What I am about to share here is non-fiction but real life.
I had this girl whom I dated. To be honest with you, I really
love her but after 4 months she decided to end the relationship
on the basis of sex because I was demanding for it or often
sounded naughty while talking on phone.
But in all honesty, I really loved her. I had the most powerful,
intense and high voltage but romantic kiss with her that last
more than 1 hour, such that after the kiss she looked into my
eyes and told me "I love you", I acted like I didn't hear her and
she said, " did you hear me? I said I love" (apparently, she was
speaking under the influence of kiss. The kiss was damn too
powerful and till date no girl has given that experience).
I was only doing all that (demanding for sex) because I had just
left a relationship where I had no sex and my ex at that time
gave another guy to fork her. So out of fear and trying to be on
safer side, I wanted to have sex with the girl described here
because I felt it will make her stay.
She left and all along I thought she left because I was
demanding sex and because she felt I didn't love her but
wanted to use and dump her.
She told me she does not want date for too long and that max
is 1 year and she will get married. She also painted a picture of
not wanting to date anyone till she is ready.( they always sound
so confidence like they know the future while in a confused
state ) but I guess reality has reset that reasoning.
For more than 3 years I kept trying to resolve issues. She
would yell at me, insult me, call me names, tell me not to call
her line again.
This year, I tried some more (don't blame me, when I love
someone I hardly give up). I brought up the issue of resolving
things and it was same old story. This time around, things took
another dimension as she told me she now has someone else
and that I should look for some or why must it be her, is she
the only girl in the world.
So I asked why didn't she give m a chance even though I had
been trying to resolve issues with her but she chose to be with
someone else. She told me because she does not feel anything
for me and that she does not love me. I felt hurt on hearing that
but I persisted.
All along I still had the image in my head that she left because I
was trying to have sex with her but life later revealed to me that
isn't the case.
One day we were chatting and when I told her I built a virtual
property for an NGO. She asked if I was paid; I said I did it
voluntarily but the VP of the NGO did send me some money
from the US.
On hearing that she started laughing. She said I should stop
"whinning" her ( that is deceive). It was as if I do not have such
capacity to command such authority that will make someone
send me money from US.
It later dawned on me that she was laughing at me because she
saw me as a nobody. Out of annoyance and anger, something
I hardly did, I had to show transactions I had done in the past
and earned dollars so she would know it isn't something new
to me.
I told her I knew she had bad image of me but I never knew it
was bad as she had just revealed. Then she said NO OOO that
is is not what she meant and she does not look down on
anyone o. Blah blah. I said I have heard her but it does not
change the fact she saw me as no good.
I said no problem and we proceeded. So I decided to test
something. I told her I was around sometime and would have
loved to see her but couldn't ask her. She ask why and I told
her because she would say no.
She said I should have called her. So I asked her to search her
conscience if she hadn't been turning me down. She said it's
true but I should try that it will work this time
