outcast in my own father's house, there is no use going out there because I will only embarrass myself


I miss father because he is the only one that shows me love and remind me of my worth. He gives me the strength to adapt to this wicked world
I became week after his death, life became more boring and sometimes I think of committing sucide
I once wanted to take my life but that was when father was still alive, he was the one that stopped


"No matter what you may face in this world, killing yourself won't solve the problem. By killing yourself you are letting the world rejoice that they worn against you, you have to stand up for yourself and enjoy your life, you are human being like them and have the right to be happy like them" my father lectured me the day I wanted to take my life
From that day till the day he died his words are in my heart, they always ring to me wherever I tries to do something silly to myself


The next day ....


I prepared early for school as usual, Mandie and Clair are known for their late coming
They are just spoilt brat who are wasting mum's money in Cambridge University
Mum said that she is not going to see me through college but luckily for me I gain a scholarship
Mum is rich but I don't live like a rich woman's child. Mum cares less about my well being, she only cares for Mandie and Clair


I need to work a part-time jobs just to see for my basic needs except food and shelter but sometimes they gave me no food
I applied for job in a coffee shop even in a pizzeria but I was denied the job because of my ugliness
It took me time to find job and the only place I did find job is at a construction company as a cashier
It wasn't easy working there because of the so much insult I receive everyday at work but I can't give up because the job is of so much help to me
I goes to work by the weekend and whenever I'm free at school


After preparing for school I walk to the kitchen to make for me something to eat
Clair walks in and her mood changes immediately she set her eyes on me
"Why should it be you of all people, now my day will be ruined by seeing you this early morning" she said irritated. I just ignore her
I took the cup to make myself a coffee
" Hey!, Don't infect the cup with your ugliness" she gush out and I still keep quite doing what I'm doing
There is no point trying to talk back at her because in the end she will be the one to win

"You know what is good for you.... Just die because you are not needed in this world. You are a disease and a bad luck. I wonder why God made you my sister.... So irritating" she blurt out and storm out of the kitchen
I couldn't hold back the tears, I just let it slide. I lost my appetite at the moment


By now I should be comfortable with their bad words to me but it still hurt, it still hurts so much. They are my family, they suppose to be different from the outsiders
I left the kitchen without having anything. My life is such a bitter one, I thought I will adapt but is hard
I took a taxi to school, the taxi man never stop glaring at me, I guess he is so irritated by my ugliness and he regrets giving me a ride


my heart skip a bit as I step down from the taxi, I'm going to face those students today
I breath in heavily walking towards my department, just then there was a choas
The student where rushing to a point, I wonder what's going on but seeing Alexander Jones walking in the midst of the students and his guards trying to chase the students away, I realise that he was the reason for the choas
He is my crush but I know I'm just day dreaming because he can never be mine no matter what
I smile sheepishly starring at his handsome face, he is just so handsome just like an angel and his Aurora speaks riches


Almost all the female students are dying to make him theirs but the problem with him is that he is a play boy, he sleeps with a lady just once and after that he got nothing to do with her again
As he approach me I felt butterflies in my belly but he wasn't looking at me, but at the path which he works.... He didn't even notice my presence and why should he anyway, no guy has ever notice my presence talk more of the Demi good Alexander. The students calls him Alexander the great


He is a singer, a model, a dancer and the Jones heir. He is also an actor but he loves singing and dancing more than his other occupation
A crazy fan of his who is trying to feel her finger ran through any part of his body ended up pushing me and I fall on his body as we both falls down, I was on top of him


I wide my eyes in shock as I tries to gulp down, I feel my heart beating so fast inside of me and my breath ceased
The students gasp, I can see so much jelouse in their murmuring. Why should they be jelouse, Alexander won't find me attractive but disgusting
I can see the irritating and angry look in his face but I was stupidly staring at his handsome face forgetting to get off him
God spent the whole day creating this guy, he is freaking handsome. I just can't get enough of him. Why didn't he create me this way, maybe God hates me so much


I was still in deep thought when Alexander push me brutally and I fall down hurting myself at the process
His guards help him up and his face held so much anger, I know that I'm in for trouble but it wasn't my fault that I fell on him
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TBC