ain't the perfect Place
to come asking for advice but I have no one to
confide to, am this kinda person that find it
hard sharing personal issues with someone I
know, When I read people write about their
personal love life issues I find it very funny sha..lol..
Not knowing I'll one day face mine and be
forced to share it. Been dating this girl for 3
years now am in the university, 400L while
she's in her 300L presently, she's always
cared and loved me undoubtedly since day 1, always had back in school both financially and
others too and we've always had this plan for a
future together, coz I strongly believe and
know our love was real. The bond we had was
just so strong, suddenly I had an issue with
school which brought me back though. Sadly Had to start all over from 100L it hurts
me so much, though all the time have been
going through this dilemma, she's always tried
encouraging me and pushed me not to give up
on my dream.
I was almost thinking so negative when I had this school ish, thought about killing myself
thinking the world was over. But this lady stood
by me and never gave up on me and
convinced me that killing my self wouldn't help
matters (I was really a mess then, like a HUGE
mess) didn't go out much, had to stay in school a whole year preparing all over again for jamb
nd all that, tho still attending lectures.
Now, when I had this issue that was were my
dreams started shattering, our future wasn't
looking all bright anymore because now am
starting all over again, when I'll be in my 100L she'll be in her 300L and on and on like that..
It really broke my heart, at some point she
believes in me and tries to convince me things
would be better and I'll definitely scale through,
But most times there's just this little doubts that
comes in, You Ladies are prone to marry early (and she's very cute) which is actually a huge
A+, men have always been coming asking for
her hand in marriage and she has always
declined them.. But she ain't getting any
younger, and has to get married someday,
sadly she told me yesterday she really do love me so much and has always had my back
always and supported me always and which is
so true that she has just decided to give me
some lil break so I can try sorting my self out
and balancing my life and she has decided to
agree to one of her suitors(the guy is quite close to her family/ he's financially stable too
tho the guy has a lil kid sha I guess his a single
dad) coz she's always told me about ppl
asking for her hand in marriage, though they
ain't getting married now, but at least she
wants to face him, instead of pushing away all her suitors and in the future wen she
graduates and am Still in school, it might not be
easy for me to be financially stable easily, tho
she begged me that Pls hope I wouldn't paint
her as a bad person coz she really tried for
me. I've just been really down since she told me
this and it's really affecting me so much tho
what she says is sadly the truth, Have just
really built my life around her and she's just
the only one I confined to in school when I
have issues (coz am really this typa person who don't flows and share things easily with
anyone, I kinda hv trust issues) don't really
know how I'll cope when Am back to school,
we leave close to each other in school, and
she still really wants to be friends with me and
wants to always support me too. Don't really know what to do right now I really do love her
so much because she's an amazing person
who has just been by my side through really
hard times in school, it wont be easy starting
Just as friends right now, I really do have a
mild heart. Wish I could rewind the hands of the clock and
correct the mistake I made that made me start
all over again.. It's just really sad
Pls if I made a mistake with my typing, don't
attack me.. Just really down now
