Diary of an imostar season2 saturday 27/10/2012

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i slept that tuesday night with my thoughts, but then my thinking was of no use{importance} cos i really could not come up with any solution, but truthfully i also did not help myself those moments, for i really do not know what i even wanted, and so my own confusion really made me more stupid, and to be sincere, deep down i still wanted both of them, hmmmm, but am i really okay? I do hope so.......

Wednesday soon approached, and my anxiety grew higher, cos i knew that thursday is finally almost there, "how days run very fast when you have problem" i said to myself that wednesday morning as i kept to myself in my room cos my mood was far from happy........however i later spent the rest of that wednesday afternoon and early evening with my primary school friend, collins who lived in nnaji nwede street{achara layout} cos i couldn't endure the loneliness at home any longer and it wasn't long before i heard myself laughing, as collins cracked his usual jokes for which he was known for since our primary school days, but then he wasn't really my close friend but just a mere friend, cos we hardly get along very well.......

I returned home around 7pm that evening, and after my dinner and night bath, went outside to enjoy the evening breeze which was really blowing hard that evening, and so i sat on a pavement in front of our house and enjoyed it, while i browsed with my phone, and it wasn't long, probably 30minutes later, adaora came to my surprise and sat beside me wearing her usual seductive nightie and faking a smile, 'yea' i called her smile a fake cos i really did not see the reason for her smile that evening, and i looked down immediately and concentrated on my phone which i was previously browsing with, "i'm sorry for everything, there is no need bearing grudges with me, cos it had already happened, and i did all those things because you hurt me" she said to me quietly and stopped, while she waited for me to say something, but i just stood up and walked into the house without talking to her, or even caring about how she felt, but then i was also kind of suspicious with her behaviour that evening, cos adaora does not look like a girl who will just beg me easily after all that had happened between us, but then she did come, and till today i really do not know whether she was forced to apologise, or whether it was from her heart, but then i strongly felt that my immediate younger sister had a hand in it........

Hmmmm and finally thursday approached, the dreaded day.........

To be continued......