CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS. 1 RUDZANI I was busy cleaning the house while my siblings were in their bedrooms. Mom: Rudzi!!! Rudzani Me: Ma!!! Mom: Idani ngeno.. Me: I'm coming. I went to her. Me:Mma vhakho mmbidza? (Mom did you call me?) Mom:No fhedza u cleana naa? (Are you done cleaning? Me: Ndovha ndi Saathu.. (Not yet) Mom: Mulandu nisina mushumo mara.Ndi mini tshino khou ni khakhisa u fhedza kulumaga? (Why are you so useless.What is it that is distracting you to finish with cleaning? ) Me:ndo thoma nda swiela muta..thi pfesesi iri mulandu vhasa ambi na vhanwe uri vhade vha nthuse. (Ma I had to sweep the yard first..I don't know why you don't ask the others to help me.) Mom:u nithusa mini? Ni songo amba tshika. Ndi vhatuku kha inwi,vha na mushumo wa tshikolo. Inwi no nanga zwo sokouvha muthu zwawe kha vhutshilo. Musi nitshi dzulela u feila nani kho mbudza uri nikho toda uvha mushumi nisa zwipfi,zwino ndikho ni pfumbudza. Habe ni tavhanye ngauri nikhadi tea ubika navha kuvhela na uniform. (Help you with what? Don't talk nonsense..They are young compared to you.They have school work to do.You chose to be useless in life..When you kept on failing you were giving me an indirect message that you want to be a maid so I'm training you.Be quick because you still have to cook and wash their uniforms) If I was someone else I swear they would have given up on life but as for me i take mom's insults and hard labour everyday.Crying doesn't help nor does pleading...I tried working hard at school but honestly I'm not gifted...Its true that even if you try hard but when it's not meant to be it's not.I tried hard at school but I kept failing my grade 10..When the teacher teached I would understand but the moment I'm alone in the exam room it all flushes out of my head....Im young and foolish,Made bad desicions and I turned my back on religion...I just live for the sake of living because I'm a coward to even think about killing myself. Mom: Nikha divha hafha nah? (Are still here?) I walked away. I made sure to be fast with cleaning then when I was done I cooked...Ipfi is 15 so she helped me with washing the uniform.Ipfi is so caring when it comes to me.She always helps out when she sees I need the help. Mom: Ipfi get inside before you catch a cold. I'm glad we were almost done.Only left with hanging them at the washing line.I hanged the clothes and when I was done with all the chores I took a bath with cold water with the weather cold as it is..I wasn't allowed to boil water because according to mom I don't buy electricity..I was shivering I don't want to lie..When I was done I wore warm clothes and visited my friend Konanani.But I call her nani. Nani: My ancestors must have remembered that I'm one of them today. I laughed. Me: Vhupengo (madness) Nani: No like seriously you visit me hmm that's a first. Me: I needed fresh air. Nani: sugar mama breathing fire? Me: You have no idea. Nani: Where is her ven 10? Me: I don't even care.She is dating this other pervert who keeps looking at my thighs when I'm cleaning.But Atleast this time she is dating someone older than her. Nani: Hey girl be careful..You can never trust this men Me: I will. Nani is my friend.She dropped out of school in grade 8 because she is also like me..Nani is a stripper at some night club at Thohoyandou.She had been asking me to atleast ask for a job a a bartender and I told her I will think about it..Im a very shy person so working at place full of people will be a struggle for me.. Nani: I spoke to the owner of the club and he said you can come and meet him. Me: But Nani I said I will think about it. Nani: You never did so I took matters into my own hands.. There was no arguing with her. Nani: Tonight when I go to work I will be going with you.. Me: Haaaa Nani tomorrow. Nani: I said tonight. Me: Mxm. Let me go home then. Nani: If you go there you won't come back.You will wear my clothes. She is the same size as me.We both have a little bit of curves..Flat stomach and some lol bit of an ass.The only difference is that I'm light in complection and she is dark. LESLEY FLASHBACK Me: Father I said I can't work for you.I want to be my own man Mom: Then you leave us no choice but to disown you Me: And you give me no choice but to disown you as my parents aswel. Dad: You think this is a game son? Me: Dad why isn't Ethan forced to work for you..Why do I have to work for you. Dad: Because he chose to be a lawyer and he will be the company's lawyer.So you see he will also be working for the family. Me: I don't get why you have to force me.I want to someday tell my children how I worked hard to be the man I will be in the future.How i have hustled to give them the wonderful life I will be giving them Mom: Its either the family company or nothing at all.We didn't send you to school to turn your back on us. Me: I have already got a job. I gave them my appointed letter. I guess that was my biggest mistake. He tore the contract into pieces. Dad: You won't be working for anyone.I almost cried but Instead I walked away and that was the last day I went home. PRESENT DAY Ethan: Nigga go home and talk to them. Me: If they won't listen to you then why would they listen to me.Its been two years Ethan,Two fucken years and I can't get a job anywhere.Sometimes I wonder if they are my parents.why would they go this far? What do they expect me to eat,wear and live? Ethan: That is why I'm here.. Les they know I'm the one helping you and they are threatening me. Me: They won't do anything to you dude.Please give me a little more time to find Atleast something small and I will provide for myself. Ethan: *heavily sigh* Two months Les Me: What? Ethan I'm your twin.Why are you letting them control you? Why are you being a pussy? You are a grown up for crying out loud. Shaz: You seem to forget that we want to get married.You are the one standing in between our finances..If Ethan is afraid to tell it all to you then I will.You sit all day I'm not even sure you are looking for a job.You are even ungrateful you call him a pussy when he is the only one putting proof over your head and he is feeding and clothing you. Me: Bitch who gave you the permission get involved in my conversation with my twin? Sharon or whoever your name is who died and made you Dr Phil? Shaz: Excuse me? Me: You are excused. Ethan grabbed me by my shirt Ethan: I will take it if you disrespect me but not my fiance.We may be twins but I'm the oldest and you will respect me. I can't believe he is doing this.He threw me with a stack of money. Ethan: Manage that for two months until you get a job.I paid this flat for 3years so this is the final year. He pushed me and I fell and he left. I guess I no longer have

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CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS* 2 LESLEY I have always grew up with a silver spoon in my mouth.I got everything I wanted.My parents spoiled me...Who knew that one day I will be homeless.. I never made friends when I was at school because I was too focused.I wanted to make my parents proud that is why I always passed with flying colours..I have ways heard people saying education is the key to success but why am I not successful? Well if my parents think that this will make me go back then they have one thing coming. Yes they paid for my school fees but that was their responsibility as parents..I seriously wonder what kind of parents do such evilness to their kids.I had alot of mixed emotions.I walked out of the building and took a walk. I saw a bar not far so I hesitated to go in but I ended up going...I sat at the stools with my mind occupied. I don't know for how long I sat but I felt someone tap my shoulder. It was a man who had bodyguards with. Guy: 8ta I didn't want any run ins with trouble so I stood up and walked away...I seriously need a plan.. I went back to my flat thinking...Suddenly a plan hit my mind.What I'm gonna do is go back home.Im gonna go back to Limpopo.I don't have any other choice.Venda is home and Atleast there I won't pay rent because I will be staying at a family house.Last time I checked no one was living there.. My mom comes from Venda..I sort of grew up there being raised by my grandparents until they passed on.My mother was their only child..The family house is still in good shape.. I started packing.There is no life left for me here... * * I so much hate travelling with public transport.There are different smells in the taxi and that alone triggered my sinus...Only if I still my car..Its sad how I went from a wonderful life of having all I need to being a begger. When I got to Thohoyandou I took a taxi to Hamutsha.When I got there the house still looked the same...Even though the weeds were alot at the yard..I sighed heavily...Its gonna be a long story of my life...I went through the gate and went to the old place where we used to keep our spare keys and I found them.Inside was very dusty and some corners at the ceiling had spider webs. RUDZANI Nani was busy doing what she is paid to do while I was sitting at the high stools at the bar. I was really bored..This is not my kind of place to be. Nani: No maarn friend that's not how we have fun.Im glad I finished early. Look at how you are making this place boring.... Bar man please give us cherry mainstay cocktails for now.. Me: I hope that's not alcohol. Nani: Its not.. I gave her a questioning look. Our drinks came and we drank..It wasn't bad at all.Ir even made me drink more.With every sip I felt good...This went on until I felt the need to dance. Me: Friend let's hit the dance floor. Nani: Why not. I kind of love hip hop music and I cramp to it.But then I can also make some move on deep house. But they were place work by Rihanna and Drake. I started shaking what was given to me to embrace as my body. Nani: I seriously feel belittled right now..You know you dance better than I do.. Me: Then let's do our dance routine.. We started dancing the moves I taught her.We even stole the crowd's attention.People were cheering..Im a shy person so It took me the courage I had to realise that what I was drinking was alcohol..It tasted really sweet for me to not realise that it's not juice or some famous drink without alcohol in it...Whem the song came to an end we went back to the bar.Niggas where now looking at me. Me: Why are they looking at us like this? Nani: No sweetheart they are looking at you not us.. Me:. Because of the dance? No no no I can't have people starting at me. Nani: Here comes my boss. Man: Ladies. Us: Hello. Man: I'm Nditsheni and everyone calls me boss. Yoh this guy looked scary. I don't know if it's me or what but alot of guys who owns such places are huge and scary..They always have a story to tell.Scars at some places in their bodies. Nani: Boss this is Rudzie my friend. Boss: Well Nani I saw you and your friend on the dance floor and I was impressed.so was the crowd so i have a proposal for you. My hands started being sweaty.This guy wana offer me something and I'm not interested.What scares me is that he doesn't look like the type that takes no for an answer.. Boss: Please follow me to my office. He turned and walked away. We followed him.. Guess who is back........

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CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS.* 3 LESLEY Cleaning a house is not easy..Im lying on the couch tired..I have been cleaning this place since I got here and it's now spotless..One thing about me is that I'm a clean freak.It was already late and I had nothing in the house to cook so I had to settle for take away.I took a quick shower and after i walked to the nearest chisa nyama.i bought half chicken and pap with chakalaka..Tomorrow I will have to use this money to buy food.I can't afford to waste this money because it's the only money I have left. RUDZANI Boss: So I had a lot of thinking and I would like to hire you (pointing at me) as one of my stripper. I didn't know how to answer him because I'm scared of how he looks and how he keeps his face serious without a little smile.But I have to stand up for myself,otherwise if I don't then who will. Me: uhhmm no I can't.. Nani looked at me with a shocked expression. Nani: But you need the money. She said that in a whisper tone. Me: I'm sorry Mr boss but I have to turn your offer down. Boss: Why don't you think about it the get back to me next weekend. Me: I'm sure my answer will still be no but I will do that. Boss: Great. We attempted to walk out. Boss: hey why don't you join me for a drink in the Vip section? I will pay. Nani: Surely you can't say no to free drinks aswel. I didn't want to turn her down so I just agreed for her sake. We went out the office and went to the Vip section.. I asked for mainstay while they had whatever they were drinking..They seemed to be so cosy together. A part of me felt like there is more to them being a boss and an employee.. I was getting drunk now soon stood up and started to dance it off. ETHAN Me:Dad I can't find him.His clothes are gone. Mom: Don't worry about that black sheep he will surely come back.There is nowhere to run to around here.He will come to his senses. Me: Mom why are you this heartless.He has nothing on him..How will he make it out there? It was better when he was around and I could see him but to not know where he is then that is torture.what if he gets killed or commits suicide out there? Have you no heart. Dad: Stop it both of you.Im trying to work and you are disturbing me.We were at dad's study and he was busy on his laptop. Me:Dad you are not gonna say anything? Dad: I only have one son which is you so I don't know who you are talking about.Noe stop disturbing me.. With that said I walked out... I shouldn't have cut him off.I shouldn't have made him feel like he is a burden to me..What kind of a twin brother am I? I know that him and I were not close and we didn't have a single thing in common but we shared a womb for crying out loud and that should count for something.. I shouldn't have let our parent nor a woman come between us.Im such a fool. RUDZANI. My phone rang or should I say my oun rang? It was mom..I became sober minded same time.I wonder what is it that I have done this time. Nani: If it's your mom don't answer it.Im not gonna spend time nursing you making you to stop crying because of that old woman..She must learn to respect your relaxing time away from her tantrums.When Nani talks like this she is drunk so I switched my phone off...We drank till I wanted to go home. Boss: Why don't you guys spend a night at my house. Me: I have to go home otherwise mom will be breathing fire.I don't want to get burnt. Nani: I will take the offer. Boss: Okay come we drop your friend home first. We walked out. The drive home felt long that I ended up sleeping. Nani: Wake up Rudzi you are home. I got out without a word...I searched for my keys in my bra and unlocked the gate as slow as I can without making noise..I had to be extra careful when unlocking the door.I tip toed to my room and when I approached the passage the lights went on. Shit is about to hit the roof. Mom:ni coubva ngafhi?( Where are you coming from? Silence Mom:Rudzi ndi cou amba na inwi( Rudzie I'm talking to you) ni cou bvafhi vhusiku vhu ngafha? (Where are you coming from at this time of the night? Me:ndo vha ndo di visa na khonani dzanga ( I was out with my friend. Mom:zwino ni cou lavhelela uri ndi dzule vhusiku hothe ndi cou vhilaela nga inwi uri no tsireledzea kana hai ? ( So you expect me to sit here all night and worry if you are okay or not? Me: pfarelo mma (Sorry ma Mom: ibvani nduni yanga (Get out of my house Me: Huh? Mom:no mpfa.humelani hune na bva hone.ni do vhuya ni si cha nukha sa chipotoni (You heard me.Go back to where you are coming from.You will come back in here when you don't smell like a shebeen.. Me: mianga avha mpfarele.ndi cou humbela pfarelo, zwinga si cha itea (Mom please forgive me.Im sorry.it won't happen again. Mom: NDIRI IBVANI RUDZANI!!! I turned around very fast because when mom is angry anything can happen..

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CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 4 RUDZANI I was never a fan of walking out late at night.I only went out most times with Nani because of avoiding the situation at home.Yes it's an everyday thing which I can get used to but who am I kidding it's not easy especially since it's being done by someone who is supposed to protect me from the cruelty of this world. I dialed Bank's number. Nani: I thought you will be sleeping by now. Me: Mom kicked me out. Nani: What? This time of the night? Me: Yes Nani.Please come back..I am at the Sixth street from home that leads to the main road next to that Mafadza house.. Vele is the surname of the people who were living here Nani: Okay stay there.We are coming.But will take a bit of time. Me: Cool. I hanged up.I was next to the abondened house that belonged to the Mafadza people.But to my surprise the lights were on.Maybe they are renting the house...Its better that there is someone living here because abondened houses you never know if rapists stay there waiting for their next victim.. I waited for 30 minutes until they got here..Well maybe Boss lives far.I got in the car and he drove off.I was surprised when we got to the house within a 10minutes.Yes he lives at Tsianda which is the neighbouring village to Hamutsha. He parked the car in the double garage and led us in the house...Its a very beautiful house. They were talking non stop and I was sleepy Me: Can you please show me to one of the guest rooms.im really sleepy.. Boss:Pick any except the one with the white door because that is my main. Me: Okay. I left them there and I picked a room that had an ensuit.I took off my clothes and and went to take a shower so that I can sleep without struggles.when I was done I slept wearing nothin.. BOSS When that girl with a sexy body called Nani to come and pick her up I was kind of happy but she called at a wrong time..I was busy fucking her friend.That girl seems different..She seems like the type that can make a player want to settle down.I wasn't even surprised when she turned my offer down..What I will do is offer her a bartender job but she will also have to teach my girls how to dance like she does..My club will have a lot of customers through her.Alot of men don't only come there for drinks,they want to escape their nagging wives and find joy just by watching half naked girls shaking their booty.Nani was fast asleep because I spiked her drink with sleeping pills so I went to the room she was occupying..I was carrying juice which had drugs and a sleeping pill inside for her and a glass of champagne for me.I opened the door and she was naked on the bed.I became hard same time.I got to the bed and shook her.She opened her eyes slightly and when she saw it was me she panicked and covered herself. Rudzi: What are you doing here? Me: I needed to talk to you about that offer.I seriously could use someone like you in my team.Even if you don't have to be a stripper. Rudzi: Can't we talk in the morning. Me: It won't take long. I have her the glass of juice and she just looked at it. Me: Come on if I wanted to spike it will I be here begging you. She took it and gulped it down at once. Me: You were really thirsty. Rudzi: sort of. Me: I was thinking that you teach my girls how to dance like you do in exchange you can be a bartender. Rudzi: That..that sounds better. I kept on talking until I could see they are kicking In her system Rudzi: I'm really sleepy.We can continue to......She fell on the bed.. She is someone who won't be waking anytime soon. I took off the fleece and her body was exposed...I was only wearing a gown so I took it off and damn I was hard. I lifted her to the corned of the bed and I parted her legs and went down on her..She was so clean and sweet.. I realised that she was still pure.How come a girl her age is still sealed? But this is not gonna stop me from getting my way with her.This is still soon.I have to get her comfortable into coming here on her own will then when she least expect it the boom i strike.The only option I have is to throw dice while watching her.I was even getting the tip of my manhood at the entrance of her womanhood..I ended up putting it in her mouth. When I was satisfied I went back to my bedroom. TENDANI Me: Mom but I don't feelnthe vibe here at all.I just wish you can let me go back to Cape town..This place is boring. Mom: So says someone who grew up here.This is your third year Tendi and if I let you go there you will still play and fail.No I rather let you attend at UNIVEN than let you waste my money there. Me: Mom i promise I will focus this time around. Mom: No Tendani!! My word is final..Your father is biting my head off because of you.Im sorry but this time around I agree with him.Sending you there from the start was a very big mistake.Look at what you are wearing? You are always patting and you never have time for anything.Im sorry but you are enrolling at UNIVEN. Me: Mxm arghhhh I hate my life and I hate you!!! I ran upstairs to my room My name is Tendani Mudau,I'm 21.The only child to both my parents.Mommy is mixed raced while daddy is a pure Venda breed.Mom is a fashion designer and dad is a business man.He owns clubs and has shares in different companies around.I grew up spoilt and according to me I don't see any use of going to school because when my parents pass on then everything will be on my name.There is nothing i lack..For two years i have been at cape town university...Honestly I only attended classes when I was bored if I wasn't then I was out patying or on vacations with my friends and most of the times I was the one paying..What I can say now is that my parents are fed up and they want me to study at the University of Venda which is the last place I want to be because there is no vibe here and they won't give me money like they used to when I was not here.. Walk with me aswel on this journey. RUDZANI When I woke up it was around one in the afternoon.. Me: Shit my head hurts I rubbed my eyes which were disoriented for a while.I got up the bed and went to take a shower.It was wierd because rhe entrance of my kitty was a bit painful when i pee When I was done I wore yesterday's clothes.Nani got in when I was about to got out. Nani: I almost reported you dead. I chuckled. Nani: I got clothes for you. She gave me the Mr price plastic and there was a high waisted black jean with a red crop top. Me: They are new? Nani: Yes Me: Thanks Nani Nani: Thank boss because he is the one who insisted. Me: Ohhkay. I changed and we went downstairs where boss was watching tv. Boss: Look who woke up. Me: You guys should stop.I slept late. Boss: Here are the car keys.I have to get home.Im sure my wife has turned into a dinosaur breathing all kinds of flames.. Me: Okay He put the keys on the stander the left. Me: How many houses does he have? Nani: I'm not sure hey. Come let's go and eat then go home. Me: I hope mom won't give me problems. Nani: I'm sure she is calm now. Me: I hope so She made bacon and eggs, we ate with bread and apple juice. When we were done with tidying up we took a local taxi home. We got off at the main road. Me: Friend did I tell you that there is someone living at the Mafadza house? Nani: No way.The house has been abondened for long. Me: Well last night the lights were on.And look the yard is clean. Nani: I didn't know that.Well maybe someone is renting. Me: Maybe. Nani: Friend don't look 6 o'clock direction there is a handsome banana bone guy wearing a cap backwards. I turned and looked. She slapped my hand. Nani: I said don't look. Me: He must be New in the are I don't know him. Nani: Nana even if he lived here for years you wouldn't know him because you are always home so don't claim. But I'm allowed to say I don't know him at all.. We were talking looking at him we didn't even notice him approach us. Les: Sorry can I help you? Us: Huh? Les: You are starting and starring is rude. Me: uhh sorry. Nani: What are you sorry for friend? Me: Starring. Nani: Mxm why you gotta apologise.The eyes stare at what they want to stare.Dont let cheese boy threaten you. Les: Excuse me. Nani: You are excused. She walked away. Les: I'm Lesley by the way.The grandson of Mr Mafadza. Me: Uhh I'm Rudzani but Rudzi in short..uhhm I have to go my friend is leaving me behind. Les: Okay.Nice to meet you. Me: Likewise. I walked away. LESLEY That is one beautiful girl.I took a taxi to town.What I did first was to job hunt.I came across a club "Tendi's "..I got up and they directed me to the boss. Boss: How can I help you Mr... Me: Lesley Mafadza.Im looking for a job A man has gotta do what a man has gotta do.I couldn't say my direct surname.Coming to think of it im gonna change to my maternal surname because dad leave me no choice. Boss: The only post I have is for stripper. My eyes widened. Me: What? Boss: yes. Me: Well I will take it. Boss: You must be stranded.im kidding but I have a post for bartender.It's yours if you want it. Me: Wow really. Boss: Yes bit you must know that the money is not alot. Me: I will take whatever is thrown my way... Boss: Go to Peter and tell him that I said you must go to him for training..You will start tomorrow. Me: Thank you sir Boss: Sure now get out. I walked out.Maybe this is where my breakthrough will come

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ANGELINA episode 5 (Jordan's Mansion=Angelina's Bedroom). '' You don't seem to be happy about this trip if ours ''. Danny said. '' N..no.... I just wish,I could go with you guys ''. I said in sadness. '' Well,that's why dad is staying here with you ''. Danny said. '' Or you don't like the fact that dad is being left here alone with you? ''. '' No..not that. I'm okay ''. '' Hmmm,if you say so Angy. Anyway,I have to go and continue my packing. We'll have a long journey tomorrow ''. He said,stood up and left. Actually, I would ha e loved to tell Danby the whole truth about what his father did to me. But there was no way I could. He threatened to kill me and throw my body into the sea. I was worked up and worried. I sat up on the bed and hit my hand on something, only to check that Danny had left his phone on my bed. I was surprised, was destiny working in my favor? I quickly looked through my things and took out the card and tried calling the number Nickel gave me the other day...but it didn't go through. Was this a wrong number he gave me? But he really seemed like a nice person. I really needed help. I tried again but it still didn't go through. I heard someone's footsteps coming towards the gate and I quickly put the phone back. Danny entered and took back hi phone and left. (Next Day). Aunty and my cousins left early in the morning, accompanied by Uncle Tom. I was left alone in the house and I quickly rushed to the kitchen and put some raw rice on the fire and quickly ate up to my satisfaction. After that,I went upstairs and brought down all my dirty clothes and washed them clean. I hanged them under the brighting hot sun and went into the hall. I looked around, looking for a phone somewhere to call the number. I sear he'd all around and didn't find anything. I sat for a while and remembered the provision shopkeeper who asked mW to come there any time I was in need. I quickly stepped into the compound with the intention of heading to the shopkeeper and ask for a phone. As soon as I opened the main gate of the entrance, there standing in front of me wa Uncle Tom,frowning furiously. '' And where the hell do you think you are going? ''. Uncle Tom asked. '' I don't think you should bother yourself about that. In this country,we have freedom of movement ''. I replied. '' Oh really? Do you think we are in a court room,for you to show me the freedom you have? ''. '' I am going to go out right now...just leave me alone ''. '' Don't forget you've being left alone here with me okay? And your job,is to serve me,in and out of bed ''. He smiled evilly, getting closer to me. I turned and took to my heels and raced as fast as I could to the room,up the stairs and into my room then locked myself inside. I was so frightened in the broad day light. I couldn't control my breath,I squeezed myself at one corner of the bed and kept on weeping. Praying inside me to send some help to rescue me. I was not willing to face that same horrible night in that monster's hands. Suddenly, I heard the handle of my door being forced opened outside with a metal object. It was as if he had wanted to open it with force. '' Better make this simple off yourself and open gently girl,else if you allow me to suffer before getting to you,I will hurt you so bad with no mercy ''. Uncle Tom threatened. '' Leave me alone!!! If you dare come close to me,I will scream so loud that even the roofing will fall off! Get away from me you minster! ''. I shouted. Suddenly, all the noise I heard with the metal stopped. It was quiet now,and I begun to calm down. He must have left,that's what I thought. I was very much calm and happy now. My entire body was relaxed and slowly crawled myself into bed and fell asleep. I slept peacefully like a human with no troubles. I opened my eyes again and saw that it was dark everywhere. It was night again. I checked my wrist watch and saw that it was exactly 10pm. How could I sleep for that long? I couldn't believe. I would have preferred to stay in the room,locked up for the next one month until Aunty Okereke and my cousins to arrive home,but I was so hungry when I opened my eyes. I ward to the window and opened the louvers and the entire streets was empty. It was dark and the rain was drizzling. My things were still hanging down thereon the line. I slowly took the key to my door and silently unlocked it. I slowly opened the door and poked my head out and looked outside but I didn't see anyone. I was can by then and I slowly tiptoed out of my room and got to the stairs. I needed to get down there and remove my things, and also check if some food was in the kitchen. As soon as I raised one keg to step down,a strong arm grabbed hold of my hair and pulled me back with force in pain. He rapped his arms around my neck, strangling me to death. '' What did I tell you huh? What did I tell you about making me suffer before getting you? You stupid girl! ''. Uncle Tom groaned. '' Pleas...please uncle please, don't hurt me,I am sore..my whole body is sore, my entire body is in pain please. I beg you ''. I cried. '' Do you think I care? Do you think I care about you huh?! ''. '' Help me!!! Help me please! I beg you someone help me.....''. I kept screaming. But he pulled me back and dragged me back into my room. I pushed him away and tried to close the door but he held the handle and booted my abdomen, making me to fall to the ground and started bleeding profusely. I was completely paralysed now. He turned and locked the door and the rain started becoming heavier and heavier. I couldn't scream now. He carried me up into the bed and raped me behind my back and also in front of me. He did this repeatedly until he had satisfied himself. After this,he started dressing himself up,while my blood didn't stop coming. '' That's what you get,when you disobey me. Now,you'll be left here,all alone ''. He said and left the room then locked me up. My eyes couldn't close. I kept starring at the roof top and bleeding. I suddenly saw my parents,taking my hands...I asked them to take me with them. But they told me it was not yet time. I slept on the bed for a long hour. 1 week later,I was still lying down the same way I was. I couldn't move any of my body parts. And Uncle Tom never unlock the door to one check up on me or anything. If I felt like urinating, I did it on myself and it made the room stink so badly with the blood which was dried up on me. I had not rated food or what's for the past 1week. I was dying. And I started groaning louder and louder for him to come. And luckily for me,he entered the room and quickly covered hi nose with a napkin. '' My goodness! See how you've made this room stinky! How disgraceful you idiot! ''. He said in anger '' Water...wa..wa..water..foo.. Food... Please...''. I said weakly. Uncle Tom went outside and later brought back some food and water. He went back and brought a mob and a detol with water. He mobbed the room and removed the bedsheets and burnt them on the compound. The from was now smelling great. He helped me to sit up on the bed and I started eating. After eating and drinking,a little strength entered my body. He was sitting besides me while I ate. I hated him so much. I swear if I had strength, I would have taken his life. After eating,he took the plates and stood up to leave. '' I am not feeling well. Please,take me to see the doctor. I think I have..I think my fever is back. I'm weak,please take me to he hospital ''. I pleaded. '' You think am a fool to take you to the hospital. Then when we arrive,you'll announce to everyone that I have being raping you! ''. '' No...I swear I won't do that..please ''. '' Shut up there! The food I gave you will be enough to heal you ''. He said,left the room and locked me inside. Two weeks Late,I was burning up,the fever had climbed all over me.I was hot. Uncle Tom was now afraid. He quickly called and taxi and got me to the hospital. (The Hospital=Doctor's Office). What happened? ''. Doctor asked. '' She has fever. That's why I think...right Angelina? ''. Uncle Tom asked with a threatening look. '' Y..yes ''. I nodded in weakness. '' What is wrong doctor? ''. Uncle Tom asked. '' She's not having fever. She is three weeks pregnant! ''... '' No way! ''... To be continued...

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CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 5 TENDANI I was now watching tv with mom busy irritating me talking to her friend over the phone..Dad walked in looking all sorts of fresh. Mom hanged up her phone immediately. Mom: Where are you coming from? Since when do you sleep out? Dad: I had a long night woman.Work was hectic. Mom: You have started with your cheating tendencies.Warn her that if I know her it won't be nice at all Dad: I said I don't want to do this. He walked away. If there is one person who knows how to handle mom that's dad.He brushes her off and then let her cool off. I went after dad. Me: Daddy Dad: What do you want Tendi? Me: Daddy I want to go back to Cape town.Due time has come. Dad: My decision is final.You will be studying here. I frowned. Dad: That won't work this time around.Now leave me in peace. We were in his study so I went out.When he makes up his mind he never changes it.I turned and went back to his study. Me: Daddy are you not gonna go to Tendi's tonight? Dad: I will be going next week.I need to check on the one at phiphidi. Me: okay. I walked out with the inner me jumping for joy..Atleast I will be going out... LESLEY I was now at home cooking.When I was done at the club with Peter I went shopping for food and also to buy a decoder since there wasn't one on the house...The girl I met earlier today crossed my mind.Rudzani such a beautiful name owned by a beautiful lady.Who knew that I would like a girl after what Shudu did to me. #flashback Shudu: I don't know how to say this.. Me: Say what love? Shudu: I can't do this anymore Les Me: Do what? Shudu: This..us.this relationship.I can't continue with it anymore Me: whoaa whoaa whoaa babe what are you saying? What do you mean by that? Shudu: Look at you.You are broke,You don't even have anything in your name. Me: Wow really now Shudu? Shudu: Look at me.Im a lady and I need to be taken care of.You are failing to do that so some one else has come toward to take care of me and that's Stanley. Me: What? Stanley walked in. Stan: Yes she is mine now.You knew I liked her and you went for her. This is the worse betrayal ever.I never knew that Stan wanted Shudu but it was Ethan who knew Me: Cuz how many times must I tell you that I didn't know.I don't think it was me you told Stan: Stop lying..Anyway I got her now no need to be talking about the past. Me: Stan we are cousins bro.More like brothers.How can you do that? Break the brotherhood code. Stan: You broke it the minute you went for her. Me: Get out all of you Ethan: What? Me: I SAID LEAVE NOW!!!! #Back to present day I will never forget that day.We were at the flat i was living in with Ethan and Shaz since her and Shaz are friends.That was the first time a girl ever broke my heart.To make matters worse she did it infront of my twin and her friend.She was the first girl I ever gave my heart and I'm even ashamed to say that I still love her even now but then if I was given a chance to get back together with her I will only do that to hurt her.What she did to me is a scar for life. RUDZANI When I got home the house was dirty..I wonder if they will ever survive if I was to leave this place one day.This is injustice to my body.Im still tired.I changed the clothes and wore an old dress then started cleaning..Alot crossed my mind,If only I had passed at school none of this will be happening to me. Mom hates me because I kept on failing at school.Maybe this is all my fault.Its my fault that I was born stupid...I cleaned the house quickly..When i was done I started with cooking.I don't want mom to find me here.. Two hours later. I just finished bathing and as I was about to go out mom's boyfriend walked in with.. Me: Mom is not here. Pervert: I know that.I will wait for her. Me: Suit yourself..He came towards me and spanked my butt. I slapped him and mom walked in and saw what I did.Honestly I don't know where I got the courage to do so..My hands were shaking because I was scared Mom: RUDZANI!!!! She came towards me and slapped me so hard and then pulled me by my right ear. Mom: In my house you disrespect the man of the house? I just looked at her..Physical pain is something I have learnt to live with.It no longer makes me cry.Its what's inside the heart that hurts so much.The emotional abuse and torture that's something one can never get used to.Thats something I can never seem to control. I walked out the the little courage I had left. Mom: You have gone too far.You will find your bags outside. She shouted behind me. I walked out heading to Nani's place. Les: Whoever it is that is occupying your mind must be important for you not to even greet me. I didn't even see him..I raised my head..O used all the little energy I had left in me to greet him Me: Hey Les: Hello Me: bye Les: Hey wait..Can we talk. Me: Huh Les: Please. Me: Okay but I don't have much time it's almost 6 and I have somewhere to be at 8 Les: I won't take long I also have somewhere to be at 8. We walked in his yard and we actually went inside the house. Les: You can sit down. I sat on one of the couches. Les: I actually don't have alot of friends around here.arg rephrase that I don't have friends around here so I'm trying to create friendship since you look like someone who is decent to hang around with.So can you please hang around with me when you are not busy? Me: No funny business Les: No funny business I promise. Me: Okay. I gave him my numbers.I actually didn't have the energy to refuse this besides he is new around here. Me: I gotta go. Les: Okay bye. I walked out and went to Nani's place and she was done so we left immediately. Nani: You are early.I thought you were not coming today. Me: Oh friend I forgot to tell you that boss made me an offer.He called me to remind me of it again today. Nani: What offer? Me: He wanted me to be a bartender but he called me again to tell me that he found someone for the job and now he will only pay me to teach his girls to dance. Nani: As In us? Me: Yeah I think so. Nani: That's a first.I thought I was gonna be the one to teach them. After that there was an awkward silence..I just felt like she was angry at the fact that i got the job so I just kept my mouth shut We took a taxi to the club. Me: Les? Les: Rudzi? We spoke at the same time Me: What are you doing here? Les: Should be asking you.Im here for work. Me: Same here KONANANI What Rudzi said must be a joke.There is no way that boss can make her the one who teach instead of me.Yes I know she is good but I don't care..I need this extra cash..So Rudzi will have to forgive me.I left her lost in whatever world she was in with that rude guy.. When I got to boss's office I found a beautiful girl sitting on his chair.I didn't even knock. Tendi: Whoah that's disrespectful don't you think? You don't just walk in here without knocking as of you are getting in a toilet with a runny stomach. Me: Uhh oh sorry.Is boss around? Tendi: He is not.Im in charge today. Me: Oh okay.I wanted ask him something Tendi: You can ask me. Me: Well boss said I was gonna teach the girls how to dance for extra cash but now he gave it to my friend without letting me know about it. She turned the chair and looked at the bar downstairs on the big screen. Tendi: Ohh who do we have here.Could you look at that. I went to stand next to her.She was pointing at the rude guy who was busy talking to Rudzani. Me: That is the girl he gave the job to and I'm not pleased. Tendi: Well Since I seem to like the guy she is with and she seem too comfortable and flirty with him I can help you if you help me. Me: What? Tendi: There is nothing for free in this world.Uhhhm how do you say it in this language of yours? Me: What? Tendi: 'Tshanda iya, tshanda vhuya!' (I help You,You help me) Me: OMG I like you already.. Tendi: So you are ready to hear my plan? Me: Never been ready...Try me. ETHAN I was really worried about my twin..What worried me more is the fact that i couldn't find a trace of him anywhere..Its really frustraiting.. Shudu: What are you thinking of? Me: LESLEY.I can't find him anywhere. Shudu: Let him be.Maybe he will realise that your parents are right afterall. Shudu and I have been sleeping together since she broke up with Les for Stan.I have been needing to unload my stress sexually and Shudu was the right person because Shaz was forever on my case telling me she wants to get married. Shudu: Loosen up will you. Me:Make me. I just hope that Stan and Les never finds out about this because this will drift us further apart

You it will drift you two further apart and you're still doing it

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 6 LESLEY After Rudzani went to the back room where she was gonna do her job I got down to my own work Peter: You are fast neh. Me: Meaning?. Peter: You are just starting and already u got attention of the ladies around here. Me: Nah we are just friends Peter: It better be because those girls are call girls of boss and he doesn't like sharing Me: Wow that I didn't know. Peter: For them to get this jobs they sleep with him first. I didn't want to hear anything further.Rudzi doesn't strike me as that type of girl who would do such. While we were busy with work a classy beautiful girl walked in.She would have been more beautiful if she just kept herself natural...She had those fake eyelashes but her make up was simple.She had big nails wearing high hills that made that clicking sound.she was grabbing alot of attention.She was wearing a very short dress making me wonder if she is also a stripper..Peter and I were behind the counter. Peter: That is boss's only daughter..She is spoilt and gets whatever she wants.Even a boyfriend.When a guy rejects her the father makes sure the guy regrets his decision..So play far away from her..You don't want to have a tough life with a bullet scar on your waist living your life on a wheelchair. I got startled..I mean I haven't even started my own family yet so why would I want to ruin my life.. Me: Noted.. She at the stool Her: Hey new boy.Im Tendani Me: Hi.What can I get you mam? Tendi: How about you follow me to the office..We need to talk. Me: I'm still busy mam.There are alot of customers and Peter won't cope alone. Tendi: I wasn't asking for the record. She walked away. Peter: You better follow her dude. Me: I ain't going anywhere.Im not here to be controlled by a spoilt brat.Im not her father firstly and secondly I'm not her puppet then lastly she ain't my boss..I couldn't beg my parents when they cut me off everything so who is she to be whoshiped? Peter: You are stubborn neh? Me: This is little We kept doing our job. RUDZANI My job wasn't that hard because the girl were flexible..Yes we won't be perfect on the first day but I'm sure in a week's time they will be able to present to boss so that he can approve if they are ready to perform in the clubs. When we were done it was really late..Mom called me and started shouting telling me that I'm now living how I like,coming home late as if it's my house and I told here that I got a job at town.She sounded so happy and relieved.Maybe that's because she was tired of feeding me..I hanged ul I was about to leave when I was called to boss's office. I found a young girl who looked my age. Me: Sorry I was called here. Tendi can I see you bag Me: Why? Tendi: I lost my lucky charm bracelet that I was given by my father.It was on the table so when I went to the bar someone came into my office and stole it.Its a diamond bracelet and very expensive. Me: I don't think there is any need.I never came in here.. The other girls got in with their bags and also Les. She started searching everyone and When she searched me she found the bracelet. She slapped me very hard. Tendi: How could you? Daddy gave you this job with so much pity and you do this to him? Get out of here and don't ever come back..Everyone was looking at me shocked. Me: I never came in here. I was at the back room teac... Tendi: SHUT UP.JUST SHUT UP AND LEAVE. She was even shedding tears. Tendi: Daddy must know about this. I hated how everyone was looking at me in there so I took my bag and left.I felt humiliated and confused at the same time.who would set me up like that and for what reason.I went and sat outside the club..Why do bad things always happen to be.When I thought my life was finally starting to change this had to happen.Why is the devil always on my back.Why is God silent? I just sank down and started crying.It started raining and I didn't even care if I was getting wet.I just cried my sorrow away.What people where saying or thinking when passing me i didn't care at all.I know mostly thought I was drunk simply because I was outside a club.I don't know how long I cried because i ended up sleeping where I was. LESLEY It was now time tone to knock out.I was very tired and it wasn't really knock out time.Peter said I can go since I seem tired and the club was now almost empty.. I took my bag and went out.There was someone who was sleeping near the club and it was heavily raining.I felt sorry for the person because the following morning she was gonna have a very bad cold..I went closer and I realised it was Rudzi.Why was she sleeping on the floor?Maybe what happened earlier didn't treat her well at all.I picked her up as fast as I can and luckily there was a cab next to the club so I asked the driver to take us home.He agreed but increased the price because we were wet.I got in and I laid her head on my shoulder..I got to my place and still carried her but she was awake now.. Rudzi: Put me down. I did as told. Rudzi: I'm going home. Me: What? It's late.You will go in the morning... Rudzi: Eh.what do you want to do to me? Me: Are you serious right now? I thought we were friends. I walked away leaving her at the gate.How can she even ask such a question.I unlocked the door and I heard the gate closing.I didn't even look so I got in the house and closed the door.She walked in and it was dark because the lights were off.We bumped into each other. Rudzi: Ouch!! Me: Serves you right. I switched the lights on and she looked at me with her hand on her forehead Me: I thought you were going home. Rudzi: I'm sorry.I realised that you were right. Me: Come let me show you a room where you will sleep. Rudzi: Can't I sleep with you.We are friends and I have a problem of dreaming horrible things when not sleeping at home. Me: Oh Okay.. We went to my room and I took off my clothes and was left with my briefs.i got on bed.She switched off the lights. Me: Say someone who is afraid. She laughed Rudzi: I wanna take off my clothes. She took off her clothes and she came to bed.She threw herself on the bed.. Me: What happened at work. Rudzi: I was set up I think. Me: Who hates you? Rudzi: No idea. I was becoming sleepy..My body is itchy and I think it's because I didn't bath tonight so I got up the bed and went to the ensuit.Im not gonna start today to sleep without bathing.I got in the shower and took a short one.When I got out I was totally naked and she was wearing her lace panty because she was using the toilet. Her mouth formed an O shape.Her eyes were stuck on my manhood.She had no bra on and her nipples were pointy.I immediately had a smirk on my face.I covered myself with a towel. Me: Why are you looking at it like that. She snapped out of it. Rudzi: Uhhhh mmm I'm sorry I was,.. it was I cleared my throat.She walked out of the ensuit. I motioned and went to the room.I took clean briefs and wore it.It was still dark in the room.I got on bed.I face the ceiling and thought of her tits and I became hard.This is torture.Im on bed with a woman with a boner but no help. She turned and look at my side Rudzi: Uhhh I'm sorry for looking Me: Its not a big deal Rudzi: Can I touch it? She said it very fast that I was even surprised. Me: Uhhhm touch what? Rudzi: Never mind Me: No actually I do mind. She kept quiet.I took her hand and placed it on my manhood. She moved in up and down then tried to get it inside my briefs.I held her hand. I was really hard. I let go of her hand and she got it inside my briefs.I could feel her gasping but I paid no attention to it. She hand jobed me.I was biting my lower lip.After a while she took her hand out then faced the other side. Her: Thank you. Me: Well can I also touch. Rudzi: I...I don't know.I don't think that is a good idea. Me: But that's not being fair.Besides we are in the dark I won't be seeing it. Rudzi: Okay.I got up the bed and pulled her to the little end of the bed.I took off her panty.I pulled her legs apart and started tracing my hands on her nuna..It was a little struggle because she kept on closing her legs. Me: Keep still please because I was also still.She did that and I started sucking her and I could see that she was enjoying it due to the moans.She even called my name. Rudzi: Stop in gonna...uhhhh..uhhhjh She came with my tongue still inside her. She immediately got up the bed and switched on the light. Rudzi: Uhhhh what just happened. Me: What? She looked on the bed and saw nothing.Then she looked at me and saw that I had a boner. Me: Big man needs help.Mind helping. Rudzi: How do you mean? Me: Either you give me a head or we fuck hao. Her eyes popped out. RUDZANI Well if I don't give my innocence to him who would I give it to.Besides he is cute and any girl would be lucky for him to be her first.But he has it big though. I looked at it again. I shrugged my shoulders.I cannot put that in my mouth anyway.I can't believe I'm doing this right now.But I'm old enough now.Its better with him than letting my mother's pervet do it forcefully. He came towards me and sucked my breast..It felt really good and foreign just like when his tongue was inside my nuna.. He made me lie on the bed and he started rubbing his huge thing on the entrance of my nuna.He tried to get it in but it didn't and that hurt like shit.He tried again but still nothing. Les: Whoa whoa whoa are you a virgin? Why is it a struggle. I just laughed.I didn't want him to say why an old girl like me still sealed. He did it again and this time it entered and I screamed. He kissed me. Les: Sorry I'm big but I swear you are a virgin.Why didn't you tell me? Me: So that you can laugh at me like my friend does? No thanks. He kissed me passionately with his other hand playing with my nipple.H slowly moved in and out.I felt alot of pain with some pleasure though.The pain was the dominant one.He came to a point where he went faster with him groaning and calling my name.He collapsed intop of me.He rolled off me.. He got up and arrived me to the ensuit.He put me on the toilet and switched on water in the bath tub.When the water was enough he put me in and he also got in. I don't know what this is but all I know is that it feels right. ETHAN Shaz: (teary)Why are you always denying me sex?Who do you expect me to sleep with.Im a woman and I have needs E. Me: Why are you always nagging Sharon? Can't you understand that I'm not in the mood for sex.Everyday is sex.am I your sex slave? Hai maarn woman leave me alone.My dick is not super.Worse part you don't even shave.I won't even see where to enter with that bush.Hai try being a human not an animal.Those are the things that turn me off.I don't even get a boner because of it.I always have to apply an ointment because that bush of yours scratch my dick.. I heard her sniff but I didn't care.She is no longer that attractive because she doesn't take care of herself..She just made herself look like an old grandma. I got out of bed and went to sleep in the guest room.Sex this sex that iyo..

Hope you won't regret later Rudzi

But i thought the boss has took her virginity

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 7 LESLEY I got up from the bed and she was still sleeping.Thats when I saw how beautiful she is even with her messed up dreads..If I was to be asked what I saw in her I wouldn't know what to say because I'm seeing a lot in her..I took my phone and took pictures of her sleeping..When I was done I went to the ensuit and took a shower.brushed my teeth and then went to make breakfast for two. I put on house music.I can dance but that should be a secret between me and you because no one around here knows.I made bacon and eggs with toasted bread and orange juice.When I was done i put the food in a tray and switched off the music.I went back to the bedroom. She was still sleeping..She must be tired from last night.I got ontpp of her and kissed her all over her face. Rudzi: Hmmm hmmm She said that while trying to turn. Me: Wake up Rudzi: Go away. Me: I made you food. She opened her eyes fully Me: Nothing can ever separate you and food neh. Rudzi: Food is bae. Me: Then what am I? She shrugged her shoulders. I poked her nose Me: I'm your boyfriend from now on.. Rudzi: You have a funny way of asking me to be your girlfriend. Me: Eat so that I can eat you. She laughed. Rudzi: No way.Let me go brush my teeth.Uhhhm I don't have Me: Check in the cupboard you will find new ones. She got up butt naked. Me: Are you not gonna cover that up? You are giving me a boner. She walked away like she didn't hear a thing I said. I waited until she came back then we ate together.When we were done we went to wash the dishes together. Rudzi: So what time are you going to work? Me: I only work from 8 in the evening. Rudzi: Atleast you have a job and a house. This kind of topic is sensitive to me and if I talk about it,it will only make me angry.It will remind me of the anger I have for my parent. I didn't realise I zoned out until she tapped me on my shoulder. Rudzi: Whatever it is please don't keep it inside..It will only eat you until it's too late to seek help. Me: I rather not talk about it now... Rudzi: Okay.If ever you need to talk please let me know. Me: Okay.So are you spending the whole day indoors with me? Rudzi: I wish I was but I have to go home and do house chores Me: I was looking forward to spending time with you especially since we just found each other. She giggled.. Rudzi: Unfortunately I have to get home now before mom gets mad.But I will try to work fast so that I can come back. Me: Now that sounds better. RUDZANI I don't know what it is with Led but something about him reminds me of the broken me.He had alot of baggage on his shoulders but he doesn't seem like the type that talks about his problems.I just let him be but one day when he is ready he will let me in... I took my bag and was about to walk out. Les: Hey let me walk you home.Im not about to let you do the walk of shame alone. Me: I don't mind Les: You don't but I do.Now come let's go. He held my hand and we walked out. Les: How about we get to know each other. Me: Well I'm Rudzani,first born of my mother then I have two siblings,a girl and a boy...My mother is a single parent but currently dating someone.Im someone who is academically not gifted.I dropped out of school In grade 10 because I failed alot.Well that's all about me. Les: Have you ever had a boyfriend? Me: No.Im an introvert. Socializing is not really my thing. Les: What is that one thing that you know you are good at? Me: Dancing. Les: Nice. I hope you will dance for me one day. Me: Maybe.So tell me about you. Les: Well im... Mom : Rudzani ani na thoni ni tshi tshimbila tshitaratani na muthannga. Hone na mushumo no u wana kana no vha nikho u zwifha uri nivhe nina muthannga? (Rudzani are you not ashamed.Parading on the street with a boy.Did you even get a job or you were lying just so you can be with a boy?) I didn't even realise that we were now at my street.Early this morning and already she is grabbing people's attention. Me:mma nne (Mama I) Mom:nisongo mbidza uri Mma Rudzani. Ni kho ubva gai (Don't mom me Rudzani.Where are you coming from) Les:Irani ndi tuwe ndi sathu ni dzhenisa matshikani.. ndi do ni vhona nga murahu ha tshifhinga nyana (Let me leave before I get you in more trouble.I will see you later on) Me:hoho ndido ni rumela mulaedza wa uri ni foune ndi tshi fhedza ( Okay I will make a call back when I'm done) He left Mom: ndi nnyi ula muthannga? (Who is that boy) Me: ndi mushumisani (He is a colleague) Mom:ndi zwifhio zwine na ita kha hoyu mushumo wena u wana? ( What is it that you do at this job that you got?) Me: ndi gudisa u tshina ( I give dance lessons) Mom: ndi kholwa uri nivha nisikho ita zwau vulela vhanna marukhu uri vhani badele... ni dzule no kuna nga uri ndina muthu ane ukho toda uni mala ni musidzanasi..hezwi zwido vha uri bvisa vhusiwanani nga uri ndo neta ngau unda muthu muhulwane ononga inwi. (You better not be opening your legs for men to pay you Rudzani.Stay pure because I have someone who wants to marry you pure as you are.This could be our breakthrough out of this poverty.Besides im.tired of feeding a grown up like you.) Me: uhh hoho mma (uhh okay mom) SHARON Last night was the first time that Les spoke to me that way.He has never done that before.. It's as of this days I just turn him off.I have shaved and I don't know why he said all those mean things to me.It all really hurt me deep inside to hear him say such words to me.He has been coming home smelling of a woman perfume and it's definitely not mine.I can't say it's colleagues because it's the same perfume and it really smells familiar... Today I was meeting up with Shudu..I could really use a girl's day out right now. We met up at town...We shared a brief hug and sat down.We were at mugg and bean. Her perfume was familiar though..Or maybe it's because she is my friend and I'm used to her perfume. Me: How have you been? Shudu: Awesome and you my friend Me: Never been better. She had the most widest smile ever.I know my friend and I know she will start bragging soon. Me: Stan treating you good. Shudu: More than that my friend..Stan does everything for me.She spoils me very much but he is always tired when coming from work so it's less sex but more money. Me: And that makes you smile? Shudu: My friend I found a sex partner..The guy does things to me.Things I never felt before. Me: Who is he? Shudu: Definetely not revealing.But you must know that he is not lazy to give it to me..Whenever I call he comes running.He is in a relationship with someone else so that's why I rather not mention names Shudu'sperfume clicked..Its the same perfume that Ethan had on him.I looked at her busy braggingabout how my man gives it to her while he starves me.I can't believe this. Me: Look girl I gotta go.I have somewhere to rush to.. I stood up and left..I'm done being nice.Its about time I come up with a plan.I have to go see a witch doctor.I am also gonna play dirty like how Shudu is doing.

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*CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 8 RUDZANI Mom gave me alot of work.I think she did it on purpose.. Mom: I'm going to work. I just nodded.I was dead tired already and I still had to cook.. Mom: When your siblings come back from school you better feed them. It was already one in the afternoon so they will be here anytime. Mom was working afternoon and she was late so far. Mom: And I better not hear a word that you disrespected your father. Like really mom.Who's father is he this pervet? I just nodded again. I went to put the pots on the stove..I wasn't gonna cook something that will take time so I made rice and fish.The man came in the kitchen just when I switched off the stove. Man: Do you expect me to eat that shit? I want meat.real men eat meat. I rolled my eyes and attempted to walk away. Man: You better check your attitude because it's getting on my highest nerve. He was holding my cheeks so tight and that hurt like shit..He kissed me unexpectedly..and I then again slapped him.I spit on his face.Yoh that was my biggest mistake..He slapped me so hard I fell on the floor and he started kicking me like I'm not a human being..Im someone who doesn't show pain when I'm in one.I was quiet but inside I was screaming for help.He knelt down on the floor. Man: If you breath a word about this,You won't live to tell the tale of how I will rip your womanhood apart then feed you to the crocodiles..You better cook me that meat He got up and walked away. I crawled on the floor until I held on to the kitchen counter then tried to get up..I limped my way to the bedroom and there he was sitting in the sitting room watching tv..I went to my room and took my phone and sent Les a call back..My siblings got back and I gave them food..They were playing family with that man.He sees only them as his children.With me he showed me his true colours from day one. LESLEY Been waiting here waiting for Rudzi but no sign of her at all..Its even worse because I keep looking at my phone every now and then thinking she will send the call back..It wasn't hard for me to realise that she might be having a rocky relationship with her mother..The things she said when she saw us together were not pleasing at all.Yes I know their language because I grew up here under my grandparents..I may be having a Pedi surname but deep down I'm a venda breed...As I was lost deep In my thought a call back got in and I called her immediately.. Rudzi: Please come get me. She hanged up not allowing me to talk..I got up and walked out.. It's not that much of a long walk ask I don't know why she would want me to fetch her..I got her on the second street from her place and she was walking slowly limping..She was looking at the ground Me: And then baby was i that rough last night? She kept quiet. I put my hand on her chin and made her face me.I swear the anger inside me arose.She had tears inside her eyes but was fighting hard not to cry. Me: Who did this to You? Rudzi: It's no one.I fell. Me: Last time I checked I'm not 5years old.Now be real.Who did this to you? Rudzi: My step father. Lord knows i wanted to go to that house and beat the shit out of him but i had to be there for her.I held her hand and we slowly went to my place... We got there after some time.We went to the bedroom directly and she sat at the bed corner and started crying..Oh shit.I am clueless when coming to comforting someone.I always dated girls who were hardcores.How am I to deal with this. I got on bed and laid with my body facing up. Me: Come here. She got on and her face was on my chest.She cried until I could hear her sniff. Rudzi: It started when I first failed my grade 10..She started calling me names.She said I'm stupid.That I'm dumb and will never be successful in life.She enjoyed torturing me everyday.It got worse when i failed again grade 10.She said since i want to be a maid then she will make me one..I was turned into her maid who washes things that I shouldn't wash like her inside clothes.When she met the man she is with now she would make me wash his underwear aswel..When she wasn't looking he would look at my body with hunger. When she wasn't around he would touch me..Today he kissed me and I slapped him and spat on his face.He saw an opportunity to turn me onto his punching bag.He threatened me and said if I tell he will rip my womanhood apart then feed me to the crocodiles.. Now i was beyond mad.What that man is doing is abusing her.He is even going far.What will happen next? Rape? I will kill someone before that happens. Me: Babe I will be right back Rudzi: Please don't leave me.Hold me in your arms.. Me: Okay. I brushed her back and let her be..I can't believe she is also going through this kind of situation..Why are some parents like this though? I thought it's only my parents who are cruel.How are two broken souls supposed to survive such together? I'm a broken soul inlove with a girl who is a broken soul aswel.This is some deep shit.. It was now four and she was asleep after I gave her pain killers..I got up from the bed and put on my shoes.I have to face that coward. When I got there her mom was at the gate entering the yard.She looked drained like she is sick Me: Uhhh excuse me. Her: What do you want here? Rudzani is busy. Me: I'm here to talk to you ma. She didn't say a word but walked in the house and I followed her. We were met by gazes from Mr pervet himself. Him: Love why are you back so early? Her: I'm not feeling well so they said I can come home. My eyes never left his face..He was sitting on the sofa with a remote on his hand. I charged to him and started punching him.He didn't get a chance because he was sitting down. Her: What are you doing? Stop it, you will kill him. I let go of him.I looked at her busy trying to nurse him. Her: Look what you have done to him. Me: Have you seen what he has done to your daughter? Well you wouldn't see because you are also in on the abuse and torture you are putting her through.Rudzani will eventually move out of this house and when she does I hope you won't regret when he starts molestrating your other daughter.. I pointed at the pervet Me: And you..We better not cross paths because I won't spare you.Old fool who prey on young girls.Isnt she satisfying you to be doing such filthy acts especially on her daughter? Her: Hey young boy.Dont disrespect me in my house.Leave now. Me: With pleasure. I walked out the house..I hope from now on all will be okay for Rudzi. I went home to prepare for work.I also remembered to get Rudzi a morning after pill..We didn't use protection and as we are both not yet mentally and financially stable we have to trend carefully.. When I got to the house she was in the kitchen drinking water. She was looking at me with an expression I can't make out.For the first time I didn't know what she was thinking.. Me: Are you Okay? Rudzi: Mom just called. Me: And? Rudzi: She said she is not well..I must come home. Me: Are you ready to go there after what happened? Rudzi: I have to try. Me: Okay.Call me if anything happen.I will top you up with airtime. Rudzi: Okay. I walked her out and turned on the 3rd street. Me: I loveyou. Rudzi: me too. Me: Me too what Rudzani. Rudzi: I love you more She walked away and i just looked at her until she turned to the next street.. RUDZANI It was kind of surprising how mom was calm over the phone..Maybe she was really sick. When I got home there were bags outside and some clothes thrown on the ground. I realised they were mine.My heart started beating abnormally.Ipfi was crying Me: What's going on? Ipfi: I tried to talk to her but she didn't want to listen. Me: What happened? Ipfi: Your boyfriend came here and attacked papa so mom is angry and saying you are disrespecting them. Me: My boyfr...Oh no LESLEY!!! Mom: Take what is yours and leave my house.Since you want to be a woman and someone's wife it's about time you leave.You go out and spread lies about your step father,are you not ashamed? How dare You? Don't ever come back here when he turns his back on you. She dragged Ipfi inside.. Me: What is happening with my life? Why would Lesley do such when I just told him what I go through? I picked my clothes and put them inside the bag and took it with me heading to Nani's place first..She is the only friend I have and I'm sure she can talk to her mom to accommodate me.

Your mum is stupid

Chai. God know what i would have done if i was born in that type of family if i have not kill anybody somebody will land in hospital wat nonsense how can some people be wicked even if her step father is heartless because she not his daugther the mother should have been wise

Try it with me and see the real ikale guy

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 9 SHARON When people cheat it's okay to forgive them and that's if you have a bigger heart..With me it's not an easy thing to do.When i love I really do that with all my heart.I don't give someone half of my heart but instead I give it all..I believe that when you are really inlove you shouldn't have limitations.What Ethan has done with Shudu is really a scar.Im here at his house lost in my thoughts.I want to deal with them accordingly but I don't want to make decisions while I'm angry.But what I know is that I will not leave this lying low.I will attack when I'm in the right state of mind. Ethan: Hey Me: Hi Ethan: Babe are you okay? Me: Yeah Ethan: You don't look fine Honestly I wasn't fine.I looked far from fine.I looked like a zombie.What Shudu did as a friend was really bad.It doesn't sit well with me at all. Ethan: SHARON!! Me: Huh huh Ethan: You just zoned out..Whats happening? Me: I don't think I can do this anymore.I don't think I can be in this relationship anymore.Im trying but I cant. Ethan: What? What are you saying? Me: I'm giving you the freedom to go and be with Mashudu.Thats what you want.Im tired of waiting for you to grow up.Im tired of staying here everyday thinking you will notice me going through all this paint because of love.One thing I regret is bashing out on Lesley..He was a good friend but because he had nothing I turned my back on him.He was the reason I never broke up with you because he would advice me otherwise.But now he is not here and it's all my fault.Out of all the ways you could hurt me you just had to go for my friend. Ethan: Baby I'm.. Me: Don't.please don't say anything because what you say now won't make a difference.Im living with you like I'm living with my brother. I stood up and went to pack. Ethan: Baby please don't go..Dont leave because I don't know if you will ever come back.Instead let me be the one to go.I will stay at a hotel.But please allow me to fix this,allow me to work on us. Me: I can't stay here.If it was meant to be then we will find a way back to each other RUDZANI When I got to Nani's place she was about to go out. Nani: Hey.What are you doing here with such a big bag.. Me: Mom kicked me out.I need a place to crash.Can you please ask your mom. Nani: I doubt she will allow..Mom is moody this days. Me: but you haven't asked Nani. Nani: I'm telling you nje my mom won't allow. Me: Oh okay. I walked out without even saying a word to her.Something is just not right with her..I went to Les's place..He was watching t.v.. Me: What did you do? Why did you attack him. Les: Why did he attack You? There is no man who will raise his hands on my woman.No way okay. I just looked at him.He stood up and took my bag disappearing on the passage.I sat down and let the tv watch me. He came back and sat next to me. Les: Your bag is in our bedroom.All shall be well from now on...We will be okay...I have to prepare for work. I sat there thinking of what will happen next. Les: I'm done babe.Dont wait up okay. Me: Okay. He kissed my forehead and left.It was after an hour since he left that there was a knock at the door.When I opened there stood boss with his body guards.I just stood there and looked at them. Boss: Are you not going to invite us in? Me: I can't. This is not my place. He pushed his way in and his guards followed. Boss: To think I liked you angers me alot.Why did u try to steal from my daughter? I was shaking.I don't like this man even a bit. Me: I was set up.I didn't do anything. Boss: I'm not a fool young lady. Me: I swear I didn't try to steal. Boss: Since you insist.Its either I have my guys here rough you up or you pay for your life by staying away from Lesley. Me: What? Boss: Turns out my daughter likes a him very much and you are standing in her way of being with him. This is totally wrong.How can he ask me to stay away from the only person who is there for me? Where will I go from here anyway? Boss: I give you 5days and if you don't I will have my men deal with you. With that he walked out. LESLEY When I got to work I went to boss's office but I stood at the door as I heard thee daughter having a conversation with some. Tendi: Our plan worked to eliminate her. I knew who they were talking about.I took out my phone and recorded a video as the door was open but they were facing the big window. Nani: I'm just glad she didn't see me put that bracelet in her bag.Though I feel bad bit it was for the best because I couldn't let her have my job. Tendi: And with my dad on his way to tell her to leave Lesley alone I will have him all to myself. Nani: Your father is what? Tendi: I told him that I like Lesley and she is on my way so he went to threaten her.. Nani: Knowing my friend to be a coward I l know she will do as told. I heard enough.I paused the video then saved.I knocked and they turned to see me standing there. Tendi: Oh it's you lover boy What a bitch. Me: Is boss here? Tendi: No.He will be here next week. Me: Okay. Tendi: Can I offer you anything? Me: Nothing of you interests me.To even look at how beautiful you are bit with an ugly heart disgusts me.Listen here the both of you.Im Lesley and I'm from Jozi.Where I come from I learnt alot and believe me I can make both your lives difficult..Whatever trick you try in the girl book to separate me and Rudzi know that it's a total fail.Even your father I'm not afraid of him..And you hmmm what a friend you are.You know exactly what your friend is facing in life but you go and do this? I can't believe you right now. Nani: At the end she won't believe anything you say.Im her friend and it has always been that way.

Trust nobody

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS *. 10 LESLEY I never liked that Nani girl in the first place.My gut always told me that she is two timing. I went back to work.Today was not really full. Boss walked in with his body guards and I didn't even pay that much attention to him. Boss: Les in my office now please.. I followed him.His princess was still I his office. Boss: I see you are a hard worker.So I want to promote you.If you do me a favour though.Its nothing big. My phone rang and it was Rudzi.I answered..She was sniffing and that rang a bell that she was crying. Me: Hello Rudzi: Boss was here.He threatened me.He said I should leave you for his daughter. Me: Okay..Im in a meeting now with my boss.Can I call you back later on. Rudzi: You are with him? Me: Yes. Rudzi: Am I on loud speaker? Me: Of cause not. Rudzi: Okay.We will talk when you get back. Me: Urrrh boss I believe I just got here and it would be unfair to be promoted while Peter was here before me but still at the same level.I believe in fairness so promote him first. I see what he is doing. I have a feeling that whatever favour I had to do for him had something to do with his daughter. Boss: I believe I am the boss and i do as I please.If i want to promote you then I want to.Peter's turn will come. Me: I love working as a barman so I will have to decline before you can offer Sir.Can i now get back to work? He chuckled Boss: You may go I walked out without even looking back.That man is very self centered and I don't know if I should say stupid.He goes to my house and threaten my lady just because his daughter of a hoe wants me.Surely he doesn't know me.It didn't even take my father's blacklist to me to do what he wanted me to do.So what gives him the impression that I will date his daughter.I was no longer in a mood to work.I went back up to his office. He was hugging his daughter who was crying. Me: Sorry to disturb.Im not feeling well so can I take the rest of the night off? He looked at me for a while and I maintained a straight face. Boss: Sure. I went and took my backpack and left immediately. Rudzi was watching tv. When she saw me she stood up and came to hug me.. Me: What did he say? Did he hurt you? She shook her head. RUDZANI The moment he walked in i felt very safe.. Me: He threatened me Les.He said if I don't leave you something bad will happen. Les: He won't do anything don't worry.Im here for you Me: But we are not sure about that Les.He sounded and seem serious. Les: I will deal with him don't worry. Me:Maybe I should move out.I will convince Nani to talk to her mom Les: Don't even dare.Babe you are not going anywhere...I rather quit working for him and as for that Nani friend of yours how do we know that she is not the one selling you out? I'm not taking any chances,you are not going anywhere. Me: Why do you hate Nani so much? She is my friend. Les: Because she is two faced.She is not a good friend to keep. Me: Stop please.Nani is my friend. He took his phone and did something then gave it to me.It was a video.I went through it. Les: That's the person you call a friend. I couldn't help it.I cried.Nani was the only person who understood my situation.She was always there for me.What I have just seen is a proof that never trust anyone not even yourself.She did all this for money.She had a job and I didn't.How could she envy me when I have nothing at all.Atleast she still has a home.But I don't have that.If we wake up one day and Les decides to break up with me then I will be homeless.With Boss also at our back im not even sure that we will last..What kind of a life is this? Les: I will always be here for you believe me.All I want is what is good for you babe. If my family failed me then how can a stranger be able to be good to me? ETHAN I felt like I was going crazy.Not in this lifetime did I ever think that Sharon will walk away from me.That lady stood with me in times of storms.She was always there even when it was impossible to love me.I don't even want to mention how many times I cheated on her but she never left.I don't even know why I keep on hurting her this much.. Her perfume is all over our bedroom and I can just picture her around.I called her a countless times but she kept rejecting my calls.. It's about time I take it further to look for my twin brother.I can't keep losing the people I love.I took my phone and called my PI. Me: Anything for me? PI: Not yet Me: I get a feeling that you are being useless to me right now.Find him soon. How can my things go accordingly when I have abondened my other half to suffer in the hands of this world? My phone rang..I answered without checking the caller id Me: What? Shudu: You hai such rudeness.. Me: What do you want Mashudu? Shudu: I want you..I have alot of things in mind that I can do to you right now. Me: Come over.Hurry up. I hanged up TENDANI Dad is starting to be useless.He just failed to get me the guy I want.He always gave me what I wanted.This Lesley guy is also hard headed.But it makes it more interesting for me.I will still get him. Boss: Would you stop sulking? He is just a poor boy and you are sulking over him. Me: Daddy it's not just that.He seems like the loving type.He won't play with my heart Boss: He will.That boy looks like he loves his girlfriend and is not willing to sacrifice that.Who refuses a promotion? I kept quiet Boss: Well let me tell you.Its a man in love who doesn't want to sacrifice his love just for money.Some people are not power hungry so he is one of those. Dad was not being submissive now.Maybe I should remind him who I am. I went closer to him and grabbed him by the balls.He grasped. Me: You seem to clearly forget how I can be.Get me him and mom won't see our sex video by a mistake.I walked out after that.

Boss is sleeping with his daughter Abomination

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 11 TENDANI When I realised that my father was starting to take note of me being useless on my studies I seduced him.Stupid as he is he fell for my tricks and everything was recorded.The video is my ticket to get everything I want..Even all that he never gave me I will get it..How does he expect me to respect him after what we did.If he dares try to tell mom I will cry and say he raped me hence I will never give him the video.. Dad: When will this stop Tendani? I am you father Me: One who slept with me. Dad: I hope you know what you are doing because this could destroy your mother and this marriage. As for me I will still bounce back in life.I will get a new young wife and we will have kids.Keep telling yourself that you have they upper hand. With that he walked away..If daddy does that then I'm dead.Who will spoil me? I groaned in frustration. LESLEY I seriously have a problem..I cannot be working for those people when they are nothing but manipulators because they have money..Just because we don't have money doesn't mean we are stupid and we will agree to whatever they want us to do.What do I do because I need the money.Rudzie and I need the money that much.If I leave my job then what will we depend on? Just when one thinks that life is changing for the better things take a drastic turn. When I got home I found her sleeping on the couch.She looked like she was troubled even in her sleep.Who would seriously treat an innocent girl like her in such a cruel way though? I carried her to the bedroom.. I have only met her recently but deep down I love her.I feel like I have known her all my life...All the pain she feels because of her family is the same pain I feel because of mine.We have met for a purpose..We need each other to get through this.I don't know when all this will stop but i know that together we will make it.. She opened her eyes and smiled. Rudzi: Why are you back this time? Me: I just wanted to be with you. I took off my clothes and got in bed next to her.. Me: You in my arms feels right. RUDZANI 2 Months later Me: How did it get to this point? We have nothing to our name Les.How will we feed another mouth because already we are struggling.. Les: Babe we will figure it out..Im still working. Me: It's not enough.A child is expensive. Les: I will work as much to provide.You let me do the worrying because I'm the man okay Me: Okay.But I will also look for a job to atleast clean or even wash clothes. Les: In your condition babe I don't think so. Me: I'm pregnant not disabled. Les: I'm still refusing. I raised my hands up as a form of surrender. My relationship with Led has been great..He never allowed boss to come between us..Not ones has he judged me.He understood my pain like a best friend would.Not only was he my boyfriend but he was also my friend..Whenever I'm sad I always talk to him.Im the past two months i have learnt alot about him.He even opened up to me about what he went through with his family and how his ex left him for his cousin.Sometimes I wonder if he will go home and fix his relationship with his family.So far our child won't know his or her grandparents from both parents.. Les: We should go to the clinic tomorrow to make sure that you are really pregnant.we can't rely on a home test. Me: If you insist. Les: I love you.Let me get to work. Me: Love you too. I really hate the fact that he is still working late.Its not nice having him come home around early hours of the morning.expecially since it's weekend. Les: Quit being sad.I will be home before you know it. I forced a smile. Les: That's more like it. He perked my lips then left.I went and locked up after he left..I took a shower then went straight to bed but i noticed that Les forgot his phone.Now how will i call him when there is an emergency.HonestlyI don't feel safe around here when Les is at work,it started two weeks back when I got threatening calls from boss and he was using a private number..Im always shaken whenever thinking about him.. It wasn't that long when I heard something breaking in the kitchen..I became scared same time.As if it wasn't enough boss appeared at the door with his goons..I froze at his site.I was scared for my life. Boss: I have been waiting for this day for as long as I can remember. He had a grin on his face. Me: What do you want from me? Boss: You.I have always wanted you. Me: You old man..im almost the same age as your daughter.Are you not ashamed? Boss: I have tasted her pussy aswel so sorry to burst your bubble but I'm not ashamed. He came to the bed. Boss: Take off that shirt..NOW!! I was wearing Les's oversize shirt I took it off slowly with tears falling down my cheeks.I was scared for myself and my unborn baby.. He stood up and took off his shirt exposing his big tummy.If this man gets ontop of me he will suffocate me I swear.. He took off his trousers and boxers.I almost laughed at the sight of his manhood..It was erected but small to be an old man's.. Boss: Undress you bitch Les: Baby I forgot my pho....What the? What are you doing here? Baby are you okay? I still had tears on my face.. Les: Get the hell out of my house before I call the police Boss laughed. Boss: The police? I own this fucken town.The police are nothing but my puppies.And you..im not done with you yet He pointed at me. Les: And what will you do to her? Molestrates her? Oh wait you don't have the dick to do that..Nigga you ain't got shit compared to an uncircumcised child.You don't even fit to be called a man. Les was angry but calm.. Boss: Boys fuck him up..And you are fired. The goons started beating Les up.I was screaming at them to stop and they stopped when boss was dressed up.They left. Les: Niggas beat like women.. He didn't seem bad at all.He was even laughing. Me: I was scared..I thought he was gonna rape me.Did you see how big he is.He was gonna suffocate me and the baby. I was now crying. Les: Calm down babe I'm here.nothing will happen to you now.. MASHUDU Most people may hate me for the kind of life i live..Sleeping with brothers and their cousin aswel..If ever one was in my shoes they would maybe understand why.Ethan has been looking for Lesley but couldn't find him because I asked his PA to lie and say he can't find him..The story behind that you will know sooner.

Make it snappy

*CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 12 LESLEY Rudzi was tossing and turning all night so we only fell asleep on early hours.She was holding on to me for her dear life.Now I know that this has really affected her.Its gonna take her time until she can be able to be left alone..I watched her as she was sleeping peacefully.The sun was rising and it was very hot..I couldn't sleep in such weather..I tried getting up from the bed without waking her up but I failed diamisally.. Me: Babe it's morning you can go back to sleep.im not going anywhere. She didn't say anything but she closed her eyes again.I went and looked at myself on the mirror.atleast those guys didn't touch my face. But we have one problem.Im unemployed. RUDZANI I may have been through alot in life but one thing I never forget to do is pray.I know all this are trials to test my faith in God.I was busy cleaning up the house listening to worship house-thoma nga nna Murena...This is one song that lifts my spirit.It gets me connected to my spiritual self and I actually feel the presence of God in my life 'Thoma nga nne Murena ndi shanduke Thoma nga nne Murena ndi shanduke Thoma nga nne Murena ndi shanduke Ndi tshidzwe Ndi tshile' I don't know how I got in the floor but u was on my knees praying with tears flooding my eyes.Its really a difficult path with alot of obstacles.Its not even easy but I know God is watching.I know God will answer my prayers.Regardless the situations we face we should not cease to worship God.We should not for get to tell him how marvelous he has been to us.It wasn't because of our will that we woke up to another day but it was his will,love and protection that we are still alive.. And I know that it was written in the boom of Matthew 7: 7 that Ask and it shall be given to you, Seek and you shall find,knock and it shall be opened unto thee. Our God is not a God of disappointments.He is a God of restoration and prosperity.He is a God of peace and love.. I kept on praying until I felt peace in my heart.A lot of burdens have been lifted off my shoulders..When I said Amen that's when I felt hands pick me up from the floor. When you are inthe presence of the Holy spirit you feel like you can not withstand the feeling because it's too powerful for you.. Les : I'm not a saint but I felt the presence of God in here. I just nodded..I didn't trust my voice to speak. Les: I didn't know that I had that song in my phone. Me: I downloaded it. Les: I will keep it..It is one unique song that can get one in the presence of God in a matter of seconds.It can even take a sinner like me to church I giggled. I felt sleep taking over my body.that is how peaceful I felt. LESLEY It was during the day so nothing can happen to her.I have to go out and seek for a job..I don't care what kind of a job it is but as long as it will bring food on the table for my Rudzani.I walked down the street..I didn't even know where I would start..There was alot of things occupying my mind.Im at my lowest.Not once did I think life could ever be this cruel.Im a graduate.I went to school all those years just to suffer like this.Just when I thought things will be better that man who calls himself boss push me further into the mud.It bothers me how useless the qualifications I have are of no use because of my own parents.Why didn't they pressurise Ethan to go for this course so that he can take over because he is someone who won't mind.... I came across two ladies who looked like they were in their mid 40s.. Me: Good morning Them: Good morning. Me: I'm looking for a job.Even if it's something small like gardening I don't mind. Lady 1: I have been looking for a garden boy for two weeks now.You could be of use..follow me. I followed her. Lady 2: Friend I hope you won't turn him into what you turned the last garden boy you had. Lady 1: This one is even cute..Look at his body..I can imagine the things he will do to me I couldn't believe what those two were saying.they were trying to whisper but I heard every word. We got to her house after a while and she showed me her yard..It was messy so I got down to it..She was sitting at the patio with her friend im sure gossiping about me..I thought I will be done in an hour or two but it took me 3 and it was already 12 so I went to them when I was done. Me: I'm done. Lady1: Can't you stay for long? Me: No ma I can't.I left my pregnant girlfriend alone.. She gave me the money Lady1: Please come again after 2days. Me: Okay Ma. I took the money. Me: I will take my leave now. Them: Bye. I walked away leaving them to continue with their gossip. RUDZANI I woke up to no sight of Les.I honestly didn't feel safe at all but I didn't want to sound like a nagging pregnant wife so I let it be..I miss talking to Nani.I miss doing alot of things with her.She never called so I also didn't bother especially after what she did.But I was no longer angry at her.Im someone who can't stay angry for long.I always forgive those who wrong me.I think that's what helped me keep up with mom's treatment for all those years.Just like the Lord's prayer we should forgive those who wrong us as we expect God to forgive us for the wrongs me do... Cooking is therapeutic so I went to the kitchen and cooked lamb stew and macaroni..Les walked in as I was switching off the stove.. Les: Good afternoon Me: Hey love .You seem to be in a good mood Les: I very much am.I got a job as a garden boy. Me: Wow that nice..It counts for something.. Les: yeah it does.But I will push until I find something stable.. Me: Why don't you let me help aswel? Les: Babe I said no Me: Iyo okay.. Les: It smells good in here.What does a man have to do to be given food? Me: I don't know..Maybe eat me first. He laughed hard. I frowned Les: Babe you are serious? Me: I'm not talking to you. I walked away to the bedroom.

*CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 13 MASHUDU I can't let Ethan find Lea because I know he will try so much to convince his parents to clear his name.Then he will gain his power back.He will have all the money he needs and I know he will never look at me not even once.What I did to him was alot to handle..If i notice that Ethan is near to finding him on his own I will have to do damage control and go to him to ask for forgiveness.. Ethan and Stan's sex drive is not like Les.How I miss him.These two are not that strong like him.Atleast Ethan is better but Stan o worse shem.In this life without money you are nothing.. Just the thought of Les made me realise how much I really do miss him..I tried to call but it didn't go through. I asked Ethan's PI to give it to me and when he did I sent his a message..I noticed Stan walking in so I started playing Makhadzi's song 'Zwimpfarapfara hune na funa , ndi si wanu thinga tendi hemtha, zwo mpfarapfara hune na funa Ndisi wanu a thinga tendi, dolicha umpfara pfara hune na funa ndisi wanu thinga tendi vhanna Athinga koni zwa u shuma ndisa holi,nne thinga koni zwa u shuma ndisa holi, athi zwifuni u shuma ndisa holi nne zwau shuma ndisa holi, athi zwi pfesesi zwa u shuma ndisa holi Athi zwifuni zwa u shuma ndisa holi Ndi khotoda tshanda iya tshanda vhuya , ndi khotoda tshanda iya tshanda vhuya mara muhulwane a vha badeli ndi khotoda tshanda iya tshanda vhuya mara vhasa avha badeli' He got the message loud and clear. Stan: What is this Mashudu? Are you with me because of money? Is it money that you want? What kind of a song is that? Me: Well I just love this song but if you feel like it's sending a message to you then maybe it is supposed to send the message.i have been riding you nights and you don't even thank me. I'm a lady and at some point you have to spoil me or maybe I should go back to my broke Lesley besides him being broke he knows how to satisfy my needs on bed. I stood up and attempted to walk put but he clapped me with the back of his hand so hard that I fell and lost sight for a few minutes. Stan: You don't fucken say such shit to me..You chose me so you better obey me.And this shit you are doing with Ethan better stop or else I will blow his brains infront of you and you will live your life with that..I may seem quiet but trust me i can be your worst nightmare. I was trembling on the floor.What has gotten into Stan.What happened to the sweet nerdy Stan who wouldn't harm a fly? Stan: Get the fuck up and give me what I want.He had a straight face on. RUDZANI ' Its been long and I realise that I made you suffer..It has passed.What we had is gone but all I know is that I still love you and I can't accept that we are really done.I may have wronged you,I may have sinned against you but please forgive me. Shudu Les: What the fuck does she want? Babe delete that message and block the number. Me: Who is she? Les: The gold digger who left me for my cousin when I was down and low. Me: Oh her Les: Yes her.. We were watching tv.Boss and his goons walked in. Les: You are becoming a frequent visitor here. Boss: Boy you don't know who you are messing with now do you. Les: I think I do know.Cant you just leave is in peace? Boss: Not until I get what i want.. He winked at me then left. LESLEY 3days later It was early in the morning and I was doing Mrs Sadiki's yard and this time her friend was not around. I was thirsty so I went to knock at her door. She opened up still I a gown. Me: Sorry mam I'm thirsty.can I please have water. Her: Come in.I will go fetch the water in the kitchen Me: Okay.. I got in and she disappeared to the kitchen and she came back with bottled water Her: There you go. Me: Thank you. Her: Uhr Lesley Me: Ma Her: You know I can triple your pay if you satisfy my needs. Me: Sorry Her: My husband is I the military and I hardly have him home.So I'm a woman and I have needs. She said that taking off her gown.She came towards me. Her: All you have to do is sleep with me whenever I want you to. I really do need the money but is this worth it? She touched my pants. Her: Think about it. I walked out and finally swallowed the lump in my throat.Is this a temptation or what? I went back to the garden and when I was done I finally went back home.I had alot in my mind. NARRATED At Rudzani's home. Dad: Where is your mom? Ipfi: She went to town Dad: Come here and sit on daddy's lap. Ipfi remembered her sister's words when she told her never to sit on a man's lap even if it's her father or uncle or any man she knows. Ipfi: I have homeworks daddy. Dad: I said come here you little tart. Ipfi walked with fear towards her step father. He extended his hand and pulled her to sit on his lap..He ran his hands on her smooth flawless thigh.He had a boner immediately.. Dad: Your breasts are growing. He touched them. Her heart was beating fast with fear.She knew exactly what was happening but was afraid to voice out her concern due to fear she has for this man. He carried her to the couch and made her lie on facing up.He inserted his finger in her tight kitty. Dad: If you scream I will kill you. She had tears falling down.He unzipped his pants and took out his huge manhood and rubbed it on her panty..He started stroking himself with his hand while fantasizing about her.He went far to sucking her.. Dad: You better be getting used to such pleasure because I will be the one who will unseal this. Dad: Ahhhh fuck..uhhhh Ipfi ahhh He came on top of her panty and wiped himself with her panty Dad: Get up and go wash that panty.You better keep this between us or I will kill your brother and mother and I will be here to do this everyday. She frowned and walked away.What she just saw will traumatize her all her life.She is only a teen.

Chai I pity this poor Ipfi

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 14 MASHUDU I cannot begin to explain the way I am feeling right now. Stan forced himself on me. I know we are together but I was an unwilling participant. All this time that we have been together I have never seen this side of Stan. He told me everything that I thought were my secrets that were known only by me. I have no one on my side right now. I miss Les and I know he wouldn't have done this to me. Stan: Wena neh you better be a submissive girlfriend otherwise you will get a repitation of last night I just looked at him without saying a word.When did I get here? I always give sex away not to be forced into it. He walked out and I took my phone and called Les.I was shattered.I was crying so bad. Les: What do you want? Me: I'm.. .I.. .. I cried so hard I couldn't control it..It was hard and really depressing.Never have I thought I would go through this. Les: hey..Whays wrong? What happened? Me: He.. he for forced m.m.m. Les: Camt you calm down first.Go and drink water before and call me when you are calm. I hanged up.Im just glad that he was understanding.Im glad that he is gonna be there for me.Atleast I won't be alone on this.Someone I love and care about will be there for me.We might even rekindle our love. RUDZANI Boss... what could I possibly say about that man. I am terrified of what he could do to me. I am even scared to leave the house. On the other hand I have been having this uneasy feeling. I just miss my siblings so much. I can't help but wonder how they are treated or what they are going through. Les walked in whilst I was still deep in my thoughts...how i love this man of mine. Les: Hey baby. How are you? Me: I am good thanks. You look a little disturbed. What is happening? Les: Nothing I can't handle my dollface. Me: If you say so I let him off lightly because I was not in the mood for an argument * It was early in the morning the following day.Les was really acting weird since he came back yesterday.All he does is zone out and be in his thinking mood..Whatever it is he has got to cut it out because I don't know him like this.Im used to my forever bubbly Man. Me: Whatever is bothering you just know that it's affecting me aswel because I'm not used to the quiet you. LESLEY I honestly didn't want to stress my lady about the decision I need to make. I cannot stop thinking about this woman. What will happen if her husband one day walks in on us? I could do this because I trust my game but honestly I'm not up for it. I'd rather lose this job because this woman is old and I don't know where she has been or what she has done. I value my life. I will deal with her the next time I see her.. When I was about to console her my phone rang.It Mashudu's other number which I forgot to block.My aim was to tell her off but she was crying like a child.She sounded so hurt so I couldn't just brush her off because i have known her for the longest time.I know her pain.I know all that she has been through in life.I was even surprised that after all we have been through in life she would do that to me.. #FLASHBACK I was going to campus when I saw her along side a road crying.She was really beautiful to be doing that to herself in public. Me: Hey beautiful. She cried even worse.I sat next to her until she was calm. Me: Come with me..You can't be here crying. Shudu: I...I don't know you. Me: I know but I can be of help. I turned back to my bachelor flat with her.I didn't even know why I was helping. When we got to the flat i gave her water that had sugar.We sat there in total silence. Shudu: It started when I was only 15.My father was abusing my mom..He would even rape her infront of me.When my mom got tired of all the pain after years she committed suicide and that's when my father decided to turn me into his wife.He took my innocence and kept on doing that to me for as long as I can remember.When he lost his job he turned me into a money making machine.He would tell his friends about me and they would sleep with me then give him the money.2weeks back one of them refused to use protection and he infected me with a genital warts and I'm pregnant with his child.I don't know what to do.I asked my father for money so that I can go to the doctor but he refused.At this point in my life I feel like commuting suicide.I feel like I was only brought here to suffer. #BACK TO THE PRESENT DAY From that day on I cared for her.I took her to the doctor.She even aborted the baby even though I discouraged her against it but she said she won't be able to live with a child I know I won't love. It's better I abort that bring him or her to suffer like I did in the hands of my father.I took care of her with my pocket money..I even sent her to a nursing school because all she had was a matric certificate..She is now a qualified nurse whom I don't even know now.All she cares about is money just like how her father loved money.. I kept stealing glances at Rudzi. Rudzi: Do you have something to say? Because of the way you keep stealing looks at me I suspect that you are feeling guilty of something.It either has to do with your mood since yesterday or it's that call you just received. Me: No babe it's nothing of such. NARRATED AT RUDZANI'S HOME Ipfi was sitting on the bed and thinking about what had happened the day before. She was still shocked. In the midst of her thoughts she saw her father standing in front of her. She didn't know what to do. She was terrified because she knew what was about to happen. Dad: Ipfi be a good girl and come to daddy. Ipfi stood frozen with tears streaming down her face. She walked slowly towards her father shutting everything... Dad: Daddy is gonna buy you sweets.Dont cry.. He repeated what he did to her yesterday but today he fingered her hard.She flinched in pain. When he left she could finally sleep her sorrows away. ETHAN I was in my office just going through a client's file when Stan walked in. Me: Wow cousy I didn't expect to see you here. Stan: I wasn't planning on coming here either but I had to deliver a message directly I swallowed hard. Stan: You see E I'm someone who doesn't take betrayal simple.Stop fucking with my woman or else it won't be nice.You see this ever smiling and sweet Stan is all an act.There is an arrogant man behind all this.Dont dare wake up the beast in me.Dont try me or else I will fuck you up.Thats not a threat it's a promise.Family or not I will send you to your early grave and still attend your funeral with tears on my face but joy in my heart.Keep your hands to yourself bro. With that he walked out.He was talking with a serious face and I believed somehow.I wonder who told him

this is serious

following keenly

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 15 MASHUDU Les can't forget about us so soon..yes what I did was wrong of me and I'm really paying for my sins right now.I have to go to Venda..I have to apologise to him. I went to the bedroom and packed up a few bags,when I was done I left..I asked the PI to send me the address in which he is staying and he sent them. The PI is stupid.I only sleep with him to control him and I can say I'm doing a great job at it. I called an uber to take me to the taxi rank where I will catch a taxi to Venda. Les here I come.!!! It's better to cry on his shoulder about Stan than over the phone.Personally one thing can lead to another then we will be back together again. RUDZANI Today was just a lazy day.All we did was watch tv all day.He even offered to cook for me so I let him be..I even fell asleep on the couch..I woke up to water drops hitting my face. Me: What are you doing (sleepy voice) Les: Waking you up. He was holding an ice cube. Les: Babe it's already late.Lets go and bath. He carried me to the bathroom and he bathed me first.This guy is so romantic.He said he didn't want to disturb me and the baby so he bathed me..When he was done he carried me to the bathroom and lotioned me then left to go and bath aswel..I wore his boxers and my sports bra then I went back to watching tv.There came a knock at the door and I went to open.I was praying deep inside that it shouldn't be boss. I opened and I was met by a very beautiful lady who looked classic..The way she was dressed and the she was herself was amazing. Shudu: Hello!!! She said that waving her hand near my face. Me: Oh hi.How may I help you? Shudu: I'm looking for Lesley. Me: Oh he is around.Come in. She looked at me and probably of how I was wearing..She cat walked her way inside Shudu: By the way my name is Ma Les: Mashudu!!!!!? What are you doing here? How did you find me? Shudu: Well well well if it's not the forever handsome Lesley Pilusa. Les: Why are you here? Shudu: To claim back what belongs to me. Me: And what exactly is that? Oooops I didn't plan for it to come out loud. Shudu: And who are you?Les who is she? Les: Babe this is Mashudu the ladybug was telling you about. Me:Oh Les: Why are you here? She dropped her bag and cried He crouched down and rubbed her back...Whu does he care? Is he still inlove with her? I walked away leaving them there. LESLEY Watching her break down like that took me back to when I first met her.She was broken like this and it took time for her to move on..I really did love her but she betrayed me..She kicked me deep in the mud I was in..I got up and went to the bedroom where Rudzi was sitting on the edge of the bed.She was fiddling with her fingers. Me: Babe are you okay? Rudzi: How can I be when your ex is here? Me: I don't know why she is here.I don't even know how she found me. Rudzi: What does this mean for us? You seem like you love her. Me: I don't love her I just tolerate her.She has been through a lot in life so unlike her I won't push her down. Rudzi: So what are you going to do? Me: I don't know but I think she needs to go back to counselling. Rudzi: What really happened to her? I explained everything to her and she understood. Rudzi: You have a good heart. Me: Yours is innocent. So can we accomodate her for tonight only? Rudzi: I don't see any problem with it. Me: Babe thank your for understanding. I went out and found Shudu watching tv so I showed her the other room where she will sleep. Shudu: He forced himself on me Me: Who? Shudu: Stan My eyes popped out. Me: What? Shudu: He thinks I'm sleeping with Ethan and it's not true. Me: Are we talking about the same Stan? Shudu: He is hiding his true self behind that nerdy face. I couldn't believe this. RUDZANI I got out and went to the other room. Me: Babe I need some air..I will be outside by the gate. Les: Love it's late Me: I'm suffocating in here. I walked out..I just stood at the gate for long when I heard a familiar voice.It sounded like Ipfi.I listened carefully and it was her with a group of girls and boys.The were even smoking weed. Me: Ipfi Ipfi: Who is calling me? She came closer. She was wearing a short tight dress.She had makeup on. Me: Baby where are you going this late and who are those people Me: You smoke? Throw away that thing Ipfi: Why do you care? Ai maarn go to hell.

lobatan!

Last last ipfi don join bad company and i wonder what u mom did about

Your mom cause all this

*CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 16 IPFI I couldn't take it.I couldn't handle all the pain that I feel.What that man does is very wrong and I was taught about this at school.What if he ends up getting that big thing inside of me.He said he is still preparing me for it. I took my bag and put some clothes inside and went out. Dad: Where are you going with a bag? Me: To the library at school.I need to study so that I can pass. Dad: Come back early before your mom comes back. Me: Okay. I went out.When i approached the second street I started running.I didn't even know where I was going.Wherever my feet land me it's okay..When I approached the fifth street I saw a familiar face..It was Rudzani..I opened the gate the dropped my bag at the gate and ran to her.I started pushing her. Me: I hate you!!! I hate you so much RUDZANI Me: Ipfi Ipfi: You left me in that house so don't pretend as if you care because we both know you don't. Me: I did not leave you Ipfi! They kicked me out of the house. I never wanted to leave you because of the fear i had and still have. I love you very much. You are my younger sister and I care about you. Ipfi: I'm sorry it's just that I miss you and I don't have anyone to talk to. I... Ipfi broke down and started crying. She screamed her lungs out. She was crying uncontrollably Les came running from inside the house. He tried to scoop Ipfi into his arms but she didn't want him to touch her. Les just took her while she was kicking and screaming. Once we were in the house I gave her water and sat with her in my arms rocking her to sleep. She fell asleep and Les took her to one of the rooms. ETHAN To say that I was shocked is an understatement. Stan didn't strike me as the dangerous type but after what i saw the other day, I don't think that he is bluffing. I cant stop thinking about this matter and i need answers. I took my phone out to call Mashudu to try and figure out why she would tell Stan about what we had. I mean she is the only one who could have told him. Unless... i picked up my phone to call her... Voice: What do you want Stan Ethan: Baby I know that you don't want to hear from me right now but please tell me if you are the one that told Stan about me and Mashudu? Sharon: You are unbelievable Ethan! Then I heard that tititi sound. I cannot believe it. Sharon just dropped my call? Things change! I decided to call Mashudu. Maybe she will give me a better answer than Sharon. Mashudu: Ethan ukho toda mini? Ethan: Is that a way to answer your phone now? Mashudu: Pfarelo. So what can i do for you? Ethan: Stan came to my office to threaten me. He told me to leave you alone. Shudu: Ahm he....he...ahm...I Ethan: Shudu are you the one that told him about us? Why are you even stuttering? Shudu: I.... She broke down and cried. I dont know why but i was scared for her. I dropped the call and tracked her whereabouts. Don't ask how but I've got connections. My findings shocked me... what the hell is Shudu doing in Venda? How did she get there? I got up immediately and packed. I took my Ford ranger and began my journey... MASHUDU I really was not expecting what i saw. Les? A girlfriend? No she will ruin my plans. I need to find another way because i honestly do not stand a chance to that natural beauty. I have to set a trap for this girl! She doesnt know me. I know this is selfish of me but i might just use this to get Les back. Stan caught me off guard. I had to pull an act so he feels sorry for me. I might need his deep pockets if Stan decides to leave me. I need to rest so i know what to do. LESLEY Life is not getting any easy. I have a baby on the way. I am unemployed. My ex is here with us. My girlfriend's sister is here as well. What more is going to happen? This is a serious burden on me. I need a miracle to survive this. I need to learn how to pay. I need strength. I need help!Maybe I should just go back home to my parents.I can't live like this.I need to care for Rudzani.

Lex, God will see you through

Just go back home

Ok

CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS * 17 ETHAN What a long journey that was. I was just a few minutes away from home when I decided to call the PI that i had hired to find Les. I really miss my brother. P.I: Hey man Me: Hey...I was wondering if there are any new developments regarding my missing brother? P.I: Unfortunately not. It's like he disappeared from planet earth. Me: That is disappointing but please keep looking. P.I: Alright i will Me: Thank you man. Cheers. I dropped the call as I was parking just outside the house. The yard was very neat and I was shocked because no one has been here for a long time now. I went and knocked on the door before entering. I didn't wait for anyone to summon me in because this is home. As i entered the house i got the shock of my life! LESLEY Myself and Mashudu were sitting in the lounge talking when someone knocked once and entered the house. When I learnt who it was my anger just went to another level. I was already irritated by what Mashudu was telling me as it did not make sense. Ethan was the last person i executed to see here. He threw me out when ii was at my lowest! What are these people doing here? What do they want from me? I turned to look at Mashudu who's mouth was hanging open then at Ethan who's eyes were wide open. Me: Ethan. What do you want here? Ethan: I came here for Mashudu. What are you doing here? Me: I have been staying here since you decided to throw me to the wolves. Why would you even ask me that as if you care? Ethan: Brother i will answer that later for now ii want to know how Mashudu found you and didn't tell me when she knew very well that I had been looking for you for some time now. Shudu, would you please enlighten me. Mashudu: Ahm ii...he...ii. Ethan no he Ethan: what Mashudu? What? Talk and stop stuttering! Mashudu: Okay but promise not to get mad...please Ethan: Okay I am waiting Mashudu: I...I... Ethan: Talk!!! Mashudu: I paid him! Ethan: What do you mean you paid him? MASHUDU Ethan took me by surprise. I did not expect to see him here. He was also drilling me with questions that I could not answer! What do I do? What do I say? Me: I paid him not to tell you the whereabouts of Lesley. He stood there not moving or saying anything but you could see the anger building up. I wanted to run but where do I run to? Where do I hide? Ethan: How could you Mashudu!? How could you when I trusted you so much?! Me: Ethan baby please calm down Les: Baby? Ethan: Don't you dare! You know that what we were doing was just for fun! Les: Oh wow...just wow Rudzani: Whats going on here? There goes my chance of getting back together with Les Ethan: How did you even pay the guy? He does charge a lot so tell me where you got that kind of money? Mashudu: Ahm ii...he...Ethan ii... Ethan: You slept with him!? Mashudu: yes...no...maybe..no...ii mean I...no I. Ethan: No you didn't! Mashudu: I had to. I didn't have money to pay him so my only option was to do what i know I am good at. Ethan: You disgust me. Sleeping with the guy just so he can keep his mouth shut? Wow! Les: Get the hell out of my house Mashudu! I bet you are here with a motive and all that you said was a lie! I hate you and I don't want to see you ever again. Les was not having it. He was beyond the word angry. I have never seen him like that. Rudzani slowly walked towards Les with tears streaming down her face. Fear was visible. Rudzani: Baby please calm down. I am begging you. She is not worth it. I felt like slapping her. How could she! Les wrapped his arms around her. His face softened. My heart broke at the sight because i still love Les! Ethan: Mashudu you heard what Les said! Les: Ethan what are you doing here? Ethan: I tracked Mashudus phone and it brought me here. Les: I need some air we will talk when I get back. MASHUDU Ipfi woke up and told me all that had been happening at home. She was reluctant at first but eventually spoke. My worst fears were confirmed. What I had been praying for not to happen, happened. My heart broke into a million pieces. She begged me not to take her back. I was not planning on taking her back but I first had to talk to Les. There have been people arguing and I went to see who it was. People were arguing and making noise. I couldn't talk to him when he was like this so I let him go out and get some air. Ethan: And who are you? I was left with this guy who has some resemblance of Les.What do I say to him when I don't know him. Me: Rudzani Ethan: I'm Ethan..Im his twin. Me: Oh Okay. This is the same guy who left his twin when he was down and out.He didn't even care at all how he was doing and what he was eating. Me: Oh Okay. He had bags on his hands. Me: Can I show you to the bedroom? Ethan: Lady this is home so I don't need a tour so save your energy.. Yuuu so much for being nice.such an arrogant jerk. I attempted to go and make food for Ipfi Ethan: Hey I turned Ethan: Whatever it is that you think you are doing with my twin just forget it.You are not of his class and certainly not his type.Look at whatyou are wearing.Girls your age are at university yet you are busy running after men.You better leave my brother alone because he has a lady that my parents chose for him back home.. He walked away. I sat down on the couch as I felt a little pain on my abdominal area..I massaged it and felt okay after a while.I went and made food for Ipfi.She was on the bed playing with her fingers looking down.When I sat on the bed I lifted her head up and her eyes were filled with tears. Me: Baby please don't do this to yourself.Its all gonna be okay..Im here now and I'm not going to leave you. Ipfi: Mom..mom will come get me. Me: She don't or else I will report her boyfriend. Les walked in. Les: I think it's about time you both tell me what is going on. Ipfi hid her face on my shoulder. Les: Why is she scared of me? Did he do something to her? That bastard!! Is that why she refused me earlier on? I just nodded Les: I'm gonna kill someone today. Me: Les please wai.... He walked out. Ipfi: udo mphanga khakhathini .mma vhado mbulaya (he is gonna get me in trouble.Mom will kill me) Me:baby khombela uri a dzike .Les hanga iti tshithu (baby please calm down,Les won't do anything) Ipfi:mma vhangasi kholwe na tshithu tshine ndado vha vhudza nga uri vhaya vha funesa (mom won't even believe anything he says because she loves him) Me: vha kho pengiswa nga lufuno babe.vhado zwi elelwa nga murahu uri hango vha fanela (She is blinded by love babe.she will realise late that he is not good for her) Ipfi:ndiya vha vhenga.. ndi tama sathane atshi vhaisa heleni. (I hate him.I hope that satan can take him to hell) She said that breaking my heart even more.She is young and she is not supposed to have this much hate in her.

Ethan again?

Lex, be careful ooo

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 18 Short LESLEY I got to Rudzi's place and the pervet was sitting on the couch with his wife cuddling on the couch with the son watching tv sitting on the floor. Me: Are you not ashamed? I said while I was calm.They turned and looked at me. Pervert: What do you want in my house? Me: You see that is your problem.You are trying to act like a man when you are nothing but a coward.When I left my place I was coming here to rearrange your face and castrate you but I'm man enough to warn you..No man your age could do what you did to that little girl.The trauma that you have put her through.How do you expect her to get on with life or to trust a man with her life.First it was Rudzi but because she left you traumatized Ipfi. Mother: What are you talking about? Me: Why don't you ask him? Why don't you ask him where Ipfi is and why some of her clothes are not in the room.You really disgust me old fool.And you what kind of a mother are you? You left your daughter with him and now he didn't even think twice before dropping his pants down to attempt to rape that girl. I walk out because my anger was starting to rise. When I got home I found Ethan watching tv. Me: What do you really want here? You said you came here for Mashudu so since she is gone can you leave aswel. Ethan: This is also my home.You can't kick me out.Like really Les did Shudu break you to that point? Like you just had to go for a low life like that girl who's hair is as dirty as her feet. I looked at him absent mindedly. Me: Are you don't talking? Are you don't bashing out on my woman? Ethan: Fuck you bro.That girl can't be my sister in law.She looked fucked up.She doesn't even go to school.She is a gold digger. Me: Firstly I don't have gold so what makes you think that she is a gold digger? Secondly I don't have a stable job but she is here.thirdly I love her just the way she is.Dirty or not I still love her. She is the only person who loved me with all my flaws and even when i didn't believe inlove. She is the only family I have so if you don't mind leave. He shook his head. Ethan: You are going to regret keeping that girl in your life. ETHAN I went to my room.There's no way I'm leaving.This is also my house.The thing is that Les always gets the right girls. Rudzani is the definition of an African woman.She doesn't use makeup to look pretty..She is really natural.If I can't have her then Ethan will not have her aswel. I wonder why Shudu did this.Im gonna fuck her up for real.She will wish that she never met me. My phone rang Me: Hello Shudu: I'm so sorry.Its just that I have always loved Les and if you found him you were gonna tell him about us which is something I couldn't allow and look now what you did.I was in the middle of breaking him up with that village girl. Maybe Shudu is my key to get Rudzani after all.She has always been Les's weakness. Me: I will call you.. RUDZANI I no longer feel welcomed here.That guy is just something else.. Ipfi: You don't seem okay. What is wrong? Me: Nothing I can't handle love. Les: I'm back Me: Where have you been? Les: Your place Me: I hope you didn't harass anyone Les: I didn't but I made sure that he doesn't come near her anymore...Woman in hungry. Me: Let me go make you food. Les: Let's all go eat as a family. Ipfi: (shyly) I'm full.i just ate. Les: Babe them let's go and eat. He held my hand and we went to the kitchen..There was the Mashudu lady with the Ethan character eating the food I cooked..I really wonder if there is any left for us. I went to open the pots and they were empty.I wanted to cry because I was really hungry Me: Honey there is no food in the pots I could see that Les was becoming angry but he acted like the bigger person. Les: Sit down love I will make noodles for us. I did as told while he made the noodles.He was done in no time so we ate. Ethan: Shudu I heard that village girls can make a person fall inlove with them to a point where you will cook for them.I heard that they use witch doctors. We kept on eating. Shudu: I hears that ones they trap you there is no way out Ethan: I hope the recent victim realises this soon rather than later. Les hit the table really hard. Les: If you have something to say why don't you say it to our faces rather than make it seem like we are not here ? What are you even doing here because you were chased out? Ethan: She is my visitor so chill I took our plates. Me: Love let's go eat in the bedroom. We went to eat in our room and when we were done i went wash the dishes I found the ones those two were using so I washed them aswel.I sorted the kitchen and put things In order before going to bed. IPFI The following day I had to go to school because I can't afford to miss out.Its really great that I have my sister by my side.She cares for me..As I was walking to school I felt like someone was following me.When I looked back I saw no one I was passing my the little bush when someone grabbed me.That all I remember until I woke up now to be in a dark room.There he was looking at me.I could only see the eyes but the face I couldn't because it was very dark. Me: Where am I? Who are you? The person just looked at me without talking *CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS *

Another wahala

Ethan leave ur brother alone, Rud is pregnant and she can't be urs

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 19 ETHAN I went to my room.If I can't have her then Les will not have her aswel. I will move mountains to make that happen. I wonder why Shudu did this. Im gonna fuck her up for real. She will wish that she never met me! I took my phone out and called the PI. I wanted answers from him and I wanted him to know that his license was going to be taken away. PI: Hey man what's up? Me: Nothing is up besides the fact that I have found my brother and I want you off the case with immediate effect. PI: That's good news I guess. I will drop everything. Me: That is not all PI: Got another job for me? Me: No. Remember the lady that you were sleeping with so that you wouldn't tell me about your findings? PI: Ahm...man look I...I was...I Me: I'm glad that you know her. Well she told me everything and I Just wanted to tell you that you will be losing your license soon. I will also sue you. After that I will deal with your side chick and also inform your wife about her. That will be all. Bye. I dropped the call and relaxed on the bed facing the ceiling.Im not going to call his wife nor get him to lose his licence,I just want him to sleep with one eye open because he can't go around eating other people's money then not do the required job.All I will do is threaten him until I'm satisfied. I slowly drifted off to a world where only me and Rudzi existed.. LESLEY Ethan was really getting on my nerves. He surely knew which buttons to push. If I didn't know better I would say that he wants Rudzi. The way he looks at her doesn't sit well with me. Also with Mashudu here I think he is trying to break us up in some way.I wonder sometimes if I shared a womb with him because I would never do to him what he does to me.It was very low of him to sleep with Mashudu. I will just have to be careful when it comes to him being alone with Rudzi.Not that I don't trust her because I trust her with my life but it's that snake called my twin which I don't trust around her. Me: Baby Rudzi: Yes love Me: How are you and the baby? Any cravings? Want a foot massage? Rudzi: We are perfect thanks just fatigue killing us. I dont have any cravings yet and a foot massage wouldnt be a bad idea. How is daddy? Me: well move over so I can give you that foot massage. I said standing up and going to sit by her feet and lifting her feet and putting them on my thighs. Me: Daddy is fine. Just miss his women. Rudzi blushed and covered her face. Rudzi: Would it be bad to say that I missed you too My heart leaped for joy. I was in actual fact happy to hear that but also sad because it made me realise that I hadn't given her much attention. Me: Does that mean I can make it up to you? She started blushing. I get happy when my woman is happy. I love this soul right here. We started kissing and one thing led to another... RUDZANI I was sitting in the house waiting for Ipfi to return from school. It was late afternoon and still no sign of her. Les returned and I asked him to escort me to go check for Ipfi at her school. We walk there togather hand in hand and when we reached a bush I saw her bag. I froze! Les saw what I was seeing and he moved closer. He took the bag and her one shoe as well as the letter. We didn't read the letter but by Les's facial expression I could tell it was bad. Les: Let's go back home. Les took my hand and we walked back. All the way back I was silently crying. Bad thoughts crossed my mind. Nothing positive! I was devastated.Mu worst fear is that pervet taking her and putting her through torture again.It would really kill me if something was to happen to her.I love Ipfi very much because she understood my pain when I was still living at home. I felt like somehow there was something wrong.Like she is in some kind of trouble. Me: Let's go and report.She must be in some kind of trouble. Les: Babe we will only go there just for law.Otherwise we know how poor those people are when coming to such cases.Anyway I think I know where to start. IPFI I was very scared. This person has not showed themselves but the voice was very familiar. I was very hungry and pressed. I had peed on myself already because there was no one to take me to the toilet. It was also dark in here. The only light coming in was that from the very small window. You could see that the sun was setting. Rudzi must have been very worried. I couldn't hear any movements or sounds. The person finally walked in again. They were covering their face. He had a plastic with him. He untied my hands and gave me the plastic. I tried acting up but this guy didn't buy my story and forced me to eat with a gun pointed to my head. I finished eating with my face wet with tears and the guy left. After a very long time someone walked in again and started laughing. It was now dark outside. Very dark. I recognized that laughter...no no no it can't be! It just cannot happen. How come? I was devastated. I began crying again. I was wailing hoping Rudzi could find me. I was hoping she would come to my rescue but then I was wrong. Little did i know that it was just the beginning... Me: Rudzani!!!!! Please Rudzi help me... It hurts.This pain hurts.I wana go home.I wana be with my sister... Voice: Shut up!!! He gave me a back slap.i could taste the blood in my mouth..He injected me with something and I felt myself falling into a deep sleep.. I woke up to a different environment..It was dark outside..I was on the bare ground.I tried to stand up but I felt a very sharp pain on my womanhood.I placed my hand there and I came back with blood.I started to panic and cried alot.I couldn't be on my periods because I just finished 2days back.I was outside Lesley's place.Whoever took me knew where I live Me: RUDZANI!!!! Help!!! LESLEY!!! I screamed louder so that they can hear me.What have I done so bad to experience such cruelty?

Chaiiiiiii

he finally rape you

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 20 LESLEY We were in the bedroom when I heard someone screaming our named out side and I was certain that it was Ipfi because it sounded like a child. Me: Did you hear that? She jumped up the bed.She ran out in my big shirt.I followed her and when we got there it was not a nice sight to see.Ipfi was on the ground crying.She seem to be in pain...I went back inside to Ethan and I didn't knock.I found Mashudu ontop of him.no wonder they didn't hear anything.i saw his car keys on the dressing table so I grabbed the but they fell causing them to see me. Ethan: What the fuck bro? Me: There is nothing I don't know here.Its funny how you enjoy my leftovers. I took the keys and left I carried Ipfi and put her in the car..Rudzi got at the backseat with her. Me: Babe which way is the hospital? She directed me and I got there as fast as I could.. I parked inside and carried her inside the hospital at the emergency door.The nurses took her with a stretcher and asked us to remain behind..Rudzi was crying uncontrollably.. I brushed her back trying to calm her down TENDANI Me: But I didn't say you should rape her father.She is innocent and young.Dad how can you be so cruel.The aim was to send a message to those two that if they don't break up the worse possible can happen.Now you have traumatized a child for life. Boss: She will thank me some day.She is a woman. Me: She is a teen dammit!!! You can't rape a virgin and expect her to be okay with it..Imagine if that was me.Daddy I didn't ask for this.. I walked out.My dad is something else.We agreed on just kidnapping and atleast roughing her up to send a message. I felt hands holding me. Boss: You can't go home when mini boss is misbehaving like this. I looked at his trousers and indeed mini boss was awake. Me: I'm not your call girl. He picked me up and we went to the bedroom.We were in his other house.What I like about dad is that he is very good in bed.He knows his game that's why he goes after this young girls.He can make a girl cum multiply times in one round.. RUDZANI I felt a sharp pain on my abdominal area that caused me to scream. Les: Hey what's wrong. I touched the area and cried in agony.. Les called the nurses and they had to admit me aswel. I was checked and they said that it's my first trimester and mostly it's the critical trimester that needs me to be careful which includes me reducing stress. Doctor: Mam you need to reduce stress because it's not good for the baby..Your blood pressure is even high.We are going to keep you here tonight to monitor your bp...If it's okay by morning then we will let you go. I frowned.I really don't like hospitals..I used to be admitted most of the times when I was bullied at school and mom increased by beating me up when I got home in pain and refusing to do house chores She would beat me to a pulp and lie to the doctors that I was beaten by bullies at school. Me: Doctor I'm okay..all I want is to see my sister. Doc: You need some rest Me: I can't rest without seeing my sister.I need to know what happened to her. Doc: Let me go and check her and also get the report from the doctor who is handling her.better? Me: Its better than nothing. The doctor walked out. Les: Baby you have to take it easy or else you will lose the baby.. Me: I'm calm can't you see? This is as calm as I can be. Les: I don't even know how you do it.You remain calm even when you are hurt.Dont keep things inside love. Me: I'm not..This is how I express my pain.There is no other way I know. Les: I love you. Me: I love you more .. He sat next to me on the bed. We just spoke until the doctor walked in.His facial expression wasn't pleasing at all. Doc: Sir can I talk to you outside. Me: Hell no.You are gonna talk to him infront of me.There is nothing you are gonna hide from me because that is my little sister in there. Les: Babe please. Doc: She was molestrated.. Me: I don't understand. Remember school was never for me. Doc: She was raped.Someone raped her and she had a paper in her bra. Me: Wha....what paper? The doctor gave Les the paper. Les: 'As long as you don't do as asked then expect something huge than this next.' What the fuck is this? So we should have let him molestrate her in her own mother's house? Why is she like this? Doc: We have to file a police report for this. Me: My sister is going through alot and all you can think of is the same police who asked us to come back after 24hours? You must be kidding me. I walked out and went to the receptionist to ask where my sister is and she told me.I went there.She was sobbing on her bed..It broke my heart to witness this. I got on bed next to her.I made her lie yeah on my chest. Me: Cry it all out baby. Ipfi: It wasn't dad..It was a man who approached my friend at school and she refused him.He also approached me but I reduced him too.I hate him.I hate him for doing this to me.That was my pride.Something that was speacial.It was meant for someone special but he took it away from me.What did I do wrong to him? He is an old man.He is very old. I was starting to be confused.I thought it was that pervert..who is she talking about? Ethan Mashudu. This girl is in for a big surprise. She honestly thinks that she knows me. She thinks simply because she rides my dick i will let what she did pass? Nah she hasn't seen anything yet. I want her to suffer the same way I did when I did not know where my brother was. Yes I act like I don't care but in actual fact I do. Although ii get jealous of him but I care. After Les saw us I stopped Mashudu and kicked her out knowing no one is home. She also knows that she is nothing but a booty call to me. I doubt anyone would ever want to marry a girl like her. I mean she is loose and has no real value. I was really hungry and there was no food. Rudzani didn't cook. I must say she is a great cook. Les is one lucky bastard. I took my phone to call Stan so he could help me with something. Stan: I'm almost there we will talk when I arrive. Tititi. Call was ended. What the hell did he mean by that. I am not home if that's what he meant. As I was busy in the kitchen the door swung open and my mouth flew open. What the hell?

The bastard rape her

Observing

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 21 STANLEY These people do not know me. They just cannot be taking me for granted. I am a joke to them. It's nice. I drove to Venda and went to Mashudu first. She was staying in some B&B there. When ii got there she was home. Great. I picked the door and entered. Money makes the world go round so it was easy for me. Everyone is probably wondering how I know all that is happening well...I have been keeping tabs on Ethan and Mashudu. I used to be a gang leader and left that life when I wanted to be legitimate in all that I do. Well until now when I found out these two were taking me for a rollercoaster ride. I got there and picked her up and walked with her to my car and put her in the backseat. She was sleeping so peacefully. I walked back and closed her door then drove home. I came out of the car and locked it then walked inside the house. Ethan was shocked to see me standing there. He looked like he had seen a ghost. Who knows...i might just be his worst nightmare! Ethan: What are you doing here? Me: No hello cousin? Nothing? Okay Ethan: I asked you a question. Me: Well I came to fetch my woman.I sometimes wonder why you just don't learn..Should I fuck you up so that you get the message loud and clear or should I just shoot your balls? Ethan: Like you would dare... LESLEY I was only able to come home when they allowed to put Rudzani in the same ward with Ipfi.Stan's car was in the yard Me: Oh great.Now I have to deal with two immature old men. When I got inside they were arguing. Me: Why do you both like following me around.Akere I left you guys to enjoy life.What is it that you want from me? Stan: Chill bro what would I want from a broke ass nigga like you.Besides I'm not gay..I came here to take my woman home. I laughed really loud. Me: Which woman? You refer to that lose thing a woman.On a serious note you both should really stop eating my leftovers though.The very same 'woman' who has been fucking Ethan and then even have guts to come begging me for love back.Aowa Stan learn to differentiate between a woman and an immature girl.I really do wish that you both could leave this place so that I can be in peace.I was really living in peace before you came with your drama.. Stan: I do not wish to stay in such filth thank you..And you (pointing at Ethan) Stay away from Mashudu or else I won't hesitate to do exactly what I said I will do.Im not bluffing. He walked out. Me: Its about time you also leave Ethan.Sharon must be waiting for you. I walked out to my room to sleep..Its been a long day and all I want is for the night to pass so that I can go see my women at the hospital. The following day I woke up and I found Ethan smartly dressed. Me: Good morning. Ethan: Hey bro.Can we talk? Me: Sure.I still have time before going to the hospital. We sat down. Ethan: I know I screwed up.I know all I did when we maturely grew up was to take away every girl you had.I have learnt my lesson now..I want us to be brothers again.I want you to trust me.. Me: actions will have to speak louder this time. Ethan: Oh Me: Yeah. Ethan: I'm leaving..can I have my car keys? Me: Yeah sure. ' I gave him the keys.He stood up then left. I have ran out of money.How will I get to the hospital now? I went to search in my room but nothing.I went to search in the room Ethan was occupying and I found a suitcase on the bed. I ran outside to go tell Ethan that he left his luggage but he was long gone. I went back into the house with so many questions. Was Ethan coming back? Why would he leave his luggage behind? I went back to the room and opened the suitcase. I got the shock of my life. I was not expecting to see so much money. There was a letter on top of the money. I opened and it read... ' Dear Lesley I know that you have a lot of questions but I'm not there to answer them. I am sorry for neglecting you at your lowest and I am sorry for not being the ideal brother. With this money take care of yourself and Rudzani. Not forgetting the little one. I am sorry for what I said about her. She's the one for you. Love her. Brother Ethan Ethan What Lesley said made sense and frankly he was telling the truth. I had been jealous of him most of the time and I think it's about time that I talk to my parents about Lesley. If they do not change their mind then they will lose another son. I left Les a lot of money and the way I know my brother, I trust that he will put it to good use. I organised for people to extend the house he's living in now and I have already paid in full and bought the material. We cant be living and enjoying the luxurious life while one of us suffers. I'm not one to pour my heart out but honestly what I saw broke my heart. It hit home. It cut deep. I just can't. I drove into the garage to buy snacks and refill my tank. While waiting I called Les. Les: Brother thank you so much. I wanted to call you so I could thank you but I don't even have airtime. Me: Calm down Les. I've got your back. Always know that. Les: Thank you Ethan. This means a lot. But why the sudden change of heart? Me: Story for another day man. Listen there are people coming in tomorrow to extend the house so please move into the back room and also there's a little something I got to show you how sorry I am for the chaos and havoc I caused whilst there. It's nothing much but it's something. Les: This house is fine and what is this gift that you're talking about. Tell your brother man Me: No let it be a surprise. Anyway check your bank balance. I also transferred some money there and hopefully that will keep you going for some time. The builders have been paid. We will talk soon Les. I love you man Les: You sound gay man. But I love you too brother. I then dropped the call. It felt like the old times when we were still very close. Damn I loved my brother. I still do. I mean...he is my blood. I paid, got into my car and joined the road back... Mashudu Stanley. This man will be the end of me I tell you.I dont even know how I got back here.I was shocked to wake up next to him,its was even creepy because he was looking at me while i was sleeping.He is not the Same guy that I met. He is not the person I pretended to 'fall in love with'. I hate him.I wish he was dead. He walked in with a bunch of red, pink and white roses, Fererro Roche chocolates and a bottle of moet. He stood there until I decide to lie down. I felt him lying down next to me. No one said a word as we drifted off to deep sleep.

I think Lesley life will turn around for better now

Wow! Am happy for you

*CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 22 LESLEY Rudzi: They said I can go home today but they will be keeping Ipfi here see a therapist.I don't want to leave her here Les. Me: Babe don't worry we will come and see in all visiting hours.Please don't stress too much. Rudzi: I really feel responsible for what happened to her because I should have reported that pervert when he tried his luck with me.But then still she said it's not him but some old man she refused to date Me: Don't beat yourself too much babe.You wouldn't have known..Did she mention the name? Rudzi: She didn't mention alot because that's when you came with the car.I swear I will kill a dog if I find out who it is. Me: Babe come let's go and see her before we go and sign your discharge forms... We walked out to Ipfi's ward. IPFI No one could compare to the pain I feel deep inside.Being sexually abused is not something to be taken lightly.I felt my soul leave my body when that man took my innocence forcefully.rage builds up whenever I think about that moment.I haven't cried since I woke up today but instead I have rage deep inside of me.All I can think of is killing myself.Where was God when that man did this to me.Where was God when mom abused my sister? Where was he when my step father pleased himself with me telling me that he is preparing me for the day when he will finally enter me.Where was He when my step father prepared me for that old man to molerstrate me? I was so lost deep In my thoughts when Rudzani and Les walked in..She had a worried look on her face..Honestly I don't know how she does it..She never takes it all to heart..You will never find her breaking because of all this.Growing up I have witnessed all that she went through in the arms of the woman we call our mother.I felt her arms hug me Rudzi: Baby are you okay? I nodded Les: Is there anything you need? I shook my head no. Honestly I didn't have the courage to speak.I was so afraid that my voice will betray me.The moment I saw my sister tears were on the verge of falling so talking will just make me cry. Rudzi: I'm here for you babe every step of the way. * Days went by with me at the hospital..I spoke to the therapist twice a day and they said I was ready to go home.They say i am but honestly in not.Im not ready to face this cruel world..How do I walk out this hospital and pretend like in okay? Les: Are you ready? I nodded..I haven't spoken to him nor Rudzani since the incident.They just came to see me and they would crack jokes which them both will laugh.It never tickled me a bit.Its like I have turned into a zombie. We walked out the hospital and lucky there was a taxi and we got in then went..When we got home I just felt the back of my hair stand..Something was not right.When we got inside there he was holding my sister by her hair.There was also a very beautiful girl holding a scissors... Tendi: I have asked you a thousand times to stay away from Les but it seem like you don't listen. I didn't care why they were here.My mind dated back to that day when he even switched the lights on for me to see him have his way with me. There was a wooden chair next to me so I took it and charged at him.Mind you they didn't see us.I hit him at the back with the chair. Boss: What the fuck. I had tears on my face. Me: I HATE YOU!! I WISH YOU BURN ON HE'LL FOR RAPING ME.I WISH YOU BAD LUCK ALL YOUR LIFE..I WISH THAT ONE DAY SOMEONE RAPES YOUR CHILDREN AND YOUR WIFE WHILE YOU ARE WATCHING. I ran out..I ran as fast as my feet could..I was very much hurt.I didn't even know where I was going.I just kept on running..A car stopped next to me. Woman: Need a lift? Me: Where are you going? Woman: Im on a road trip.Im going to Cape Town. Me: I'm going there too. Woman: Without bags? Or even a purse? Me: I was left behind by my family.I will find them that side. Woman: Atleast I will have company anyway.. Me: Borrow me a pen and paper. She gave me and I wrote a letter then gave the boy who was selling things next to the road.I told him that if someone ask about me he must give them the letter. This woman was creepy.How can she allow without even confirming with my family. Woman: By the way my name is Siphokazi Boitumelo Mokoena but they call me Boity or Kazi. Me: I'm Ipfi mam Kazi: Nice name.Hey I'm only 23 years old so stop making me look like I'm 30 or 40. I smiled. Me: Are you married? She looked down. Kazi: Topic for another day.Im just around here to enjoy life..Moving from one place to another Me: Can I join Kazi: I thought you said you were.. Me: I ran away.I was raped so staying there will be my downfall especially emotionally. She looked at me. Kazi: Okay..Do you have a phone? Me: No Kazi: Good.I don't want people tracking us. RUDZANI Me: He raped her because I didn't listen.They almost used scissors on my face Les.Now Ipfi ran away.She is not emotionally okay right now and she can even do something tragic. Les: Babe please calm down we will find her. We were walking down the streets asking people if they have seen her. Me: Have...have you se... Les: Have you seen this girl? He was holding a picture of Ipfi Boy: Yes..She got in an Audi A5 car of some woman. Me: What? Boy: Yes and it was a few minutes ago.She asked me to give you this. Me: Oh my God Lesley they have abducted my sister.They are going to use her parts for rituals.. Be took the letter and read it out loud. 'Dont search for me because I don't want to be found.I need to heal far away from Venda.Take care of yourself and the baby.I will come back when I'm ready' I sat on the ground crying.Lesley carried me and took me home.He went out leaving me alone. LESLEY I went to the police station to report and they just told me that they will get to it even after I told them that she ran out when she saw the man who raped her.Did they give a fuck? No..they they say is one thing.I really don't know why the people who are supposed to help us keep doing this to us.They were worse even after they saw the letter.They told me that she left on her own will so they won't be searching for her. I went home stressed because this will only stress Rudzi more. Rudzi: Did you find her? Me: No. Rudzi: Oh my God

Corrupt police

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 23 RUDZANI I was sitting in the house stressed when a truck hooted at the gate and a bunch of construction men walked in and told me they were here to build. I was instructed to pack and move to the back room. Maybe Les forgot to tell me that we are moving. I packed all our clothes. As I was packing I found a suitcase hidden under the bed. I put it with other suitcases and made a mental note to check what it is as it was very heavy. I moved the suitcases and as soon as I was settled I opened inside the suitcase to check what was inside. When I opened I got the shock of my life. I was so angry and scared at the same time.Where did Les get so much money?! There were alot of questions running in my mind.Has he suddenly turned gangster?What could be a better explanation for so much money? ETHAN I arrived home and called the builders to get to work. I then called the car dealership to check how far with the car arrangements. Yes that's my second surprise. As soon as I was done with all that I slept because I was a little tired. Woke up later on and refreshed then drove to the parents house. I was serious about what I said. We need some change in this family. It has been long overdue. Mom opened the door and welcomed me in. I was not my usual bubbly self. Dad: Why are you looking so depressed? Me: We need to talk Mom: Sounds serious. Maybe I should give you space Me: No I need you here Mom: Alright then we are all ears Me: I want you both to take Les back in and acknowledge him as your son. What you did to him was unfair and still is Dad: You will not come into my house and tell us what to do! We are your parents! Mom: Why are you bringing him up now? Is everything okay? Me: If you must know he is suffering and it's not even exciting.. His life is not the same. He has done well all those years going to school ans studying hard to please you but only for him to live life like this. Dad: He is learning.How will he grow if we pamper him even when he is this old? We built this empire for you both but he wants to be a man now and work for someone else when his father's company is up and running. Me: Is it wrong for him to want something different.Until when will you dictate our lives? For crying out loud we are grown now.We are no longer the little boys you used to take decisions for Pa.Why cant you accept that? You better take Les back and treat him like your son or else...you will live to regret it. I stood up then walked towards the door. I then turned around and looked at them.. Me: I give you one month Then I was out of their house. STANLEY Mashudu. My love. I am in love with her and there is nothing and no one who will come between us. We have been making love since we returned and all the time my future wife cries. It angers me alot because I sometimes feel like She is thinking about those stupid twins called my cousins.I honestly don't want to lose her as even if She wants to leave me i will not allow that to happen. She is my everything,I have always wanted her and Les had to go for her..I cant stomach the thought of losing her. I have forgiven her. Although my plans for Ethan have not even begun. I shall deal with him accordingly. My gang has been trying to get me back for a long time and I think now is the time. I took my phone out to call bull. Bull: Heita ola my broer Me: Heita. Wat gaan aan? Bull: Ah nex man. Hierdie plek is nie goed nine. We need you back. Me: Ek hoor jou. You will be glad to know that I'm coming back. Bull: Ek sal vertel die onder mense. They will be glad to know about the good news. Me: Okay man. Cheers I dropped the call. MASHUDU Stanley has turned into a beast. He got a body guard for me and I am not allowed to go anywhere without him. He tracks my every move. I don't know what to do with him. If I try and report him I will lose my life. I am so defeated. All the bad that I have ever done is catching up to me. Why is God punishing me this was though? It is the most painful way and I would never wish it upon my greatest enemy. I have learnt my lesson. LESLEY I got home to find people working on the house. I asked their boss about my girlfriend's whereabouts and I was told. I went to the back room and found her sleeping. She looked so peaceful but one can tell that she had troubles..She was carrying all the pain on her shoulders..I think the pain of not being able to help her sister was really eating her up.She has even lost a kilo. I kissed her on her forehead and she woke up immediately. Me: Hey.Im sorry I woke you up. Rudzi: I was waiting for you so I guess I fell asleep. Me: Okay..Im here now. Rudzi: What's that in that suitcase? I turned and looked at it. Me: Oh that Rudzi: Yes that. Me: Money that I was given by Ethan.. I went and took the letter.. She read it. Rudzi: Oh Okay. Me: Babe wait..You were doubting me? Rudzi: Desperate times calls for desperate measures so how will i know when you are into shady doings. Me: Come on now really? Geez. Rudzi: Where are you going? Me: I need some air. As I was about to walk out Boss got in with his goons.. They started messing the place up.I just stood there and looked at them.The took the suitcase on the bed and opened it. Boss: Well well well.Look what we have here..This I wasn't expecting...I was here to terrorise the place but I guess this is my lucky day. Me: Hell no you ain't taking that. Boss: Watch me. Me: If I were you I wouldn't do that Boss: Again watch me. They walked out. Rudzi: You are just gonna let him take the only money that will help us survive? Me: He just made the biggest mistake of his life.I am done being nice.That man just woke the beast in me. Behind this innocent face there is a man who is more dangerous to a point where no one will believe.See when I was in university I was asked to join a gang due to my knowledge too much on technology..Im a man of many talents..The gang knew that if they had me on their side they will break alot of codes and that would mean even high security banks or safe won't be a trouble for them..Maybe it's about time I use my knowledge...Its about time I run Mr boss broke.

wow!!! this boss is something else, I really wish he gets what he wants. ride on writer

It's high time you deal with him

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * Short..Sorry 24 LESLEY I'm glad I didn't sell my laptop but how am I gonna get Wi-Fi?.. I called Ethan. Ethan: Sho Me: Hey dude Ethan: You don't sound like someone who is happy.What is wrong? Me: There is someone who is making my life a living hell because I refused to date his daughter so he has been a pain in the ass.He took the money you gave me. Ethan: What? Hell no.. Me: Don't worry about that.I will get it back and more.But right now I need money to buy data for my modem. Ethan: Seriously? What are you going to do with data? Me: You will find out as soon as I'm done dude.. Ethan: How much should i transfer? Me: Send 4k just in case. Ethan: Okay you will see your bank notification Me: Thanks.I owe you alot. Ethan: Its the least I can do. Me: I will contact you as soon as I'm done. Ethan: Okay no problem. The money came in and it was 5k and I bought data..If it don't last then I'm gonna have to add..Rudzi sleeps alot this days.I guess it's the pregnancy. I connected my laptop and got down to business. Damn this man is loaded. I want to leave him DRY. I transferred R5 000 000 into an offshore account then another R5 000 000. I can't transfer it to my account yet. But I trust my work. They won't be able to trace it back to me. I transferred R1 000 000 again. Then transferred another R4 000 000. I am really going to leave him broke. I transfered the rest of the money that was left, covered ALL my tracks then transfered the money into my other account that was a business account . I logged out and switched off my laptop. I sat down and relaxed with a huge smile on my face. I did everything with great speed. I'm proud. I called Ethan to let him know. ETHAN As I was sitting deep in my thoughts I received another call from Les. Me: Hey...talk to me Les: I hacked into his account and transferred all his money into my account. Me: Les are you mad? What if you get caught? Les: Relax I'm not stupid. I sent it to an offshore account then to my account. They can't trace it back to me. Me: Oh I tend to forget you are an expert when it comes to these things. So tell me how much did you score? Les: Just know it's millions. This fool is loaded. Me: I'm glad man. Look expect your third gift soon. Should be ready before the end of this week. Les: I wonder what it is Me: Relax. You will be put out of your misery soon. Les: Whatever man. You won't tell me so bye I laughed and just hung up. Les is dramatic. Just when I was about to stand I received another call from my parents. I answered Me: Dad Dad: We need to talk. Could you come over please Me: Not today but I will let you know when I am free. Dad: Alright then. We will hear from you. Me: bye I dropped the call. I knew that they had come to their senses but I was going to play with them a little before going there. They must taste their own medicine. STANLEY Me: Heita majimbos They am jump up as they see me and they start greeting me with our secret handshake. They are all so excited. They seem very happy ii must say. Scar: Maar grand shap uthi usofunani yii? Noma uza awuszeli nezimnandi. Me: My auti this time ke tlile ka mabaka. Eh monna kere bona. I am back. Vir goed! So prepare to be rich ONCE AGAIN. The gang was whistling and dancing. They were excited. They were happy. The gang was ecstatic. I just stood there laughing and shaking my head. Yes I officially belong to a gang now. Touch one and touch all. This is who we are! TENDANI Me: You have to give me half of that money dad Boss: Not until you spend the night with me. Me: Dad come on now.Mom will be suspicious now...I have been sleeping out for 3days now..Its even more worse because even you are also sleeping out. Boss: She knows I have business to take care of.As for you she knows you are wild so I'm sure she is not worried at all. Me: I don't know about that hey. Boss: Don't worry I will take care of her.. Me: You better dad. Boss: Let me go and put this money at the bank.Its not safe here. Me: Tomorrow you have to transfer me half of it Boss: I will. He left. Well I'm no longer ashamed that I sleep with my father for all the things he does for me.The only person i don't want to hurt is my mom.She is very special to me. I went and poured myself some sweet rose wine... I spent the whole day indoors drinking..When dad got here I was already getting drunk. Boss: There is my princess. He approached me.Honestly I no longer had energy to be driving him.This is the fourth day and I'm very tired. THE FOLLOWING DAY I don't even remember how last night ended...Dont even know how I fell asleep.I was woken up by my father's phone with messages flooding his phone and phone calls that were never answered. I shook him to wake up. Me: Dad it might be mom. Just when he was about to answer it hanged up. He put the phone down. Me: And then? Boss: If the person is serious they will call again. He went back to sleep..I got up and went to shower.

Mr boss u eyes go soon clear

boss u are nothing but a wicked fool.

You'll have a clear vision soon

Oloriburuku ni Boss yii

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 25 LESLEY I slept with a smile on my face and I woke up with yet a smile on my face. Rudzi: You seem happy babe Me: I'm very happy.Lets just say the revenge for your sister has just begun.. Rudzi: What do you mean? Me: I think it's about time we leave this place and go live at Joburg..I mean we have enough money to start a business.I can start something based on my IT knowledge since my father won't let me be. Rudzi: But Les this is the only home I know Me: I know my love.You can even get a job that side after giving birth.. She just kept quiet... Me: I will let you think about it. Rudzi: So you took his money? Me: Yes I did. Rudzi: Wow.I didn't think you would do so. BOSS I was busy dressing up when my phone rang..I answered and it.. Me: Hello Wife: Honey what is going on? Me: What do you mean? Wife: There is no money in our joint account and even in your business account. Me: Sorry? Come again Wife: Get back home dammit.You transferred our money in another account didn't you? This wasn't registering well.Shw doesn't make sense at all.I got in the car and sped home. Tendi was also here while my wife was cursing. Wife: How could you take such a decision without informing me? Me: I don't know what you are talking about. I took my phone and checked my balances and indeed all my accounts were empty.. Me: Come we are going to the bank. We all got in the car and drove to the bank. Me: This can't be happening? Who could have done this? I really don't get this at all.Whoever it is the bank will have to find out who it is or else i will sue them. We got there and enquired..We sat there for hours with them trying to find out all this.All I could hear was 'Sorry Sir' I was shattered.How am i gonna recover from all this? Worse is that I don't know who did this.. ETHAN I decided that today I was going to hear what my parents have decided. So I woke up, bathed and got dressed. Had breakfast then left to their house. Mom got the door as always. Mom: He's in the lounge Mom looked worried and she was jumpy. I just nodded my head and went ahead. I found him drinking whiskey and smoking a cigar. He really meant business. Me: Old man. I'm here Dad: Why did you bring up Lesley after so many years Me: He is suffering and needs his family Dad: Well unfortunately we won't welcome him back unless he does what we asked. Me: Well you leave me no choice then Dad: What do you mean by that? Mom walked in just as I was about to make the announcement... Me: I am no longer your son. Mom: Noooo She was screaming then started crying Dad: WHAT? THAT IS ABSURD! Me: You refused to take my brother back so you've lost two sons now. Dad: Okay son look can you give me a week to reconsider? Me: Two days. That is all! I stood up then walked out and drove home. These people are not serious. STANLEY Things have been great at work and with the gang. Mashudu as well. She's finally accepting that she not going anywhere. She is stuck with me...FOR LIFE! It's about time I put my boys up to a mission now. A special mission. I want them to deal with Ethan. Yes I'm still on that. We've had two hoists already that were successful and left me a millionaire. Things are finally coming together. MASHUDU I have accepted defeat. I have accepted my punishment for all the evil that I've ever done. If this is the life I'm destined to live then so be it. The pain of not going out without a dodgy body guard is the worse. I hate it. Honestly. I wish I could run away but where do I go to? This body guard is scary. I am not even allowed to have friends. Is that fair though? If only I hadn't given him the love potion. Things are bad now. It's backfiring. God please help me.

God will never help you

play ur game girl @Mashudu, stanley keep off and mind ur business, if u have to deal with anyone it's ur girlfriend, ride on writer.

Mashudu! You never see anything

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 26 TENDANI Me: Dad my birthday is around the corner so I need money to go on a road trip with my friends..We will only be 6 so you have to pay for all of them since it's my birthday. Boss: I do not have money at all. Me: Dad stop tripping..And i need you to transfer that amount that we both got from Lesley. Boss: Stop stressing me Tendani I don't have money. Mom: Honey your father is stressed because a huge amount of money was stolen from his account..All his accounts were wiped clean. Me: What? Mom: That's how it is and worse I don't even think we will ever get the money back.Those people are useless even their TI Boss: It looks like we are dealing with a professional thief here. Mom: It seem so. Boss: Then that person has declared war between us.I will search until I find that person. Dad was fuming with anger and I knew better to keep my mouth shout even though I wanted to say my mind.Its my birthday and I need to go on a road trip with my friends from varsity. RUDZANI Me: So what will happen to the house when we leave? Les: We will rent it out.But it will have to be to neat and responsible people.I don't want to come here to a burnt house with a yard that has weeds. Me: That is true hey. Les: Babe are you okay though? Me: I just miss Ipfi.I just wish that she chose a rather different choice.Running away won't solve anything.. Les: It was what seem better for her.This place will only remind her of what she went through. Me: She is only 15 Les 15.What will she do? Where will she go? Where will she sleep?..Iwas supposed to get my breakthrough with her by my side..I wanted my child to grow up with her by my side. Les smiled Me: And then? Les: We might be talking about twins because I'm a twin.The possibilities are high. Me: Shuuu you should be ashamed.What will I show two children? Les: Exactly what my mom showed me and E Me: I hope to have one.. Les: And I pray to have two handsome boys. Me: Really Les..Really? No way We kept arguing about this until someone knocked at the door. Les: Go get it I stood up and went to get the door.. Me: Hi Man: Is this the Pilusa residence? Me: Babe is Pilusa your surname? Les:Yes Man: I need Mr Lesley Pilusa to sign here for me. Me: Babe they need your signature He came and signed.They gave him an envelope and car keys. Les: What is this? Man: Its all in the envelope sir.The car is just outside. The man walked away. Les opened the envelope and it was papers for the car indicating the car is in Les's name. His phone rang. Les: Duck you very much dude.Did you have to do this? Ethan: That's my gift to you.It broke my heart that you had to use a public transport when you have a family that has everything. Les: Thank you bro.I don't know what to say.Did you really have to get me this beast. It was an Audi RS7 and the colour was estoril blue crysta. Ethan: That's my apology for everything I ever did to you. Les: Look I will call you tomorrow.Thanks neh Ethan: Sure bro. We got in the car. Les: Wana go for a spin? Me: Why not. He drove off Les: We should get you a license hey. Me: Will you teach me how to drive? Les: You will have to go to a driving school.Babe I don't want to be shouting at you and watch you cry like a baby. I laughed. Les: I advertised the house for rental on Facebook.I got contacted by 3 people who are interested so as soon as they come to check it out and I get to know what kind of people they are they we might be on our way to Joburg tomorrow.. Me: When will they be coming? Les: Today..They will have to stay in the backroom until they renovation is done.BesidesI think I will come back when they inform me that they are done they I will come and inspect It before allowing the tenants to move in. Me: Oh they are only coming to see the place then you will choose who you think is suitable? Les: Yes.Once the house is done I will hire a caretaker to live in the backroom so that he or she will make sure that the yard is clean and that the tenants don't cause disorder in my house. Me: Okay that's better Voice: Aa.....Aa weeee We stood up and went outside.It was a woman who looked like she was in her early 30s I left them to talk and kept myself busy with cooking and later on the other two men came one by one.We were now in bed Me: So have you decided? Les: Well I liked the last man who came here.He is a lawyer and does seem like a neat freak.He doesn't drink alcohol nor smoke...I will have to take him. Me: Well if you have so much faith that he is the one then take him Les: Well I already gave him a call and he will move in tomorrow Me: I hope this is the start of something new.The start of our lives with no worries of this world.I hope this will be the start of us creating a home for our child. Les: Trust me babe it is... We started packing our clothes. THE FOLLOWING DAY

Congrat!

Am happy for you both

The_Changing_Tides_26 "So is your young aunty home already? " Musonda asked as Maria lay on his laps. They sat on the couch in the sitting room as Maria had not accepted to do anything more intimate than kissing. Even though everytime Musonda had fought so hard his desires to be with her, he had no option but to respect that. Musonda knew that deep down Maria still loved Paul, he could see how much she avoided the topic of Paul and over the weeks decided to enjoy every moment he got with her. "I hear she's coming this afternoon probably when I get back home I will find her" she told him as she played with his fingers. "So you going to school in a week's time ?" Asked Musonda. "Yeah a week to go" she smiled. "I wanted to go and get my son before I left but then I thought of the fact that he will find people who are complete strangers to him here so I thought it wise to get him when we close," She added. "Well, that's true, maybe you can let him be with his father since he's used to that Nanny there. Then get him when you complete your school. You can be inviting him over for holidays, " Musonda adviced. "See, no wonder I was telling you people i had to think this over, imagine if Paul had allowed me to get him already with the coming of my school the baby could have struggled to settle here" Maria frowned. "I have never asked you this Maria, but this Paul, has he been communicating with you since we came back?" He asked her. Maria sat up, "yes he's been texting and calling apologising but since I don't respond, he has reduced on that" she responded looking at him. "Don't you think telling him we are together now can be one of the things to stop him from doing that? " Musonda asked again. Maria sighed.. "listen Paul, I told you am not even sure with this but you insisted, I can't just tell people about us when even ourselves are not sure of what is there between us." "Well, to start with you just called me Paul" Musonda looked at her seriously.. " and secondary, Paul is not just people he's your ex and so it matters that you tell him the truth and not act like you still waiting for him. I love you Maria and you know that's true. I don't know why you won't give me chance to make you mine already" Maria stood up. " I can't believe we are even discussing this Musonda, am sorry I called you Paul but the fact that Paul is my son's father he will always appear in my life at one point or the other. Let's say we work things out and settle down together, are you telling me Paul's name will just disappear with our son connecting us?" she asked her face serious. Musonda stood to hold her hand. " I didn't mean it that way, am just not happy that despite what that man did to you you seem to choose him over me " he complained. "No man would be happy being shut out by the woman he loves, please understand ." "Well, am sorry Musonda it seems our so called one day at a time thing won't work for us. You know am not ready to give you what you want I can't promise anything for now sorry" she said grabbing her phone and bag to leave. "Come on Maria, please, don't go away am sorry," Musonda pulled her back. "Come here" he said holding her close to himself. "Give me that smile" he said lifting her head. "I can't afford to have you mad at me Maria I can't. " He kissed her gently.. "forgive me beautiful" he whispered. "It's okey," Maria sighed. "Take me home now maybe the visitor is in" she told him trying to move away from him. But Musonda held her back. "Well give me a kiss first" he smiled at her. She shook her head holding him close as she kissed him, withdrawing as the tension between them started growing. Minutes later Musonda dropped Maria outside her grand father's house. She walked to the door humming to a song. Maria stopped frozen when she came face to face with Tasha. "Tasha?" She asked shocked seeing her biggest rival sitting next to her grand mother, the sister to her grand father, ".what are you doing here? " She asked. Her grand father who sat opposite Tasha and her mother, looked at both Maria and Tasha surprised. "Maria, what the hell, what is she doing here?" Tasha asked looking at her uncle. Everyone in the room was surprised at the two ladies. "Do you two know each other?" Maria's grand father asked them. "Um um um. ... " Tasha stammered as she grasped what was happening realising that Maria was the niece her uncle had told her about. "Yes," Maria answered still looking at the shocked Tasha. "She's the one that staged my kidnap and drugged me to paint a picture that I was doing prostitution to the father to my son grand father" Maria explained. even though Tasha's expression Clearly showed her she was screaming for her to stop talking. "This woman can't be my aunty grand father, she hates me with passion and she will do anything to separate me from the man I love so that she can have him to her self, knowing so well he doesn't love her." She added as everyone looked at Tasha. "How dare you say that in front of my mother and uncle. He was mine first and you snatched him away from me. You have always been a slut Maria face it " Tasha said sacarstically. "Well if you are an angel tell me why he dumped you for a poor slut huh?" Maria shouted back raising her voice too. "Stop it you two!" Maria's grand father stood and raised his hands between them. "Sit down now you are not in the streets. " Maria sat down near her grand father and Tasha went back to sit close to her mother her eyes fixed at Maria furious. "I didn't even get to introduce you and you go wild fighting like mad women. What is wrong with both of you? Now listen to me, you two now are family and I don't care what happened in the past, get yourselves together and sort your issues. I will not let you destroy this family over a man. You Tasha is the eldest here so put your mind in one place and let that man go. He and your niece here have a child together and now you are done you hear me?" He asked Tasha. Tasha was quite for a while. "I asked is it clear?" Maria's grand father shouted. "Yes uncle , " Tasha answered in a low tone. "And you Maria, make up your mind already, choose what you want and stop running from your own self. Decide either to get back with that man or stay with Msuonda, you cannot stay in between the two men. Choose already and put an end to this drama" he added seriously as Maria now bow head down. Maria's inner self told her her grand father was right. She knew her being with Musonda whilst her heart was yearning for another man was not a good thing to do but somehow she felt good with the comfort that came with being around Musonda . Not knowing it was somehow her need to fulfil her deepest need for Paul's love that she was looking for in Musonda. The bad part was the fact that, the more she was with him, the more she felt the desire to be with Paul increase. The following morning when everyone was calm. The family sat again and they talked calmly resolving the issue. They decided Tasha would leave Paul and forget about him as it was not possible to marry him when Paul had a child with her niece. Maria was left with a decision to follow her heart and decide for herself whether to go back to Paul after Tasha apologised to her. Maria was not sure whether the apology was genuine but for the sake of peace she accepted it. "I have to do this for myself as well, " Maria thought through the words of her grand father. "If I have to live freely and peacefully I don't need to carry the hatred and hurt from other people in my life." Maria had just finished packing her luggage preparing to go to school two days before she could leave, When she was called that Musonda had come to see her. She walked to go see him and they sat outside at a wide varander chatting. She was busy laughing at what Musonda had said when she saw Paul's car drive in after someone opened the gate for him. "Paul? What are you doing here?" she asked as her laugh faded and her face now displayed total surprise seeing him. Paul walked towards her and knelt down tears in his eyes. "Am so sorry Maria, I can't do this anymore. I miss you a lot I had to come here for you. Forgive me please I was a fool and I acted out of anger saying all that bad staff to you. Please come back to me my love, I can't do it without you .I have tried, God knows I tried and I have failed. Please give my life meaning again," he cried as she watched him in silence feeling his every pain. She turned back to look at Musonda who had stood too watching them. Maria ran back inside the house crying. She couldn't stand the faces of both men before her, the one she loved so much and the one she cared for. She went to her room and stood by the window crying. Musonda followed her inside and stood watching her cry. "Maria," he called her out. She turned to face him tears on her face. "Why won't you talk to him? He's come all the way for you. you can't just run away from him like that. Tell him what you feel" he whispered getting to her and holding her hand. "I can't," Maria cried, "I can't do that Musonda am with you now and I can't tell him what I feel beacuse I cannot lie to his face. I love him so much it hurts to see him like that," she said shaking her head. "He was my first love, everytime i think of anything good about my life it's him that I think of first he stood by me when I was hopeless and rescued me from the hands of death. Am sorry you are a good man Musonda, I care about you so much. You make me feel so good and special but I still love him. Am so sorry I cannot hurt him by lying i don't feel anything for him, you too have been here for me and I hate to make you suffer, I can't" Musonda sighed looking at her. "Come here," he said pulling her close. "I know " he whispered, "I know. You love him and I don't think that will change anytime soon. Don't worry youself My sweet Maria, I won't hold you anymore. Go to him" he said seriously. "Your man is outside go and be happy." He smiled "What ? " Maria asked shocked. "Yeah" Musonda smiled, "I know you love him and even when you are with me it's him you think of. You have called me his name more than once and I can't tell your heart to stop loving him. So now I set you free. Go and be with the one your heart beats for.." he added with a smile. Maria smiled with tears in her eyes, " I don't know what to say to you Musonda I swear you are the most amazing man I know. Thank you so much, " she sighed with relief. sighed "Thank you and may God give you a woman of your dreams" she said hugging him. He grabbed her head and kissed her gently. "Farewell my Maria, go now before I change my mind" he teased pushing her to the door. Maria smiled and ran back to hug him once more and walked to the door. She stood by the door and he shouted.. "go on.. your man is waiting !" Maria ran outside and found Paul almost getting out of the gate. "Paul!" she shouted to him and he turned to look at her. . "Maria?" He asked surprise at the change in her facial expression. She ran towards him and Paul smiled extending his arms as she landed in them crying with tears of joy. " I love you!" She whispered to him and he held her so close squeezing her tightly. "I love you more my love, I missed you so much. So, so much" he said kissing her as Musonda stood by the door watching them at a distance. He waited until the two embraced and kissed before walking towards them. "I hear you made her cry again, even one tear of pain, I will personally come to Lusaka and chop your head off, you feel me?" he looked at Paul. "Thank you man," Paul smiled hugging him close. "Thank you so much for being there for her and for leading her back to me" he added. "Yeah you are welcome, take care you both" Musonda patted Maria on the back and walked out. Paul looked at Tasha who stood next to Maria's grand father and mother who stood watching them. "Thank you" he said with his lips and he held Maria in a hug. She was the one who called him and gave him directions to the place. "You have to come over before you lose her for good" she had told him in the phone. She smiled at him and spoke back.. "you are welcome!. He held her by the waist as they walked to the door. His heart shouting and screaming with joy. It just felt so right having the one he loved in his arms. He couldn't stop looking at her. She lifted her head to see his face and he smiled widely as their eyes met.

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 27 THE FOLLOWING DAY LESLEY We were loaded and ready to go. Me: Are you ready? Rudzi: Yes I am. As we were about to get in the car Nani appeared...She looked a mess. Rudzi: Les can we please leave. Me: Babe can't you see her? Rudzi: Am I supposed to see her? Me: Babe come on now.She was ones your friend. Rudzi: Thank you. At least you know that she 'WAS' my friend but not anymore..Can we leave before I change my mind and become the caretaker instead of you finding someone to do so? Me: Okay fine. I didn't want to push it because Rudzi is pregnant and anything can happen.She might even go far as to accusing me of being involved with Nani. We got in the car and we drive off.The tenants were already moving in so there was no need for us to stay around... All the way I was busy playing would you still love me by Brian Nhira. What if I couldn't speak What if I couldn't meet What if I couldn't move Would you still love me What if my body ached And I always made you late What if I couldn't wait Would you still love me Would you love me when it's hard And our lives falling apart If the things we once knew where long gone If our blue skies turn to grey And my memory fades away Would you still love me Would you still love me This is one of the songs I loved the moment I heard it.It reminds mostly of Mashudu because when I was in a very tough situation,when our skies turned to grey she stopped loving me.She found an opportunity and left me broken hearted and broke.When I was down and out she kicked me further to the ground.There is nothing that hurts the most like when you love someone and you believe so much in them but they turn to disappoint you... what I know is that I don't know what the future holds but that's the promise I would never make,through the good and bad,happy and sad love is a risk that Rudzi and I will take because I know through it all she will be there.She will love me and stand by me..Through this journey I will embark it with her.She is my rib and she will always be by my side... Hours later We were now at Pretoria.Rudzi was sleeping on the adjusted seat that was laid back.I was confused on wether we should stay here or at Joburg.But i know Joburg better so why not.I continued with the journey to Joburg.We were going to stay at Soweto When we got there we rented a town house.I paid a rent for the whole year.I didn't want stress of popping out money every month. Rudzi: This place is beautiful Me: Wait until I show you around.. Rudzi: Right now i need a shower and a foot massage..My feet are killing me. Me: Well then let's shower then I will go furniture shopping.We can't stay in an empty house. Rudzi: That is true.Atleast you have some sense. I laughed. Rudzi: But I'm coming with you though. Me: No problem. But you will sit in the car or better yet I will call Ethan to ask his girlfriend to atleast take you to a restaurant..You must be hungry. Rudzi: That's better but as long as you choose beautiful furniture. Me: Don't worry about that. I took out my phone and called Ethan. Ethan: Miss me already? Me: Ewww why would I even miss you.Anyway I'm around and I need to go buy furniture.I want you to ask Shaz to take Rudzi to a restaurant she is hungry. Ethan: Whoa whoa wait wait wait!!! You are around? Why didn't i know about this? Furniture for What? Why can't Rudzi go with you? Me: Yoh bro one question at a time and please breath in between the questions. We haven't told anyone about the pregnancy and she is starting to shoe so they will figure it out.So I might aswel tell him. Me: I'm back for good.Rudzi can't come with me because she is Pregnant and tired from the trip Ethan: She is what? Yoh that's big. Me: Yeah so can you accompany me and also ask Shaz. Ethan: Yeah I will do that.Where are you? Me: Soweto Ethan: I'm around so I will be there sooner than you think.. RUDZANI All this luxury is new to me.Im used to staying at villages and all..I will have to embrace all this because what tomorrow may bring I will never know..When we were done there were two cars outside.there was a lady and Ethan busy talking or rather I say arguing. Les: Tom and Jerry.Will you two ever stop living like this? Them: NO I giggled Shaz: She is beautiful.wow naturally beautiful.I must give it to you Les.From ladies with makeup to a natural one.Look what she is even wearing.Girl I must make you my friend.There is nothing fake about you.Your dreads are even long. I was wearing a yellow summer dress with black sandles..I tied my dreads to the back..This lady was making me blush. She extended her hand to me. Shaz: I'm Sharon but this fools call me Shaz.Im that fool's fiance. She was pointing at Ethan Me: Rudzani but you can call me Rudzi. Shaz: Come let's go.But first we have to pass by the saloon for your dreads.besides I also need a new weave Me: Okay. We got to her car and she drove off. Shaz: Girl I was mesmerized by how you look and your personality is just visible.No wonder Les is whipped to even think of impregnating you. Me: Uh how did you know? Shaz: You are slightly showing. Me: Oh. Shaz: Les is a good many.You better keep him. Me: I plan to We went to the salon and the hair stylists did their thing. Shaz: Wow girl you look beautiful Me: Not much beautiful as you..You look breath taking.Thats why Ethan fell for you. Shaz: Thank you.Now we can go for food.Soon I will have to take you shopping. Me: I don't have money for shopping. Shaz: I'm sure Les will make a plan.You are living in a town house that's expensive. Me: Maybe he will make a plan.I will let you know..We exchanged numbers then went to McDonalds for food. Shaz: I love their chicken foldovers. Me: I will also have that... Shaz; Okay. She ordered for us and we sat there talking like good old buddies.Shaz is a bubbly person.She is hyper active and she knows just how to crack the wall between two people who don't know each other..She took us a selfie and said she is posting it on her Instagram..The selfie was really beautiful. A familiar face walked in while we were eating.I lost my appetite same time. Shudu: You are really a bad friend.How can you go out without me. I saw bitterness in Shaz's face. Shaz: What are you doing here Shudu: In case you didn't know this is a restaurant whereas everyone is allowed in. My phone rang while they were talking.It was Lesley. Me: love Les: I saw you on Instagram Me: Babe it's Shaz.She just took us selfie Les: You look beautiful.We are done so should we leave without you because e the furniture is being delivered? Me: I will come with Shaz Les: Okay I love you. Me: I love you too. Shudu: Count your days while saying that because Les is mine. Shaz: Watseba ao swabe ngwanyana ke wena.Wa hao ke mang between the brothers because kaofela re a tseba gore bao jele along le cousin ya bona? (You know you are not ashamed you little girl.who is yours between the brothers because we all know that they all slept with you along with their cousin.) I wanted to laugh but I kept it cool. Shudu: Atleast I know how to ride a man.They keep running back to me. Shaz: Rudzi I have lost my appetite.Can we leave? Me: Yeah let's go.The atmosphere here is no longer cool. She settled the bill and we left. Shaz: I can't believe I used to call her my friend Me: Don't let her get to you.I killed her with my silence shem back at Venda

Still observing

Move it.......

shudu is indeed shameless

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 28 RUDZANI Shaz was driving like a maniac..I buckled up because I wasn't ready to lose my life. When we got to the town house I got put of the car first and she followed. Shaz: Rudzani I'm sorry Me: Trust me i understand..We don't react the same to situations.Mashudu is too much and sometimes it's hard to handle her loud ass mouth. She giggled. Shaz: And I thought you don't use such words Me: Living with who? Shaz: Les is a bad example.He can't use such words with you around. Me: Unfortunately he does. Ethan parked his car and he got out with Les. Les: What the fuck Shaz? Where you trying to kill my woman? We got puzzled. Shaz: What are you on about? Les: What kind of a driving was that? Me: Oh that.Blame it on Mashudu for ruining our appetite and moods. They both kept quiet.My inner self was smiling because I knew where Mashudu is involved they don't feel comfortable.. Me: Well can you atleast unlock so we can go in? Shaz: I won't be staying.I have to go to the spa to check how things are going. Ethan: I also gotta go. Me: Well okay.. Shaz came and hugged me before they left but in different cars. The furniture cars arrived and he got almost everything that was needed and he just had to go for black and white.Trust men to do such. We started organising the place but I was tired so I went and laid on the bed. ETHAN When Shaz passed us with that speed I knew something was definitely wrong.And when I learnt that Shudu was involved I knew I was in deep shit.See we have been talking,trying to fix out relationship but if Shudu is gonna mess this up then Shaz will punish me..I followed her to her Spa and I parked behind her. Shaz: And why are you following me? Me: I wanted to make sure that you are okay. Shaz: As you can see. Me: You don't have to pretend with me. Shaz: Who said I'm pretending? Me: Can we spend some quality time together tonight? Shaz: movies? Me: Yes movies. Shaz: Why not. Me: My place? Shaz: Cinema Me: Fine with me. Shaz: Pick me up at 7:30 I went and kissed her cheek then left.Im just glad we are taking baby steps.In that way I will gain her trust again.im done hurting her. MASHUDU I followed them until they got to the town houses in which lives Lesley and Rudzani.I sneaked out of the house hence I'm with no body guards. I waited until Ethan and Shaz left then I went in.I knocked and Les opened with no shirt on. Les: What do you want here? I started crying.I took the scarf off and showed him my scars. Shudu: Please rescue me..This new relationship is hard and it's not working out.I miss us.I miss what we had. Les: You left me when we loved each other very much.I was sure that you would be the girl I marry in the future..You called me poor because I was not working.You left me and went to Stan saying you will eat money.Now you want to come back because he is ill-treating you? Remember those days when you would leave for a week without even checking up on me? I knew you were sleeping around but I decided to hold on.So even you should hold on to Stan because you said you would stand for it. Me: Please Les rescue me.Help me.I admit that money can mislead.Money can't buy happiness.Now I don't even have happiness.I miss you and the times we lived together.Your love is irreplaceable.Im done with all this.The decision I took has taken away my happiness.It got me in deep sorrows. Les: No Mashudu I can't take you back.Its too late to apologise.I have found someone who welcomed me in her life while o was not working.We really love each other. I broke down and cried my eyes out.I remember when Lesley found me i the street when I had nothing.When I had no one to run to.He welcomed me with open arms.He never used me nor abused.It was the first time i met a man who never had sinister motives.Someone who's heart was pure.How come I didn't see all this?Now he has met someone who is just like him.Someone with a pure heart. Rudzi: Babe who is at the door. Les: No one..please leave here before you cause trouble in my relationship.. I stood up and left. I was heartbroken by what Lesley said. I got into my car, started the ignition and then drove away. As I was driving I received a call from Stan and I knew I was in deep shit. I answered the call while trembling Me: h...he...hello Stan: pull over Tititi the call was ended and I knew I was dead. I stopped the car immediately and waited while saying a short prayer in my heart. Someone knocked on my window and I unlocked the doors. I was taken out of my car then was led to another car and I entered. LESLEY I am surprised I didn't fall for her all over again. This is proof that I am over her. This is an achievement! I am proud of myself. Surely my sunshine is also happy. Today needs to be celebrated. I relaxed with my lady and watched movies. I love her. With my entire heart. She trusted me with her life and I am grateful. I ask that God gives me the strength to protect her and love her. My Rudzani. My sunshine. My flower. My better half. The love of my life. Rudzi: What did she want? Me: Huh? Rudzi: I know it was Mashudu.what did she want? Me: It seem like Stan is abusing her so she was asking me to rescue her. Rudzi:Are you spider man or super man ? Me: What? Rudzi: She asked you to rescue her so you must be having some super powers I don't know about.

Don't let Shudu spoil your relationship

lolz, ask him if he is captain America or super man, or the rescue teams carry on

Thank God you didn't fall for her trick

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS * 29 ETHAN Shaz ended up sleeping over at my place.What we did last night will remain there. My phone rang and it was my father. Me: Mr Pilusa Dad: Hey son can you please come over? We need to talk. Me: I hope it's about Les because if not then I'm ready to hand in my resignation and cut you off my life aswel. Dad: Will you stop with your threats and come? Me: I'm on my way.. I got up and went to the bathroom to take a shower.Why would the old man want to see me this early morning?It better be important.. When I was done I got out of the room only to find a letter on the bed with a few R100 notes. 'Thanks for last night,treat yourself for breakfast..I love you' I chuckled.Trust Shaz to act like a guy who just got a one night stand.. I called her. Shaz: I take it as if you got my note. Me: I love you too... I hanged up ..When I was done dressing up I got in my car and drove to the parents to hear what is so important that my father has to call me this early morning... I found him and my mom eating breakfast with no worries in the world. Dad: Sit down. Me: Be fast I need to get to work. Dad: It's weekend so relax because it's not a must. Me: You have ran out of time.So have you decided? Dad: Son this company is a legacy for you and Lesley.How do you think it makes me feel when he wants to work for someone else when he can work for his father? He wants to make money for someone's father when he has his own.I worked this hard so that you and him can go to school.All this qualifications you own today is because of my sweat. He had tears in his eyes and mom was already sobbing Dad: Yes it is my responsibility as your parent to take you to school but a little appreciation is expected.What will happen to the company if I fall sick or die? You don't know anything about business but Lesley does..Why won't you understand things from my point of view? I kept quiet because I had no words to say. LESLEY I'm rich but how did I obtain my riches?It's not through education that most people work and get money.My riches came from a man who made life miserable for alot of people.When I went to school I wanted to be my own man.I wanted to work my way to the top.Working for the family company would mean getting special treatment which is something I don't want at all. My father does not understand..In this lifetime he doesn't have to force me into doing what he wants me to do..Atleast if he was ill or pensioner I would take over but now being under his wing is something I can't handle.Im someone who is a fast learner.I never went to school for me to be a computer geek but look what I can do..It wouldn't take me 3months to know the company..There is no way I will work there while he is still there that is my condition.. As I was in my thoughts Ethan called Me: Talk to me. Ethan: Come over to the parents house. Me: To do what? Ethan: It's about time we sit down and talk like adults don't you think? Me: Ethan I'm someone who is loaded with money which won't run put anytime soon.What would I be coming there for? Ethan: Stop being hard headed bro. Me: Fine but just know that after what they did to me,letting me eat out of dustbins is a scar that will always paint they as arrogant parents to me.Im on my way. I hanged up. Me: Get ready we are going to my parents Rudzi: What? Me: Ethan called saying something about sitting down and talking as adults so get ready. RUDZANI What Lesley was saying was making me sweat.Im not ready to meet his parents especially after what they did to him.If they are capable of doing that to him then what would stop them from hating me. Me: I don't think I'm needed there Les. I will stay behind.Or I will call Shaz to help me look for a job. Les: Job for What? Don't start with me Rudzani.You don't need to work when we have all this money.I will open an internet cafe for you..As for me i will make sure I get a job..Now get ready so that we go meet your future monsters in law. Me: Did you have to say that? Mxm Les was not making the situation better because I was already stressed out.. I had already bathed so I wore a long black dress with a blazer because it was chilly outside. Les: You should have just worn some leggings and a crop top that will expose your beautiful African body. I laughed. Les: After what they did they don't deserve respect from me. Me: Les you may be fighting with them but that doesn't mean I have to get involved in the fight.One day you may wake up and fix this so where will that leave me? If there is something I learnt from my mom that was respect.She may have shown me tough love but she taught me to respect my elders Les: Hallelujah mmaMoruti. I playfully hit his shoulder. Les: Lets go We got in the car and he drove off. FUNANANI (Rudzi's mom) They say love is blind and I guess that is whatit has turned me into.It has turned me into a blind parent.My relationships never lasted hence I made sure that I do anything in me to keep Derrick.Even when I saw that at some point he was abusing my children I turned a blank eye.My reason for my treatment towards Rudzani is because of her father.. FLASHBACK When I was 17years old in grade 11 I had a sister who was 26 years old and married to a man who was 30 years old.My sister was someone who was so much dedicated to her job which required her to travel alot..Whenever she travelled she would ask me to come to her house to look after the kids because her house help was not a stay in.When the kids were asleep her husband would come to my room and sleep with me.He was my first and he never forced me.He was a sweet talker so I agreed to it all.He never used protection with me but instead he would give me money for morning after pills whenever he would sleep with me.It was one rainy day which my life changed forever.Like always my sister was not around....She left in the evening to take the evening flight to Cape town.I was with her husband as always..When he was done he slept next to me.Most of the time he doesn't sleep in the room it only started recently that he does. Hendrick: I have fallen inlove with you Funi.I didn't mean for it to happen but I really have... I pretended to be asleep..The door swung open and I heard a scream.It was my sister. Her: Had my flight not be cancelled a...al..all th..th..Funi!!! She was crying and shouting. Her: Get out of my house you hoe. Under my roof? With my husband? I quickly got out of bed and she took her husband's belt from the floor and started whipping me.She did it until I couldn't move on the cold tiles.She was even using the steel side of the belt.I felt like my skin was cut open. Hen: Honey stop.you will kill her. Her: Let me go.How could you do this? With my younger sister. They went out and I struggled to get up..I wore my dress carefully but the pain was just unbearable..He could have stopped her but he stood there and watched her do this to me.He was the one who approached me.He was the one who came to my room. I slowly walked out out of the room. Her: You better not tell our parents about this or else I will ruin your life for good. I limped my way out..I didn't have money,I didn't have a phone I was just a teenager whom was taken advantage of.. A good Samaritan man found me sitting on the streets and saw my state.He took me to his house.He was living on the same street as my sister.I was now wet due to the rain.He looked like a doctor so he cleaned my wounds without even asking me questions.He gave me pain pills and I slept after that . The following day I explained everything to him and he gave me money to go home. Him: You are still young.Take care of yourself and go to school. Me: God bless you.Thank you I got a taxi home..Never thought of morning after pills so after 4months that's when I started showing...My sister's husband along with my sister lied and said I seduced him.. PRESENT DAY There is no way I can explain how hurt I was.My parents hated me..I had to move from there to go and stay with my maternal grandparents..I grew up hating Rudzi due to all that.My grandmother was the one who showered her with love. The fact that she was so beautiful and looked like her father ripped my heart apart.He never even ones came to see how his child was so I also never kept contact with them...My tears were no longer teara but blood.My wounds were bleeding tears.. RUDZANI When we got to his place I was surprised...The house was very big.It was a double storey house with another house at the side..It was a very beautiful place i have ever been to....We walked in hand in hand.He didn't even ring the bell he just opened the door.We walked in and everyone was in the sitting room watching thin silence. Les: Thobela Them: Dumela I also greeted and they greeted back. Les: Mom dad this is Rudzani my girlfriend. His mother moved from my eyes to my baby hump. Mrs Pilusa: Really Lesley did you have to go for someone below your standards? Look at the farm Julia you brought home.Where is Mashudu? Les: Ethan talk to your mother. Ethan: Mom please stop. Mrs pilusa: There is nothing he will say to me.Where did you pick her up from? The dustbin? The decisions you take this days aowa no maarn. He held my hand tighter and we walked out. Ethan: Bro wait! Don't take her serious you know how mom is.We are here to talk to dad. Les: You heard how she insulted Rudzi bro.How could she? Ethan: Please Les just ignore her. Me: Please give me the car keys.I will sit in the car. Les: No babe. Tears were falling off my eyes Me: pl..please Les: Let me take you home Me: No.Go and talk to your family and you will find me here. He gave me the keys and I walked to the car.

You have a bad manner Pilusa

CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS* 30 RUDZANI To say that I was heartbroken was an understatement. I was devastated. I was humiliated. Why was I rejected everywhere that I went? It's like I reek poverty. I hate this honestly. I sat in the car sobbing. I must have fallen asleep because I was woken up by a knock on the window. When I looked up I saw Les's mother standing there with a frown on her face. I woke up and opened the door then stepped out. L's mom: You are even sleeping comfortably in my son's car. Do you even know how much it costs? Sies wa swabisa maan. I looked down since i had no response for her Her: is that even Lesley's child or are you the trapping type?! Me: with all due respect ma this is Lesley's child. Her: Liar! She said that screaming and pushing me back. Her: Listen to me and listen carefully. I will open that gate and you will run for your life and never look back. If you don't do that, I will kill you then feed your body to my dogs. Well your head i will courier it to your family!! I sobbed silently while looking down. Her: You are ugly and you lack class. I hate you! My daughter in law is Mashudu and no one else. You are stupid and I'm sure you didn't go to school. You are so stupid thinking that you can warm your poor self into this family! Wow! Do you even know how to cook sophisticated dishes? Chicken a la king? Useless child! Her: Go!!!! By now I was i had hiccups. I was devastated. She opened the gate and I turned to walk to it but it closed as I was still walking towards it. I turned around to look what was happening only to find the rest of the family outside. Les looked so angry as well as Ethan. I couldn't read Mr Pilusa's facial expression. I stood there frozen, scared and perplexed. Les looked at his mom and she looked down in shame. LESLEY We were sitting in the house and talking. I told my dad what my plans were and he understood. He understood where I was coming from. He offered me all my things back and I told him I will get back to him about that. We were looking for my mother so we could tell her but she was nowhere to be found. We decided to leave without seeing her and we used the back door because we were sitting outside anyway. We walked in on her saying all sorts of things to Rudzi. I was disappointed but again remembered that this woman has always been bitter. I was livid. I was disgusted. I tolerated it when mom was looking down on her in the house but now....nc nc nc. This woman thinks I will bow down to her. I don't need them anymore. We had come to an agreement but now. Now no. I will go back on my word. Me: Mother! Ethan: Woman! Dad: Mme Pilusa! We all said in union. She jumped because she didn't think we would find her. She was embarrassed. But I know my mother. She could be acting. Me: Mother how could you? How could you? All because of Mashudu you now have to do this? Mom: Les my dear this girl is not suited for you Me: There is nothing to explain here because I heard everything! Let me tell you something you don't know about this Mashudu that you praise so much. When you decided to stop giving me an allowance and kicked me out, I couldn't afford her lifestyle anymore. She left me. She went and slept with Stanley. From Stanley she moved to Ethan and then came back begging me to take her back. After begging she went BACK to stanley again. Is that the kind of daughter in law you want? Is that what you define as "CLASS"?! Mother: I know you are lying! Me: whatever mom! And my girlfriend here found me with NOTHING! She stuck with me even when I had that NOTHING! Now that I have money she has never even asked for a cent! She has never nagged me about endless trips and allowance. Even in her state she wants to work and earn her own money. You should be ashamed of yourself. Ethan: I am so disappointed in you mother. Guess what? You have just lost both your son's...FOR GOOD! Old man we are sorry but you will see yourself out with the family businesses. Les lets get out of here. I walked to get Rudzani and opened the door for her then closed it once she was settled. I walked to the drivers side and entered. Ethan drove out then I followed. ETHAN I have no words at all to describe the stunt my mother pulled earlier on. Of all the things she has done before this one really takes the cup. Her behaviour came as a shock to all of us. It was very much unexpected. I need to talk to Les about taking care of Rudzani and getting a few body guards to look after them. I know my mother a little too well. I decided to go to the mall and get some food as I was starving. As i drive out I see a very familiar car parked not too far from my house. I really need to dig deep about this. Lately I feel like I am being followed. I just can't shake off that feeling. Every time I look in my rearview mirror I see a black GTI following closely. I decided to call one of my guys to tail that car whilst I drive to the warehouse. A place I had grown fond off. I arrived at the warehouse and went in. There were guys waiting for the GIT outside. They all came in along with the two fools that have been following me. Me:well well well look who we have here.

Ethan be careful

*CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS* 31. LESLEY We got to our place with Rudzi very quiet..I can hear her distant sobs.I didn't know what to say to her to make her feel better.What mom did was really not nice at all.She didn't wait for me to open the door for her she just got out and ran inside. When I entered the house she was wailing. The sight really broke my heart. To see my girlfriend crying like this all because of my mother? It's worse because she had begged me not to take her with. She was afraid of rejection and that's what she got at the Pilusa household. I was not going to leave this laying low. My mother will leave to regret this. I kneeled down next to Rudzi and pulled her up. I picked her up bridal style and took her to our room. I laid her on the bed then went to turn on the shower. Nothing was said to anybody. I went back and Undressed her then picked her up again. We both went in after I undressed as well and just stood there. I took the shower gel and sponge and bathed her. She was silently crying. I thought that it hurt when she was crying loudly. That was nothing compared to what I was feeling now seeing her cry silently. After showering I went out then dried and put on my morning robe. I then went back for the love of my love. I dried her and wrapped a towel around her body. Walked with her back into our room and laid her on the bed. I lotioned her body, dressed her in pyjamas and covered her with a fleece. I kissed her forehead before saying..."I will be back my love". I walked down, grabbed my keys and drove off. RUDZANI Rejection. Rejection. Rejection. Rejection. I have no words anymore. Les? I thank God for that man. I heard him driving off and I woke up after some time. I went to the kitchen and cooked lamb stew with salads and I also cooked rice. After cooking I baked a chocolate cake and cupcakes. I just wanted to take my mind off things. I waited for Les after I was done cooking. He came back late around 8:30. I was worried about him but happy that he came back home. I had set out the table and put everything there. He was surprised to see me standing there. As soon as he stepped into the house I ran into his arms. He just hugged me and that was all that I needed. Me: I love you and its okay. I forgive her. I honestly do. Les: We will talk about this later. I love you too. Me: I have cooked. I didn't know what you would want to eat so I cooked a variety. Les: Thank you baby. You are the best. Me: I also made dessert so leave some space. Les: I will do that mamakhe. All this while we were standing near the door and I was looking into his eyes. We walked to the table to wine and dine. But I drank juice of course. I love Les with my entire being. ETHAN I could not believe what I was seeing. I decided to interrogate the guys so they could tell me what was happening. We tortured them until they told us where they were from and who had sent them. Me: So tell me...are you saying to me that my cousin sent you? Guy1: Yes yes. He said he wants every little detail about you. What you do and who you visit being the main focus. Guy 2: Shut up you fool. Guy1: I still love my life. I don't want to die. I have a family to fend for. Guy2: Jy is simple. Jy is mal. Jy is dood. Ek weet jy weet. Guy1: Jy nie ondersteer nie. Me: Ek verstaan Afrikaans en Ek kan praat. Jy (pointing at guy2)is dood. I pulled out a gun from my waist and shot at his leg. As he was still screaming in pain I shot at his arm. He was like a baby. Me: I told you that you dead. You are a fool. You are stupid. Guy2: I am sorry. I will tell you everything. Just don't shoot anymore. Please... I walked out smilling because I knew things were about to be interesting. Yes it was going to be great. I just can't believe Stanley. This means nothing but war. Family means air to me but what Stan just did is air of fuckery.He just made the biggest mistake of his life. STANLEY I was trying to get hold of Keith and Sam. I have been calling them to no avail and I believe they are in trouble. I can't even track them down because wherever they are there is no signal. I am doomed. If they were caught then I am doomed. That stupid boy is very smart and will come at me. TENDANI Father was seriously leaving no stone unturned..He was going up and down trying to figure out who did this to him.He even went far to hire a computer geek to do so.They were so close to finding who did it and i was feeling sorry for the person who did this. Boss: What the fuck? How didn't I see this? I heard him cursing in his study. I ran there because I was at the passage..I didn't even knock. Me: What's happening? Boss: That shit of a small boy did this.How did he pull this off without me noticing it? I'm going to kill him.Im going to cut off his balls and feed it to the dogs.He has messed with a wrong man..FUCK!!!

Boss! That's an empty threat

CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS * 32 STANLEY I was trying to get hold of Keith and Sam. I have been calling them to no avail and I believe they are in trouble. I can't even track them down because wherever they are there is no signal. I am doomed. If they were caught then I am doomed. That stupid boy is very smart and will come at me with all that he has. He will make sure my life is a living he'll and without those two boys we are doomed. We need them. The team is still weak. We need a lot more training. It's been a while and I feel like everyone is losing their touch so if this is happening now then it's over before it has even begun. I called the IT guy so he could track my boys. He came after 30 min Me: Brains ntwana yam Brains: Hey my man zishan Me: I can't get hold of Keith and Sam so I need you to track them down. Brains: Alright you got all that ii need? Me: Yes turn around and check on the desk. Brains: Okay cool Brains got busy with the work at hand while I got busy with planning heists. After two hours brains still couldn't get hold of them. I was defeated. I honestly didnt know what to do anymore. ETHAN I went out and instructed the guys to take care of the guy I shot. Remove the bullets and clean up the wound. I still want him to suffer. I went out to go check on my wifey. Well fiance. I just missed her. This time around I was very serious. I wanted no mistake. I really love my baby. Mashudu was a mistake. I learnt my lesson. I will never repeat the same mistake twice. I almost lost my diamond while chasing cheap glitter. I only spent an hour with Shaz then went to buy a few things at the mall. From the mall I went back to the warehouse. I got there and found the guys relaxing. Me: Majimbos. Did you sort out that laitie? Them: Sho boss Well what you must know is that I am not a gangster. I've just got people backing me all the time. I know ii can trust these guys. They are my go to guys. Me: Thanks guys. I walked to where we were keeping the guys and gave them food and drinks. I do have a heart so I won't treat them like dogs. They were simply doing their job. I walked to the of ice there then sent a message to Stanley. I want him to know that I know his plans for me. LESLEY I have been making calls trying to arrange a surprise for Rudzi. But first I want her to go for driving lessons. There is so much that I want to do for her. I want her to put together a business proposal for her business. One of her choice. I don't want to pick for her. I also want her to go back to school. I want to support her dream of being independent. I love this woman and Lord knows I would die for her. I also want body guards for her. My mother's threats took me back to the past so I won't take them lightly. I have got so much to do but little time to complete it all. With the way that she has been with me through it all i would not even trade her for the world.She is one in a million. She walked in while i was in my thoughts.She looked really pale and drained. Me: Babe please dont let what my mother said get to you.Stressing will harm my baby. Rudzi: Im not stressing. Me: You are. Babe all that matters in this world is that i love you and you love me..I know that your family will not accept me expecially after what happened but that won't stress me because i know that i have you by my side..Stop minding my mother, besides we came here to start afresh not to get back to zero by letting oyr parents get to us... MASHUDU I am a walking corpse. There is no hope for me. I give up on life. There is no point in being alive. Honestly. Non of this is worth it. I am no longer allowed to leave the house unless I am with Stanley and he is forever busy. I am always locked in the house. This man has really outdone himself. He showed me his true colours. I have given up. This is the love I have received. Love I am receiving. Love that has landed me on my death bed. It is over for me. My phone rang while i was in my thoughts. Me: Hello Voice: shudu Me : ba, baba (da, dad) Voice: ni kho tea u vhuya hayani (you have to come back home) Me: mini.. vha kho toda mini kha nne? (What? What do you want from me?) Voice: nikho tea uvhuya hayani nwana nyana. (You have to come back home little girl) Me: Hai ndingasi tsha dovha nda vhuya hafho (No i will never cime back there) Voice : Thikho to ni humbela. Ndiya zwidivha uri zwe nda ni ita zwovha zwo khakhea ende ndikho tea u tshila vhutshilo hanga ndi tshi khou khakhulula dziphoso dzanga..ndo shanduka. Ndi vhoya na kerekeni (im not asking you. I know what i did to you was wrong and i have to live my life rectifying that mistake. I have changed. I'm even going to church.) I kept quiet Voice:I know what you are going through. I know what that boy is putting you through. I have been looking for you. When i found you and realised all this i made a vow that i will come save you. I know what that boy is capable of hence i have to get you out of there soon I cant believe this is happening.I thought he has forgotten about my existence.Why is he on my back now? How did he even find me? Me: Leave me alone.What this so called boy is putting me through is better than what you put me through. he is a stranger to me.We are not related and to him its okay.but you, what you did to me.what you put me through is worse. I hanged up I cant believe this man.After all that he has done to me.After all the things he put me through.Its because of him that im here today Its because of his greed and cruelty that my life is like this.. 5 MONTHS LATER RUDZANI No amount of sleep can cure the tiredness i feel..Im huge honestly looking like an elephant.. At this moment i just feel like giving birth.I cant take it anymore. I was in the bedroom i sleep in.I no longer sleep with Lesley.We also got a house which i honestly think its big for our little family..It was a 5bedroom house and each room has an ensuit with a huge kitchen,dining room, lounge,studyroom and outside there is a tree house.. He also bought me a car and now i have my own resturant. The reason why i no longer sleep with Les is because of his frequent cheeting.He comes home late smelling with women perfume and sometimes with lipstic on his shirts. Sharon: Why are you stressing about that fool babe? We have the black card, we have access to anything concerning money that belongs to him.Grab his attention buy just buying something unnecessary with his money. Me: all i want is for him to stop.Why is he doing this to me? I suddenly felt a sharp pain on my abedomenal area. I shut my eyes with so much force to suppress the pain inside. Shaz: Are you okay? Me: I just feel some pains..I need to pee. When i got up my water broke. Me: Oops seems like i helped myself. Shaz: Its not pee.Its your water and it just broke. I panicked. Me: What? Shaz: Yes the baby is ready to meet it's foolish father. Let me get the baby bag so that we can go to the hospital. Me: Okay. Sharon has been an amazing friend.A sister i never had. She cared alot and thats what made us be rhis close.Her and Ethan are engaged and lucky her because they like her at the inlaws. Shaz: Done.. Lets go..uhhh should i call Lesley? Me: No.I have been okay without his help all this months so i can do this with you. Shaz: Okay lets go.

huh??? Lesley cheating?? how? what happened? na wah oo

Next

this is serious, Lesley of all pple. maybe he was hypnotized

*CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS* 33 RUDZANI I have watched movies where pregnant women scream and do all unspeakable when about to give birth.With me all i could do was close my eyes and supress the pain inside. Pain has been a part of my life.. We have been in the ward for two hours. The pain came twice hard and I could help but let out a scream..The nurse came and checked me and she said I was ready to give birth.. I don't want to lie I was scared.I was not scared for about to give birth but I was scared if I will be a good mother to my child.I don't know the gender because I wanted it to be a suprise.. Shaz: Ready? Me: Yes I am. LESLEY Rudzi and I have drifted apart the past few months because she was forever Moody. She kept on accusing me of having an affair until one day I decided to actually have an affair. Yes I understood that it was the hormones but it was worse because she hated me everyday. It was very hard being with her. I couldn't take it anymore. I needed a peace of mind. I needed an escape... Ethan: Boy you really have to sort out your problems with your Lady. She is pregnant and she needs you by her side. It's worse now because she is heavily pregnant. I just don't understand how this happened. You couldn't stay away from each other. You were madly in love. Me: life happened. She was becoming hard to live with. Ethan: Even so bro. You are about to be a father soon.a role model to your child. Be a father you would want your child would look up to whenever situations comes up. Ethan was making sense but it's not that easy Me: What should I do? Ethan: Take her out for dinner.Make her feel special.Appreciate her and b there for her. BOSS I have gathered enough information I need on this Lesley guy.Who his family is.What he does now.Who his enemy is and even the fact that Rudzani is pregnant. My enemy's enemy is my friend so I have become very close with his cousin Stan.He seems to have an agenda with him and his brother so working together will make us avenge very simple.. Our first step is to kidnap his new born and if possible kill it.He has taken a huge amount that he can't even give back. Stan: Is the plan coming along fine? Me: Yes it is. Stan: My source tells me that Rudzani is at the hospital. Me: Awesome. I rubbed my hands together.This is great.. RUDZANI After a long time I gave birth to two babies.A girl and a boy.No wonder I was so heavily pregnant.I don't even know how this wasn't picked up.I should have known the possibility because Lesley is a twin. Shaz: They are so beautiful.I hope they look like you because you are a natural beauty I smiled Me: If you say they are beautiful now then I'm certain that their beauty is natural..Their parents win the trophy. She giggled. Me: I'm still tired. Shaz: Uhm I called the father an the uncle. I honestly didn't have the energy to argue so I let it pass. Me: Okay. Shaz: Okay? Me: They have a role in their lives so why not. She let out a huge sigh.. Me: Relieved? Shaz: You just don't know how much. Les and Ethan walked in. Les came to my side and kissed me on my cheek. Les: How is my favourite woman in the world. Me: I'm okay. Led: Where is my boy? I don't see a hump? Me: I think the... The doctor and nurse walked in with my babies. Ethan: They are two? Shaz: Akere you are also two. Les had a huge smile on his face . Shaz: Both genders Led: Wow!!! I'm the most happiest father on earth. Ethan: Wow I'm an uncle.At least boredom is gone. Doctor: Your babies are per ferfectly fine.You aswel so I will be discharging you tomorrow morning. Those where news to my ears.I don't like hospital food even though it's a private one. Les: I'm not leaving. Can't leave my family here. What I know is that Ethan and Lesley are stubborn so the doctor will not win even if he argue. Shaz: I doubt they will stop reasoning. Me: I doubt too Les: Doctor if im not allowed then I'm taking my family home.See my twin is a gangster so I have to protect my family.His enemies might come for their lives. Doc: We have security guar.... Ethan: Hebanna this guy.Are you for real right now? That skinny guy I saw you call a guard.Ai you might be a doctor but I swear that doesn't stop you from being stupid Shaz: Ethan no.Stop insulting the Ethan: Babe talk to my hand cause my face is busy. He was looking at my cute baby girl that he had in his arms.

Stan ur plan will not work

hmmm? Stanley but u have ur girl with u, what are u doing busy 4?

Congrats Rudzi

CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS* 34 RUDZANI Lesley is a dander head so he managed to stay behind and the following day we were discharged.. I was surprised to get home and find Ethan and Shaz there. Shaz: Will be staying with you so far since you don't have anyone to help. Les: I have to talk to mom. Me: Please don't.Shaz and I will manage. Les: Babe we are talking about two kids. Me: I know.Don't worry yourself.Now I need to rest since you are all here..Wake me up when they give you troubles so that I can feed them. Ethan: Okay. When I got to the room i used to sleep in it was turned into a nursery. I was glad because there was also a bed.. I got on the bed and slept right away. BOSS Me: How the fuck did this happen?I thought you had this under control.. He was gun man so he wouldn't have defeated you. Stan: Stop shouting at them. You surely don't know the Pilusa brothers. They have caution. Don't worry because opportunities are many. They will lose sight. Me: That boy has to pay back every cent he stole from me. He even has to pay with his life. Stan: The feeling is mutual so calm down so that we can come up with a very good plan. Tendi: Dad I'm going out. Me: I honestly think that coming this side with you was a mistake. Your mother is forever complaining about you. Tendi: You should have left her at home not me. LESLEY When the twins slept we put them to sleep in the nursery. Me: I have to go and see dad just so I tell him the news. He was ready to make peace but mom ruined it. Ethan: Must I come with you? Me: No you have to stay here in case of emergencies. Ethan: Okay. I took my car keys and drive out. There was a certain black gti following me.I looked at its number plate and sent it to Ethan via SMS then I called him. Ethan: Ta Me: Bro I sent you number plate of a certain car following me..Please take a look at it.And make sure my family is safe. Ethan: This is a gated area so don't worry.Becareful because we don't know who it could be. Me: I hope its not that man who calls himself boss. Ethan: I hope so too because if it is then this is a wrong time. When I got to my parents they were in the kitchen. Mom was cooking and dad was sitting on the high chair drinking bottled water. He looks like he lost weight and he looks stressed. Me: Family Dad: Hi son. Me: Dad can we talk. Mom: What do you want to talk with my husband. You are the one who disowned us. You didn't even come and see him at the hospital when he had shock and those panic attacks. I was suprised to learn that he was sick. I was never informed. Why didn't Ethan tell me. Me: I would have known if I was told. Dad can we please talk. Dad: Come with me to my study.. I followed him to his study. Dad: Anything to drink? Me: Anything strong. He poured us hennecy Me: Dad why didn't you call when you got better? Dad: I thought you wanted nothing to do with me Me: But father at that time it was because of mom.What really happened? Dad: After the both of you left and didn't even check up even once in a while my heart started failing me..I just couldn't handle the though of you and Ethan gone. Me: Why do you let mom take control though Dad: Your mom is a very too much full of drama so I rather let her be.What angers me is that she doesnt even know anything about this industry but she is driving away the people who are supposed to take over when I can no longer handle the pressure. Me: Honestly father I have gotten myself in situatuins I don't even know a way out of them due to all this.I always thought that people become rich due to legit things but my wealth came about the wrong way even with qualifications in my possession. Dad: I was wrong.I was full of anger not knowing what I was putting you through.My aim was to draw you closer but it pushed you further away. Me: Father it is all forgiven..I actually came here to tell you that Rudzani gave birth to a boy and a girl.I would like you to come with me so that you meet them and if possible name them. He looked at me with guilt.He was happy but also sad.I could see tears forming in his eyes. He stood up and hugged me Dad: Thank you son. At least I can die in peace one of this days knowing that I have grandchildren and I have met them.. let's go RUDZANI When I woke up I looked at my kids sleeping...We will have to name them.I already have Venda names for them..Looking at them brought about alot of emotions.Why my mother would hate her own child. Children are gifts from God.The most innocent beings ever. I took my phone and played 'ahuna zwi vhavhaho' by Meskay 'Ahuna zwivhavhaho u fana na u tutshelwa nga vhabebi Zwiyavhavha ende zwiya pfisa vhutungu Ho thoma gugu, na mmawe vha tevhela, ha tevhela khotsi anga Nne ndi dzula ndi kho lila ndi tshi vha humbula, ndido vha humbula musi litshi tavha musi li tshi kovhela Ndi elelwa mushumo yavho mivhuya ahuna zwivhavhaho u fana na u tutshelwa nga vho mubebi Zwiya vhavha ho thoma gugu na mmawe vha tevhela, ha tevhela khotsi anga Mmawe baba vho tsia ndi kho tambula Mathupho alino shango o sema mano i dont see the freedom they talk about mbilu yanga iya vhavha Mbilu yanga iya vhavha athidivhi ndi iteni nne Ndi dzula ndikho lila athi wani thandululo' This song mostly makes me miss my grandma.Why she had to leave me to suffer like this.It reminds me of the father I never knew.Why he left my mom to treat me like this... Life was never easy for me but I hope it will be for my children

Your children is a blessing to you and i hope they will wipe out your tears, just treat them with love and dont be like your mum

Ride on

Rudzi, with Lesley in behind you you're safe

CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS* 35 LESLEY Mom: And where do you think you are going with my husband? Me: Mom I respect you very much and I wouldn't want to find myself disrespecting you with words so please just let us be..Whatever love portion you may have fed my father to obey whatever you say don't even for a second think that it will work for me. With that father and I walked out. Dad: Your mother is full of drama Me: Well she is a woman amongst men that's why. Me: Ndokhakha dad Dad: What's with the TshiVenda? Me: Been in Venda for long hence. Dad:I see.What did you do? Me: Been cheating on mia vhananga He smacked me at the back of my head Me: Ouch Dad: Why did you do that? Me: She was always on her moods. Dad: She was pregnant with twins for that matter Me: Father I know better now. RUDZANI Shaz: Babe what's wrong? Me:I'm tired of all this sufferings Shaz.I don't recall any happiness that ever lasted in my life.Les was supposed to be my redemption.He was supposed to be my happily ever after because I have been living a Cinderella life.But he has turned to be someone who constantly cheats..Doesn't sleep home sometimes.How am I to live with that? I'm thinking of leaving.I'm thinking of going away.If I stay with him I will lose my sanity. Someone cleared their throat and it was Les with his father. Les: Babe can we talk. His father and Shaz took the kids and we were left to talk. Les: Babe please stop crying.I am sorry for what I put you through.I promise from now on I have changed..I know words don't mean anything without actions but I will prove to you that I have changed Me: Ndiya ni funa i ambiwa hothe hothe. I ambiwa namusi yayo ambiwa matshelo fhedzi nne athi divhi uri ya vhukuma ndi ifhio nne ndi shavha u lwala vhanna vhothe vhaya fana (I love you is spoken all over..its said today or tomorrow.I honestly don't know which one is true.I'm afraid to get sick because all men are the same) Les: babe please try to understand that I'm willing to work on my imperfections.I'm willing to do what's right for you and our kids.. Me: No shanduka Lesley. Ndo farelela fhedzi ndo neta (You have changed.I have held on but I'm tired.) Les: Babe its my first time hurting you.Don't I deserve a second chance?/I'm sorry love please forgive me. Me: Can I please go and meet my father in law I saw him smile a bit.Mxm typical African men to cheat expecting forgiveness.. He helped me up and went to the others. His dad was holding the girl.. Mr P: This one is gonna take care of me when I'm old.. She will be like 'Nkgono you are so demanding.I didn't ask you to grow old' akere she will be a snob. I laughed. Me: I wonder what you know about snobs. Mr P: I have grown your husband to be and trust me it wasn't easy but Ethan was worse because o la ena o rata dilo straight. I giggled. Mr P: Thank you so much makoti.For not giving up on him even when he had nothing to his name.Even when my wife said horrible things to you. Me: Its okay father. Honestly this man did nothing to me..Wy should I be angry at him. Me: So father can you name them before we give them names of our choice Mr P: The prince will be Itumeleng and the girl will be Onthabisitse. Les: Wise choice old man. Me: And wena what's your choice.. They will only have pedi and Venda names finish. Les: But babe Me: I'm serious. Les: The boy will be Phuluso Me: The girl will be Rendani Ethan: Wise choice...Now we won't be calling the nana hai it was even depressing me. We all laughed. Shaz: Itu le Ontha..Mmmmm. LESLEY Seeing dad happy was all I ever wanted.All I wanted was my parents to be proud of me.Mom is someone who hardly changes her mind so it's gonna gonna remain this way until she decides otherwise. Dad: Son I have to get going now. Me: Father after all that you have done for us we have decided to come work for the family company but mom doesn't have to know. He looked at us as if we didn't say anything. Dad: What? Ethan: Yes dad.We love you and we wouldn't like to see you suffer for mom's doings. Dad: Thank you my children.

wow I like this reunion.

So far Rudzi is happy no problem

nice reunion, it's remaining their mom

CRYING BLOOD, BLEEDING TEARS* 36 LESLEY Father was very happy that we finally decided to work for the family company MR P: You just don't know how happy I am for what you are doing for me now. Me: You are our father after all.We are family and family looks out for each other.We may have gone through the worst in the past but dad it's in the past now and we have to move on now.. Rudzi: Well spoken. Mr P: You know Makoti my son used to be hard headed and I think you are the one bringing the soft side of him. Ethan: Exactly what I said when I met her. Me: But I was never hard nje. Ethan: Yeah keep lying to yourself...Anyway dad come let me drop you home. Ethan: Worry not I will do that.Besides i have no one to go home to since Sharon seem to have moved in. Shaz: And I remember we said you are welcome here.Besides I don't even know why you are saying so because you sneak in every night. We all laughed. Ethan: I have to check up on my place anyway.I will see y'all tomorrow. Shaz: Yeah right..Im here to help Rudzi out with the sleepless nights so suit yourself.But I know I will see you tonight. Ethan: Whatever.Come dad let's go. They left and I was left with the ladies. My phone rang and it was the girl I was fucking with during tough times with Rudzi. Me: Excuse me ladies I have to answer this...It work. Them: Okay. I walked to the patio. Me: What do you want? Lebo: Why haven't you been answering my calls? Me: Because I'm ignoring you.Get the message already.Stop calling me.You will make my fiance fight with me. Lebo: Does that fiance exist from recently because last time I checked you answered my calls all the time. Me: fuck Lebo stay away from me.I love my fiance and will choose her all over if I were asked to.Stop calling me. I hanged up.When I turned my eyes met with Shaz. Shaz: If I were you I would deal with that before it makes you lose Rudzani for good. Me: I believe it's solved. BOSS If I don't do things myself no one will do it the right way.I have been giving this Stan guy a chance to strike but he is slow.I hired my guys to speed things up.I was standing at a near distance next tothe traffic lights.The twin was with their father so it's a good way to get to him..My boys were driving a truck so instead of them waiting for their green lights they didn't so they headed straight to their car and that cause a serious accident..If they survive this then their God is a living God or rather I say their ancestors are watching over them.. I smiled then got in my car and left. One mission complited.. RUDZANI We were just chilling playing monopoly since the kids were sleeping..Les was not going easy on us honestly. Les: Dad and Ethan haven't told us how they got home. Shaz: Its unlike Ethan to never let me know that he got home safe.Let me try his phone. Les: Already did.Its off. Shaz: Maybe he was honest..I will be sleeping alone tonight. Sharon's phone rang and she looked at us. Shaz: Its mother in law. Les: Answer. She put it on loud speaker Shaz: Ma Mrs P: The...they got..got involved in a oh my God nooo She was breaking and it was clear on her voice Shaz: Ma calm down.I can't understand you. Mrs P: My husband and Ethan got involved in a car accident. She finally managed to say. The phone fell from Shaz's hands. I could see Les was shocked so I picked it up. Me: Hello.Ma where are you. She told me the private hospital that they are at..I took the kids and put them in the family car on their baby sits,they were already wearing warm clothes. I helped Shaz to the car and Les came along.I took the car keys from him.Aint no way I'm gonna let him drive us in his state.Him pushing me months back to get a licence is coming in handy now..I drove there with the help of a gps..When we got there they got out amd left me with the kids.I took their twin pram and I unfolded it and put them inside.Its not healthy to bring babies to such places ..I will just let them know that I will be in the car.. When I got inside Shaz was crying her lungs out.Les was sitting down with his face burried on his hands.. I went to him. Me: Babe how are they? He looked at me and hurt was written on him.His eyes were fire red. Les: They are still with the doctors. Mrs P: You took my husband to go and kill him!! You have killed my husband and son. She was shouting while crying.Sh was causing drama and all attention was on us. Nurse: Mam please calm down..Keep it low we have patients here. She kept quiet.The nurse walked away. Mrs P: And you..None of this would have happened if you stayed back to the village you came from. Les:Babe take the babies to the car..Wait for me there. I just sat there and looked at him. Les: I SAID GO!!! He frightened me..I got up quickly and left with the kids.. LESLEY Honestly I didn't want Rudzani to be a victim of my mom anymore.Rather she say all those hurtful words to me than her.I can't bare to see her stress.Expecially since she didn't give birth not long.. We sat there for hours until the doctor came.. Dr: Pilusa family. Mom half ran to him. Mrs P: Its us. Dr: We were busy with the both of them.Ethan is in a coma.He suffered broken ribs,and some internal bleeding.So he is not yet out of danger. Mrs P: What about my husband? Dr: He is in a very critical condition..He is breathing with the help of machines.He suffered head injury... Mrs P: These kids have killed me.They have killed my husband for me. I honestly wanted to tell mom off but knowing her very well it won't end well so I kept quiet. Me: So Dr can we see them? Dr: For 5minutes..You will have to come back tomorrow to see them. Me: 5 minutes it's better than nothing. We went one after the other and I can say it was pretty bad..It really looked bad. I took Sharon with me and we found Rudzi sleeping in the car..I knocked on the door and she woke up and unlocked ..I took the car keys and took the driver's seat,Rudzi was seating with the kids and Shaz took the front seat.She really looked like a walking zombie

chaiii what's wrong with that boss? he forgot he started all this?

Boss karma will surely catch up with you

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 37 LESLEY When we got home Rudzi was asleep so I took the kids inside and went back for her only to find her with Shaz in the sitting room comforting each other.I just stood at the door with my head rested on the door frame. Shaz: I can't lose him Rudzi.He is all I have and all I ever needed. Rudzi: Babe take heart. He will survive this..He will come back to you. I couldn't take her painful sobbs so I went to my mini office. A message alert came through my phone. 'I hope you are prepared for what is next because this is my first strike.Sleep with one eye open because you might wake up to no child by your side..When I'm done with you Pilusa boys you will know that I'm a man not to mess with.' So this accident was planned..Whoever this is has really outdone themselves to go for my father and twin.I can take anything but not my family.I honestly don't have power.How do I do this without Ethan?.Where do I get the energy to handle this? If not for my father and twin then I have to do this for my children.Im not a gangster but sometimes one has to fight evil with evil. I connected my gadgets and started working..What I was doing was risky but it doesn't matter because I wanted to know the truth.When I finally got the footages of the cameras placed at the robots I played them.How the accident happened really broke my heart because it showed how intended it was.No one can just go when the robot is red and there is a car that's crossing the road.I can just imagine the fear I'm their eyes when that car approached theirs.Its not a good sight to just see your life flesh before your eyes..When i was tired of looking at the car clashes I looked for evidence.I had to look for even smaller things to find out who did this.. My eyes landed on him.Even though he wasn't clear but I could tell it was him.He was standing there waiting for the accident to take place..When it finally did he got in the car and left.I played that over and over..I sat back on the chair and got carried away thinking of what to do next..First thing I have to do is get Shaz and Rudzi along with the kids out of here.Its not safe for them at all. Rudzi: Babe please come to bed. Me: Go and sleep with Shaz I'm sure she is devastated..Im really okay and I'm sorry for how I spoke to you at the hospital. Rudzi: Its okay.I understood why you did it Me: Please sleep in the nursery with Shaz and the kids. Rudzi: Okay Me: Babe I received a threatening sms so I need you to trust me from now on.I have to get you,Sharon and the kids out of here.Its not safe for you.Its about to get bloody. Shaz: I am not going anywhere.I am not afraid of anyone.I grew up in the ghetto so if anyone comes for me then I will be waiting for them.I will not run away.I will not leave my man in a hospital bed needing me now more than ever just because a bunch of coward pussies are hiding behind a gun and car accidents to get to your family.I will stay and fight.. She walked away after saying that.I didn't even notice when she got here but what I know is that with her no one wins so I will let her be but I have to let my little family go into hiding. Rudzi: If going away means protecting my children then I will go.. Me: The people surely know that my mother and I don't get along so you will go and stay there for a while. Rudzi: How will I live with her? That's impossible Me: Babe don't worry she will come around.. RUDZANI Honestly this is not what I signed up for.What I know is that even at his mother's place we will not me 100% safe..Actually not even 50% safe.I have to come up with a plan and very fast. Les: Babe pack fast so that we can leave. Me: I'm almost done. Les: I will take a quick shower so long Me: Okay Jackpot.I called a cab and it got here fast.I took my bags out first then took my babies along.I will send Les a message once I'm on the way.I will see where I will go.I can't stay with someone who doesn't want me at all.His mother showed me how she feels about me and I can't force her to like me.I just didn't know that being poor or coming from the villages is a disease because she treats me like I'm some contagious disease that she will catch if she likes me. Driver: Where am I taking you mam Me: park station. Driver: Okay I called my assistant and told her that I won't be around for some while she should manage everything and she said it's not a problem since I'm still on maternity. 'I wish I could have made you happy by going to your mom's but babe let's face reality,Your mom hates me for years and it will take more than all this to make her like me.I will have to find a place where I will be safe from all this.Besides I still need to heal from all that you put me through.And oh if the people are really after you then your mom's is also not safe aswel.Keep well Les.I will come back when I'm sure I have healed and it's safe for me and my kids to come back. Ps don't try to find us I'm begging you ' I read 3times before sending.Les will have to forgive me. I took a bus straight to Venda.No one will know I'm there since I will be laying low..But I will have to by myself a little car to keep us going.. Its short but I tried..Night

hmmm? OK O, just be safe

Hmmm Boss you will regret this

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 38 RUDZANI When we got to Venda I had a bad feeling..Somehow with how I was treated here it all got overwhelming so I found myself at a crossroad not knowing where to go.Maybe I took the wrong decision..I will book myself at a guesthouse then leave in the morning to where my heart tells me to go. The twins didn't give me a tough time so I slept early and woke up early to prepare for our journey. I was listening to my playlist and his favourite song started playing. 'I can't imagine any greater fear Than waking up without you here And though the sun would still shine on My whole world would all be gone But not for long If I had to run If I had to crawl If I had to swim a hundred rivers Just to climb a thousand walls Always know that I would find a way To get to where you are There's no place that far' I started panicking because what I have just done is unfair.When I was done I took the kids and went to the bus station.Luckily the city to city bus was not full so I was allowed in.I will do exactly what he wants me to do even if it means enduring emotional abuse from his mother.What could be more worse because I have endured worse from my own mother. LESLEY I felt like I was losing my mind.Rudzani doesn't know anyone or any place.The only place she knows is Venda and I can bet on my life that she went there. I can't survive not knowing if my children are okay.She will forgive me but I will have to send people to go and fetch her if she is at Venda.With Boss at our backs like this I can never relax where my kids are involved .I called the person renting to check if she wasn't in the backroom and she said that there is no one there.I was now at the verge of panicking. Shaz: Wjats wrong? You look like you have seen a ghost. Me: She left.She took the kids and left.Her phone is off now and she not even at Venda Shaz: Rudzi did What? How selfish can she be? I need her,father needs her and even E.How can she just pack up and go. Me: It might be my fault.I was worried about their safety and I was about to take her to my mother's so next thing she is gone. Shaz: You what? How can you suggest your mom's when you know that she doesn't like her.Are you trying to break her heart all over again? Your mother is not even trying to like Rudzani so why force the situation? Me: At the state I'm in right now Shaz I have to do anything to protect them.With me it's not safe.You are also not safe here. Shaz: I do not have a problem with going to your mom's but with Rudzi you didn't even have to mention it. Me: But she knows better than to just leave.. She shrugged her shoulders.. I went to my room.. Sleeping was a mission but I ended up sleeping.Not knowing where my mini family is hurts pretty bad..They say men don't cry but I found myself weeping..Its probably my fault that she left.She was abused before so she is afraid my mother will do the same after how she treated her the first time they met.Dammit mother!! I woke up the following day with a massive headache..I didn't even feel like going to see dad and Ethan but I have no choice.. TENDANI Me: Father why have you included innocent people in this? Boss: It became dirty when they left me broke.Our lifestyle had to change because of them..They will all pay.I won't give up until he is miserable.He will die a painful death knowing all his family members died because of him. Me: I think I will go back home.I can't stay here and watch innocent people get hurt.What if they kill me to get to you.Father please stop while you still can Boss: TENDI SHUT UP!! I got frightened so I ran out the house.I really need to think. SHARON I was sitting on the bench looking at him.My heart is really aching. Me: Babe....Hun. There is nothing that hurts like a day and night without you.I miss you.How do I call home when you are not there..Babe home is waiting for you.Wake up because no one can love me like you do.You gave me a reason not to search for love again..Wake up babe..Dont give up on life so easy.We still have to make our soccer team.. It was hard watching him with all those machines surrounding him.. RUDZANI When I got to his mother's the gate was open so it was easy for me to get in without having to explain who I am.I knocked at the door and the maid opened up for me. Mrs P: Who is it? Maid: Miss Rudzani mam. Mrs P: What? She said that walking in. Mrs P: Why are you here? What do you want in my house?

You better behave yourself Mrs Pilusa

madam p respect urself if not for RUDZANI but for ur grandkids please.

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 39 RUDZANI I'm honestly tired of this woman's attitude towards me. Me: Okay now this is too much..Listen here mam.Im not here on my own will.I came here because I don't have a choice.Im doing this for your son.If you don't want to see me then I will stay out of your way..When i see you I will turn back and go my own way..Either you deal with that or lose your son because of whatever you have against me. Mrs P: Susan show her Lesley's room. Susan: Yes mam. Susan is the maid. Susan: Come this way I followed her. Mrs P: Leave the kids and go settle..I will be with them. As I was walking away I stopped and looked at her playing with their little fingers.. Me: The Prince is Itumeleng Phuluso and the princess is Onthabisitse Rendani.. Mrs P: I guess I will be sharing a name with my granddaughter..Rendani Me: Wow Wow I didn't know that.I walked away.. The room was big and boyish...I laughed because I didn't take Les to be the type of guy to put posters on the wall when he was growing up.I packed my clothes first in the walk in closet while playing some music.When I was done I did the kids' clothes aswel. Must have been tired from all the travelling so I lay on the bed and fell asleep. LESLEY Mom was not even calling to tell us that we are late to pick her up..Since the accident she refuses to drive so I have to pick her up everyday..I took my car keys and Shaz was already waiting. I drove home and the gate was not closed..Why don't this people listen though..I was now pissed because they are really risking with lives...I packed at the drive way and locked the car ones Shaz was out.. I was about to start yelling when I found mom sleeping on the mattress she put in the floor with two babies.When I got closer I realised that it was Ontha and Itu.. Me: Oh my word they have been here all along? Shaz: Don't make noise they are sleeping. Me: Mom hasn't been sleeping since the accident.So they managed to put her to sleep. Shaz: Amazing I tell you. Me: Let me check if Rudzi is here. I took the gate remote and closed the gate. I went to the guestrooms and she wasn't there..What if she dropped the kids here and left? What if she was tired and didn't want anything that reminded her of me nor my family?.I went to my room and I was welcomed by Sam Smith soft music playing on the speakers..There she was sleeping.She looked very comfortable..How did she get through to mom? I sat on the bed and played with her afro..She looked beautiful even in her sleep without make up.My African Queen.The one who talks and my heart listens.What is it that I did good to deserve her in my life.What is it that I did to deserve her love? I didn't wanna wake her up so I went out and mom was still sleeping so I asked Susan to close the gate when we go out.I even asked her not to tell them that we were here.. We got to the hospital and I went to see dad first while Shaz went to E.. Me: Dad please get well soon.You are all we have.Our pillar.We just reconciled so you can't leave us now.. Paps please wake up..Ethan needs you to wake up aswel He really didn't look good..Apparently they both fell into coma. I got up and went to see E..I stood at the door looking at Shaz talking to him with her voice breaking. Shaz: Babe I haven't been well lately..I have been feeling incomplete..Days are dull without you..I have news to share with you.Good news but you are not waking up..Wanna know what it is? We are pregnant.We are two months now..I wasn't feeling well and I thought it was stress but when I noticed that I haven't been in my periods for two months I tested and it was positive.You know you are stubborn E.I just told you good news and you don't even cheer up.Look at the frown on your face.Wake up your swine. Okay that was enough.I cleared my throat. She wiped her tears away. Shaz: Oh you are here.Let me go and see father. Me: Okay. She walked out Me: Sure man.Remember me dawg? I'm your twin. I just heard the good news that you are about to become a father in seven months time..Congrats my man.Atleast now you will know how it feels to be a father.We will take them to Disney land when mine turn six and yours turn five.It will be the most memorable day ever.. I sat there just looking at him.I can imagine what he must be going through..The pain and trauma. I stood up and texted Shaz that I will be in the car..She came after a while..Her bags where still in the car so I was taking her to my mom's..When we got there I asked mom to open the gate and she did.Parked at the drive way and took the bags inside. Me: And then wena? I was looking at Rudzani who was breastfeeding Itu.. She just shrugged her shoulders.. Me: Heela mosadi I'm talking to you!! Mrs P: Stop speaking with loud voice you will frighten the kids. Ohhkay what did I miss here.Mom defending my kids. Rudzi: I decided to be a good fiance and did what I was told. Me: And you didn't bother telling me? Rudzi: There was no need Me: Eh...Im leaving Ma.I will see you tomorrow. Mrs P: Let me dish up for you.I cooked. Me: Okay. She went and I took Ontha and played with her fingers until mom came back.I took the food and have her Ontha. I walked out.Rudzi needs some tough love.She can't run away then come back and expect me to be okay with it. RUDZANI He didn't even smile at me..He must really be angry.I thought he would be happy that I'm where he wanted me to be..This is a bummer.. Shaz: Don't worry he will come around. Me: What I did was wrong through..I don't blame him. Shaz: Just apologise and he will be okay. Me: I will let him cool down first Shaz: Trust me that is as cool as he can be. Me: I will call him before I sleep. Mrs P: Did you see the house keys? They were at the table Me: No ma Mrs P: I must have misplaced them. She went about and came back with ones with a different key holder. Mrs P: I can't find them Shaz: They must be around here somewhere. We spent the rest of the day indoors..When it was late I went to bed since the kids where already in bed..I already took a shower so I changed into my pjs then got in bed..My kids were in their cots..Grandma bought new ones for when they are here.. I dozed off..While I was sleeping I felt the presence of someone in the room. I felt a hand on my mouth. Voice: If you dare move I will kill you and those kids Goodnight

hmmm? who could that be?

Post the next episode now now please

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 40 RUDZANI I panicked not knowing what to do or say. My twins are my weakness. The thought of them being killed breaks me but it angered me at the same time. Me: Its gonna be a war then...You will have to kill me first before you kill my babies..Im not afraid of you coward. I call you a coward because you go after women but afraid of men your own size.. The person burst in laughter and that's when I noticed the voice. I turned and started hitting his chest. Me: Fuck you!!! Les: That's for taking off with my kids. Me: You scared me Les: I'm sorry baby but never ever go with my kids. Ever again Me: You don't even know why I went so don't...actually you know what. Bye Lesley. Les: Come on babe. I'm sorry Me: I said get the hell out! Les: Jeez woman are you pregnant again? I said it was a joke okay. I'm sorry. Come on babe. Forgive me Me: Mxm Boss I have been trying to track down Lesley and his family only to fail. I found Lesley but that was useless because the locations I found are too confusing. I can't get access into Ehtans room as well as his father. My plan is not going the way it should. Stanley I'd also very much useless. I am very close to breaking him apart.Dammit why is this happening? I hit the table very hard that some things fell. Stan: Calm down Me: You are so damn useless boy.You are not even doing anything..I have to find his girlfriend and children. Stan: I know where they are and I'm your key to getting them..We strike tonight. Lesley I have been working very hard to derail boss and to be honest I think it's working. I want to strike him whilst his focus is still somewhere else. I want him to feel the pain I am feeling right now. I want him to surrender. I will make him regret ever messing with us. I honestly hate that man. He has made us suffer and I will return the favour. My phone rang. Me: Talk to me Spijo: We have the girl Me: Lets meet at the warehouse Spijo: We are already there Me: I'm on my way I got in my car and drove straight to the warehouse When I got there I found Tendani with my boys. Me: Well well well.What do we have here? Daddy's little angel or should I say daddy's mistress..Im so going to enjoy breaking your family apart after what they put me through.Your video riding your father is just gonna be news to feed the world.

na so well done Lesley

:s :s

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 41 TENDANI I was going out parting when suddenly two cars approached me.One from the front and one from the back.There was no way out.I knew then that I'm in trouble..I left without even telling dad.They took me leaving my car behind..He other one hit my head at the back with a gun and it was lights out for me. I woke up to being tied on a chair splashed with ice cold water on my face. Me: What the fuck!!! Les: I think you rained at my territory Me: What the fuck do you want from me? Les: Like I said you rained here.You should tell me how you got here. Me: I want to go home. Les: To who? Your mother or should I say your dick mate? Or to your dad or should I also say your sex partner? Me: I don't even know what you are talking about. He slapped me with the back of his hand and I bit my self causing me to taste blood in my mouth. Les: None of this will be happening.It would have never happened if you father didn't rape that little girl.It wouldn't have happened if you didn't want your hoe self to want me so bad to cause stress to Rudzani..You know you and your father are twisted in the head.I honestly think you should be admitted in a mental hospital..Anyway enough about that.Tell me here why did you and your father cause that accident? Me: You deserve it you piece of shit.You crossed the wrong man..He will find you.He will make you suffer more than how you are playing with me. He smirked Les: You really think I have started with torturing You? Surely you have no idea..When you went for my father and twin that was just the final..You and him will pay. I laughed so hard so that it pisses him off but he gave me a blank expression.. Me: Go on and torture me while daddy goes for your stupid mini family.He will rape her until she gives up on life..He will even rape you new borns.. Les: Spijo cut off her right ear. My heart started beating fast..I even wet my dress. I closed my eyes when I saw he approaching me with tears falling down.I wasn't going to beg him I totally zoned out.The pain..The pain was unexplainable..I felt like I was dying. I screamed..My scream was never heard.Only the walls were hearing me and screaming along.I was in an isolated place so who would hear me? There was no hope for me here.My perfect life was just flashing before my eyes and there was nothing I could do. Les: Doc make the blood stop.I want her alive..Put that ear in a present box and send it to her father. After he said that it was lights out for me. LESLEY What she said pissed me off but I couldn't let her see that.I may have not known Ipfi for long but she was my little sister.The injustice that was done to her deserved more than me taking that pig's money.His day is coming. Me: I have to go and check on my family. I rushed out and headed home.It was a long drive but I eventually got there.Luckily they where all here safe. Mom: Your cousin said that he will be here.He wants to meet the kids. Me: What? Which cousin Mom? Mom: Stanley Me: Oh him? Okay.But we were not on good terms because of Shudu last time I checked Mom: Don't let a girl get between you. Me: Okay. I don't trust Stan.There is just a hidden agenda about him.I have to check him out plus he belongs to his own gang.. Me: Mom we have to go to the hospital but I'm afraid to leave Rudzani and the kids alone Mom: Let them come with us then My phone rang. Me: Hello Dr: Mr Pilusa Me: Yes Dr: Its Dr Smith at the private hospital Me: Did something happen Dr? Dr: Can you please come to the hospital. Me: Okay. I hanged up. Me: Mom fetch Rudzi and the kids so that we can go.The Dr just called. Mom: Okay. RUDZANI Mrs P: Makoti we have to go to the hospital.Are the kids wearing warm clothes? Me: Yes Mrs P: Okay take Itu I will take Ontha. That's a first.She just called me her daughter in law. We took them and rushed out.Shaz was already in the car at the back seat. Me: Please seat at the front. Shaz: No give him to me and sit at the front. I handed her Itu then got in. In no time we were already at the hospital. We went to the Dr's office. Les: Dr Dr: Without wasting any time.Ethan is awake and your father is out of coma aswel but not yet awake. Led sighed heavily. Les: That's a relief..I was so stressed on my way here. Shaz: Can we go and see them? Dr: Ofcause. We got out and went to their wards.. We went to Mr P first and his eyes were closed. Mrs P: when is my husband going to wake up? Dr: He will wake up eventually.His body is reacting well to treatment.But his blood pressure is very high Mrs P: Will he be okay? Dr: Yes he will Mrs P: Okay. Dr: Go and see your son and allow Mr Pilusa to rest. Les: Okay. We walked out to Ethan's ward.He was sitting up supported by pillows. Mrs P: Oh my son.I was afraid that something will... Ethan: No mom please no tears.Im okay.But I feel sorry for the fucker who put me hear because I'm going to shoot his balls. Mrs P: No Ethan mind your language. Me: I should start keeping my kids away from you. Ethan: do that I will kill you and find Lesley a new wife. We all laughed. He looked at Shad who was frozen with tears running down her cheeks. Ethan: Owww babe come here I didn't notice you with such messy hair and eye bags.I thought you were our house help. We laughed. BOSS We were about to go and take Rudzani and the kids but when I opened the door there was a gift box. Me: What fuckery is this? Who put this here? They all shrugged their shoulders. One of my boys took it and put it in the table. Me: OPEN IT DAMMIT!!! I commanded. They opened it and there was an ear..What shocked me was the ear ring that looked exactly like Tendani's 'I decided to play by your rules.Better find her before it's too late.' Me: SHIT! Fuck dammit how did he get to her? How did she get out of here? I took out my gun and shot at the guy next to me and in no time he was dead. Me: Why are you incompetent? You better find my daughter.

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* Season finale 42 NARRATED After all long time of searching and realised that it was hopeless they tracked down Tendani's car and they found it by the side of the road abondened..There was no trace of her at all. Boss: They boy has outsmarted me again.How the fuck does he manage to do that without even trying so hard. Stan: He is playing by your rules.You played dirty and he decided to also get his hands dirty.You see the problem is that when you went for his innocent father and twin you touched him somewhere in his heart.So he also went for whom you love the most. While they were talking Boss's phone rang. Boss: Hello Les: How did you find my gift Boss: Listen here you piece of kaak Les: Whoa whoa brika boss! Why you getting you blood pressure worked up for nothing? I called with peace. Boss: I want my child you son of a b Les: I won't say that if I were you.Really old man I can hear you so no need to shout.I don't have ear problems.A little bird tells me that sexy attractive Tendani was playing the the wrong territory. Boss: If something happens to my daughter I swear I am going to wipe away your entire family. Les: I would have said challenge on but innocent lives are involved.You have underestimated me I think.I will do anything for my family to be safe even if it means killing.Dont ever mistaken me for the Lesley that worked for you because you will be surprised at how many personalities I possess. Boss: You surely don't know who you are dealing with. Lesley laughed. Les: Trust me I know who exactly I'm dealing with..An idiot who sleeps with his own daughter..I think I'm going to enjoy this.Watching you lose your wife due to this and watching your daughter die.Just admit that you are on my mercy right now. Boss frustratedly hanged up the phone.He hated to admit it but he was losing.Les was 5 steps ahead of him. RUDZANI I seriously feel suffocated in this house but the I can't leave without Les's approval.. My phone rang disturbing me from my thoughts.. Me: Hello The person was not talking but I could hear that person breathing at the other side of the line. Me: Hello!! Still no one said anything. Me: Hey inwi Khera no founela uri nivhe nikho fema kha fone na nne do fema na inwi ..zwino khari feme (Hey you! If you called me to breath over the phone then I will also breath with you..Now let's breath) Ipfi: Karadzi I got a mini shock. Me: Ipfi? Ipfi: I miss you.How are the babies? Me: Ipfi come back.Situation has changed.I have my own business.I have twins.A boy and a girl.Itu and Ontha.Please Ipfi come back. Ipfi: beautiful names.I called to tell you that I'm okay and life is okay where I am.I can't come back anytime now.I will come back when I'm ready.Its about finding who I am. Me: Ipfi you are just a child and need a mentor.A big sister like me to take care of you. Ipfi: There is someone here who is playing that role.I called to check up.I love you Rudzi Me: I love you too.Take care of yourself. Ipfi: bye. Me: Bye She hanged up. Ai somehow felt like I was being separated from her again.It hurts knowing that I wasn't there for her throughout this whole thing.She is with a stranger but sounds happy.maybe she really did need to get away from all of us in order to heal.We are not the same so we heal differently. I smiled knowing that she is safe and okay.Maybe one day she will come back to me..I wonder how mom is back home.I wonder how my little brother is back home.. BOSS I felt like I'm losing my mind. Wife: Where is my daughter? Me: I'm trying hard to find her dammit..Stop ringing in my head every two minutes..How will I find her with you all over me. She was breaking up. Wife: I want my daughter..Give me my daughter. She said that hitting me on my chest..She was even shouting. Wife: Its all your fault.This life that you live has finally caught up with you.Your enemies have taken my daughter. Me: So the so called life I live you had no problem with it until now? When you were busy spending my money you had no problem with it? Sit down and shut up. I walked away from her..I can't deal with her when she is like this.My wife is a softie.She is so innocent and that's what made me fall inlove with her.. My phone rang and it was a private number Me: Talk Les: Check your door and you will see my present for you. Me: You are really becoming a nuisance boy Les: Have a good night. He hanged up. I went to the door and took an envelope and there was a memory stick.I went to the bedroom and switched on my laptop.My jaw dropped when I saw my sex tape with Tendani. I really have to kill this boy one way or the other.

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 43 TENDANI I woke up to the worst pain I have ever felt in my life..Reality started kicking in that I was honestly kidnapped and my ear was cut off.I looked at the cold men who had not facial expressions whatsoever.They looked like robots,they looked like his robots.Whatever he pays them must be good because they seem loyal. Me: Please let me go.My father will double whatever Lesley is paying you. Did they give me attention? No they didn't.I silently cried.This pain was also not doing me any justice.No amount of pain killers they give me will cure the pain I feel.Npt only am I feeling physical pain buy also emotionally..Maybe the fact that I have been a horrible person is catching up with me..What pains me more is the reaction my mother will have when she finally finds out that I have been sleeping with my own father.. BOSS After watching the video I sat there feeling defeated.I completely zoned out.If my wife sees this then I'm doomed..This woman has been with me through it all.I know she enjoys the money and all but at the end of the day she still loves me.Im not perfect nor am I a saint but she loves me with all my flaws.What have I gotten myself into.Have i really underestimated this Pilusa boy? I thought he was just a small boy whom I will take a candy from and he will cry and forget about it.This is too big for even me the Boss.In my life I was never defeated since I entered this gangster life.He makes me want to give it all up. The sound of a glass falling and a loud wail brought me back to reality.It is then that I knew my life is over. The video was still playing and my heart felt like it was ripped out of its place. Wife: You sick twisted man hoe.How dare you do this to me? How dare you do this to out daughter..No wonder she never wanted to come back home.You have been abusing her.You have been forcing her to do all this.Your own blood? Her cry was very painful..I have always done everything in my power to protect her feeling.Made sure she was always happy. There was no use staying here and watch her suffer like this..I needed some strong alcohol.. Wife: You are not going to run away from this.Im opening a case against you.Im divorcing your black ass. She took the flower pot next to her and threw it at me..I ducked but part of my head was hit and it was painful.my left ear was bleeding.. She walked out clicking her tongue. I sat on the chair processing what happened.. LESLEY Me: Hey Mitch Ethan: Hey bitch Me: How are you holding up? Ethan: Want to go home and fuck my woman good.Our boy need some ingredients to grow. Me: You piece of shit.Pussy is all you can think of Ethan: I need me some hey..Its not a bad thing..As long as my woman enjoys it. Me: For someone who came out of come you are talkative and ready to go home. Ethan: Hey when you have come out of that situation trust me you will want to be grateful for all that you have in life..I think Imma go back to church with mom.But firstly I need to go on a killing pree for the fuckers who did this to me and dad.First one is our dearest cousin Stanley Me: Uhh why him? Ethan: My souces tell me that he has been hanging out with our enemy..Boss Me: You must be fucking me Ethan: I don't even wish to do that but yeah he is ganging up with him. Me: And it's funny how he would sell us out because of a bitch who doesn't even want him. Ethan: Make sure I'm put of here by the end of the week.I need to deal with them as soon as possible.. Me: Your health is important. Get well first..so far I'm managing. Ethan: I must give it to you though..you are natural at this Me: Don't dare go there..tell your source to stop monitoring the things I do He laughed

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CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 44 RUDZANI I have grown a habit of jogging to lose the baby fats.Lesley know about this and whenever I go for a jog two guards come with me.This war between him and boss has to ends..Our lives have stopped because of him. I ran for almost an hour and after that I felt freshened When I got in the house Les was in the kitchen eating. Me: Good morning. Les: Hey..You are back Me: Yeah.Are the twins still sleeping? Les: No.They are with mom.We have to go to the hospital.They say dad is awake Me: That is good news. Les: It is but he lost his memory Me: What? Les: Yes.he doesn't remember anyone. Me: That is sad Les: Trust me it is.. His phone rang LESLEY Me: Talk to me Tas: Ta Les Mr E is here Me: What? Tas: Yes. Me: Is he fine? Tas: Yes he is fine.He is being his arrogant self.You have to get here Me: I'm on my way. Tas: Sho He hanged up. Me: Babe i have to be somewhere.E discharged himself at the hospital. Rudzi: What? Why is you brother so stubborn? Me: Trust me when he is after revenge he doesn't even care about his health Rudzi: Hai I give up. She raised her hands as a form of surrender Me: I will see you later babe.I have to knock some sense in his hard head Rudzi: Okay take care. I walked out..Ethan is stubborn and sometimes it pisses me off.He doesn't care how worried mom and Shaz are about him and he goes and does this.For crying out loud dad is still struggling to wake up. When I got to the warehouse he was sitting on a chair and next to him was his walking sticks..I got defeated same time as he shrugged his shoulders. Me: How did you even get here? Ethan: Im a hustler dude. Me: What are you even doing here? Ethan: To check on our little pet.. Tendi: Why can't you just let me go.I want to be with my mom Ethan: I doubt she still takes you as a daughter.A little birdie told me that she saw the video of you and your father. Tendi: What? Ethan: Well trust me.We are gonna destroy you and your father..Right now Les here is in the process of atleast making sure your mother gets the two clubs and two hotels.Two houses and the cars aswel.You and your so called father will be homeless and broke.You have hurt so many hearts that you don't deserve even a little pity.. Tendi: Fuck you bitch!! Ethan: Is that the best you can do? Wait until my boys get a piece of that cookie together with that ass.. My jaw dropped. Me: What? Ethan: Her father must feel how it feels to have your loved one raped..He must stay awake at night to witness you cry when you have nightmares of these men penetrating inside of you by force.All this must hunt you all your life..Im not Lesley.I dont have a heart to feel sorry for you.. I was short of words.Deep down I want revenge for Ipfi but not this way.Ethan is a beast.He can literally kill you when he is angry that's why mom and dad never allowed him to go and school far.He was always around.He has a very short temper.He will kill you while smiling.There was no was I can talk him out of this and I can't drag the ladies into this.. Me: Since you got it all figured out then let me go home.. I was not gonna stay there and watch what was about to happen.. I drove straight home.Rudzi was sleeping with the kids in their nursery.. I woke her up and we went to our room. Rudzi: Did you have to wake me up? Me: Yeah why not.I want to sing for you. She just looked at me before smiling. When we got to our room I sang her Something new by Wiz khalifa 'You smell great, know your body clean (Yeah) Them niggas been on you since you was a teen (Teen) Now you grown up, and I'm a boss, I'm just showing love (Love) Smell like kush when I'm rolling up (Roll) So much bank, I can fold it up (Fold) It's so good, got you calling up (Call) Tryna kick it with a nigga like, uhh (Brr, oom) Baby, come give me something new (Ooh) Baby, come give me something new (Ooh) 'Cause I can't stop loving you (Oh yeah) Since I got a taste of your love (Oh yeah) Baby, come give me something new (Ooh, ' She gave me her million dollar smile Rudzi: That was beautiful Me: I missed you. Rudzi: How is E Me: Lets spend time together and shut the world out.. Rudzi: Okay ETHAN Me: So tell me how do you want this Tendi: leave me alone Me: Iyo..Okay.Boys go ahead and do what I pay you to do..I will be sitting here observing.. was holding a camera in my hand. Me: Hey girl you must tell me when they are done how it was.How it felt so that your father can know how that little girl felt. They went to her and untied her.I had no emotion or whatsoever.In my mind I was seeing his face full of hurt... Poor girl was screaming a painful scream.It was 6 of them exchanging one after the other.Some even went for the ass.Some went for the mouth.My inner self was laughing.I don't care who hates me after this but this bitch deserves it all. When they were done.I asked the doctor to clean her up and he did..She looked like a mess.He put her to sleep then I asked the boys to take her back to where they took her which they did. TENDANI Regardless of what you sins you have committed no one deserved rape as a punishment..Such can last for a long time.It is a scar.The wound may heal but the scar will always be there as a reminder of what happened to you..I found myself sleeping by the side of the road...I had nothing on me.It was a busy road so I managed to get a lift from a couple and luckily they were going to town..When we got to town I a asked them to help me call my mother and they gave me a phone. Me: Mom. Mom: Tendani baby is that you? Where are you? Hearing her voice made me emotional that tears started falling. Me: I'm.. .I'm at at at. Mom: Please ask someone to take the phone so that they can tell me where you are. I gave the phone to the lady.She spoke to her..They stayed with me until mom arrived.She thanked them and even offered to pay them but they refused.Such good people. We drive home in silence.When we got to the house I rushed to my room and cried my lungs out Mom: baby are you okay? Me: those people were cruel mama.They did things to me.They they cut off my ear,They raped me mama. I cried hard remembering everything they did to me.How some of them shoved their things inside my mouth.It was horrible I think he knows

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*CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 45 ETHAN When the show was over I asked one of the guys to drop me at home.I rang the intercom and the maid opened up. When I got to the door I didn't knock. Me: Good evening family!!! I shouted. Mom: What are you doing here? Me:Eh is that a way of welcoming me back home. Mom: Not when you discharged yourself Ethan. Okay now this woman is gonna shout at me like I'm someone who lost her Tupperware Me: Okay I can see I'm not welcome here.I will go to my house..But First where is my woman? Mom: Leave Ethan!! If you want to be a man them go and be a man in your own house. Me: Mom I want my fiance Mom: She is my daughter in law so she won't be going anywhere Me: She wouldn't be your so called daughter in law if it wasn't for me. Mom: And you wouldnt be here is it wasn't for me you fool. I went close to her and attacked her with a hug.I know that will calm her down When she was calm I kissed her forehead. Me: How are you mother? Mom: I'm okay just worried about your dad Me: Dad will pull through.He still has grandchildren to raise Mom: I hope so. Me: Let me check out my niece and nephew Ma. Mom: they are sleeping Ethan let them sleep.They are a handful Me: Okay.can I go sleep Mom: Better idea. I walked away.Found Sharon sleeping in what used to be my room.I missed this sight. RUDZANI Spending time with Ethan and his craziness is so out of this world.He made me laugh most of the time and that made me forget about some things that we are going through. Les: Babe Me: Yes Les: Once this is over I'm marrying you. There goes the topic I hate.This topic depresses me because I left home in a very sensitive manner.Whom will they pay my lobola money to? My dad is gone to walk me down the isle.I swear all this is too much but I don't want to shoe him how much it hurts me because it excites him to make me his wife.Besides we already have children outside wedlock so he wants to rectify that Les: Babe are you even listening to me? Me: Yes I am love. Les:We will go for a 1 month honeymoon at Dubai Me: That would be nice Les: Trust me we will enjoy Me: And the kids? Les: Mom is around Me: Babe we can't expect her to take care of the kids.They are a lot to handle Les: Stop worrying.Mom raised us so it won't be a problem. Me: Okay if you say so. Honestly my kids are still young to be going through all this. Me: Babe have you ever thought of relocating? Les: No why? Me: I just thought maybe we could someday go and live far away from here...Live maybe in Durban or cape town.Just a place we don't know anyone..Start new memories with our children Les: That sound like a good idea.I can even grow the family business.Expand it that side..Babe you definitely making me think about this. Jackpot!! I haven't been here long but already I have bad memories of this place. Les: But tell me here.Why do you want to go? Me: Not that I want to but I believe we can get a chance to be a happy family away from all this bad memories Les: But my family is here Me: I'm not saying pack up and go.I was only asking.Stop making it seem like I'm taking you away from your family. He stood up and walked to the door.then he stopped and looked at me. Les: I didn't say you were but then if the shoe fits wear it. He walked out. Argggg. LESLEY Does she hate my family that bad? When I got to the kitchen mom was setting the table Me: Mom Mom: I'm done with dinner.Go and call everyone. Me: Okay. I went to call Shaz and she was with Ethan so they said they were coming..I called Rudzani and she followed after me. Mom: Rudzi come help me with the food. Rudzi: Okay Ma. They took the food putting it at the table. We were all seated. Rudzani dished up for everyone. Ethan was about to eat when Rudzi spoke. Rudzi: Can we please close our eyes so that I pray? Ethan chuckled Ethan: Hmmm yeah sure. Rudzi: Father God I come to you with a humble heart..We thank you for the food we are about to eat.Bless the hands that prepared them.Father we are still short of our father who is at the hospital fighting for his life,Please Lord protect him so that he can be amongst us.We pray in the name of the Father,the Son and the Holy Spirit Amen. We all said amen the started eating.There was abit of tension between me and Rudzi but we didn't let it show infront of everyone.. Ethan: So how are my children? Still giving y'all sleepless nights? Rudzi: They are growing I guess.No longer that handful.But I believe that it because of the help I get from their grandmother.. Mom smiled. Mom: I'm their grandmother so it's my duty to take care of them while I still can..Soon I will not be able to walk We laughed. Me: Mom come on you are still young to be talking like that. Rudzi: Shaz i hope you are ready because labour pains are nothing like period pains. Mom: Say what? Are you people trying to make me grow grey hair? Is it a fashion to have kids? Mom is too dramatic I tell you.We laughed again. Me: Ma o worse hle. We are growing old..We have to give birth while we still have time.Atleast you won't be bored with children running around the house. Mom: They will be making me look like a fool running after them while they break my plates and making my house dirty.. Ethan: Women and their tantrums..I bet you will be the one asking for them to come over because you will be bored with your husband. 5months later I wish I can say the situation with my father was different but it wasn't he.He wasn't opening his eyes.Mom even lost weight with his situation like this.Ethan and I left BOSS broke.Everything he had went to his wife and some businesses we took them.My twins were growing very fast. Rudzi: Babe i promise I will be back.I need to do this alone. Me: Babe atleast let me drive you there Rudzi: No Les.You need to stop fussing about me.I will be okay..Its been five months without any attack from that man so let me go.Otherwise how will you pay lobola if I don't make peace with her. Me: Okay fine. Rudzani was going to Venda to talk to her mother.I don't want her to go but she is stubborn and has a very huge reasoning capacity so I let her be. She loaded her bags in the mini cooper then drove off.She was leaving the kids behind. I just wish she didn't have to go.. BOSS They thought I was down and out but the revenge of a heart broken man is a ruthless one.What those boys did to me was too much.Breaking apart my family was a needle to my already bleeding heart..They shall reap what they sow. I have been keeping tabs on them..I know that Rudzani was going to Venda and she was not important.I wanted her to suffer aswel the pain of losing someone she loves. TENDANI Me: Get me out of here!!!! Get me out. I have been locked up in a mental institution..They say I'm crazy.How can I be crazy when I'm only empty inside.What was done to me was more than what I could carry.I used to cut my wrist every chance I got.Got myself into fights and sometimes attacked my mom.I was just out of it.They stole my youth away from me..They have stolen my freedom from me.I swear when I get out of here I will make sure I destroy them

CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 46 RUDZANI When I got home it was a horrible sight to see..Mom looked like someone I don't know.She lost weight and she was sleeping under the mopani tree shade..She had a terrible cough. I didn't even take my bags.I packed my car at the open space and ran to her. Me: Mama Mom: Ru (cough) Rudzani Me: Ndinne mama.Mulandu? ( It's me mom.Whats the problem ) Mom:Manese vhari ndi Tb(the nurses say it's TB) Me: Mini? Mma Hezwi ndi zwa ndeme. .Ndi kho vhaisa ha Dokotela (What? Mom this is serious..Im taking you to the doctor.) Mom: Hai Rudzani ndi Xap..Ndo Fanela uwana mbadelo ya zwothe zwine zwakho itea kha nne (No Rudzani I'm okay.I deserve everything that is happening to me) Me: Hai Mma..Ndi kho vhaisa husina ndavha uri vhari mini.. Ndi ngasi lavhelese vhatshi lovha phanda hanga(No mama.Im taking you there regardless what you say.I can't watch you die infront of me.) I helped her up to the car. Me: Mama where is Dakalo She cried when I mentioned his name making me think of the worse thing possible Mom: His father took him.He left me for another woman. I got in the driver's seat then drove off..Right now mom is my main concern,we will discuss the rest when she is better When we got to the doctor there was no line so soon we were called in.The doctor ran some tests in mom.I left them when I felt like crying.I don't know where this feeling came from.It didn't make matters better when I felt chest pains and my heart was beating abnormally..Somethings was not right.. I struggled to breath and the receptionist notice and came my way. Her: Man are you okay? I shook my head no Me:please give me water. She went to the water cooler and got water for me. I drank. Me: I just feel somehow.I don't feel sick but there is certainly something wrong. LESLEY Me: I'm gonna go to the hospital to see dad.Can you guys remain with the kids. Ethan: Mom and I are coming along. Shaz: I will remain with the kids. Me: I should take them along I guess. Shaz: Worry not I will take care of them. Me: Are you sure. Shaz: Positive. Me: Thank you. We left Shaz with the kids. SHARON It's been 30minutes since they left and the house was too suffocating..I wanted some fresh air to breath so I stood at the patio and that's when i noticed unfamiliar movement in the yard..I saw Stan with a very huge man paying the guards.I knew shit was about to hit the roof. I took out my phone and called Les. Les: Hey are they troubling you? Me: No.We have intruders in the house..Its Stan and this other huge man who looks scary. Les: Shot shit.We are on our way.. I went to take the kids so I can hide them but Ontha was awake..I took Itu first and hid him in the guest room closet..It was safe because he was sleeping..Ontha was making noise so I tried to hush her but she wouldn't stop.We were in the lounge so before I could finish climbing the stair i heard a gun cock. I turned to look and it was them. Boss: And who could this beauty be? Stan: It must be the nanny Stan and I never had beef so I understand why he lied.Maybe he wanted to save me but what is he doing here with this man with a gun? Boss: Make a Uturn without drama neh. I had no choice...I was dead scared and Ontha was crying now. I slowly walked down. Boss: This must the famous twin..Now give that to me. Me: No Boss: I said give that child to me. I shook my head no and he shot me on my shoulder.Monster even had a silencer. Stan came and took Ontha and gave her to him. Boss: Hmm she is beautiful.She has her father's completion and her mother's beauty.Now where is the boy? Me: with his mother. What I witnessed next will be a nightmare for the rest of my life..He put Ontha down and shot her a multiple times then they walked out.It felt like a dream..I rushed to her and she was gone.I cried..I felt like I was gonna die.I could hear Itu screaming from upstairs..I half ran to him and took him then went back to the lounge..I put him down and it was lights out for me.. RUDZANI Mom and I were back at the house.She couldn't stop apologising.. Me: Mudzimu vhaya zwidivha uri ni zwothe kha nne..Mma vhado dzula vha mme anga husi na ndavha uri ri tangana na zwifhio vhutshiloni.Ndi ngasi vha tendele vhatshi fariwa nga ndala kana u edela na ndala na uvhaisiwa. Ndo vha ndi tshi humbula uri ndi ngasi dovhe nda vha vhona fhedzi namusi khezwi ndi fhano mma...ndiya vhafuna na uvha hangwela kha zwothe zwo bvelelaho murahu. (Lord knows you are my everything.Mom you will always be my mom no matter what we went through in life. I can't never allow you to starve or ever go to sleep hungry and hurt.I used to think i will never see you again but here I am today Ma.I love you and I forgive you for all that has happened in the past) As I was talking that feeling came back and it was too much.I felt like my heart was being taken out of its place and it was lights out for me.. LESLEY I swear I drove like I was crazy I didn't even stop at warning signs I just drove..Mom kept shouting at me but I didn't mind her at all.When we got home the guards were still there..I parked without even switching of the car I rushed out.. The situation I came across when o opened the door I vomited..I squatted next to my baby's lifeless baby..My eyes were flooded with blood.I was CRYING BLOOD and my heart was BLEEDING TEARS.If in my life I ever felt pain it was a joke because this was alot.This was the final.Not only did I lose a daughter but my wife will die of this.. I held her in my arms..She is my princess.She is all I ever needed for my family to be complete..How am I to explain this to Rudzi? Ethan: Mom call the ambulance..she is loosing a lot of blood. Me: Baby wake up..Please Ontha wake up..Dont do this to me.Dont do this to mommy... I'm unable to can...I tried to keep on writing but the pain feels real..RIP to all stillborns,those who were miscarried and all those babies who were held but never taken home..

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CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 47 LESLEY The minute they confirmed my daughter dead I got in my car and drove off. RUDZANI I woke up to my mom blowing some air for me. Mom: Are you pregnant Rudzi? Me: No mom.I put to bed not long Ma. Mom: Then what's wrong child? Me: I don't know what's wrong.I felt a very severe pain on my chest.My heart was beating abnormally.I can't help but feel like something is wrong..Like someone close to me is in trouble. Mom: Don't think like that my girl. Me: Mama I can feel it. She went on and on telling me not to have negative thoughts.When I was okay I made food for us and we ate while she told me about my step dad and how he changed on her.How he took Dakalo with him to stay with another woman.What he did to my mom was worse because she ended up not taking care of herself.I just hope she recovers soon and go back to work.If I wasn't here then I don't know what would have happened to her.Around 8pm when we were about to call it a night lights torched the house.I wonder who it is this late.I was surprised to see Lesley's car.. Mom: Ndi nnyi (who is it) Me: Ndi Lesley Mom: He must have missed you to come and fetch you this time and same day you came. Me: Surprises me aswel. He walked in. Lesley: Ndaa (greetings) Mom: Papa Itu na Ontha Me: Babe Lesley: Can we go back home. He didn't look good at all and that worried me. Me: Why? Lesley: Please. Me: I can't leave mom.She is not well Lesley: She can come with Me: I will come back less than a week bab... Lesley: Dammit Rudzani can't you listen for ones. He snapped. Me: Ohkay. Mom: Its okay Rudzani My bags were still in my car so helped mom to pack and loaded her bags in my car.I helped mom in and I got in the driver's seat and started the car..I couldn't get put since he was parking at the gate. Me: Do you want me to tell you that I need to drive out? He walked out..He opened the gate for me and he drove off.I drive out the got out yo lock the gate then got on our way. ETHAN I was really in a compromising situation.My twin needed me them my woman aswel.They put her to sleep because she couldn't stop calling out Ontha's name.It really traumatized her because it all happened infront of her.What kind of a monster does this to an innocent child.Did he even think of the pain the mother will feel..This is really going to be a nightmare.. LESLEY I only had one song on repeat in my car. How am I supposed to live without you-Michael Bolton This was hard...How am I expected to be strong when she is my weakness..They took my girl's life. How am I supposed to carry on when what I was living for is gone?..When we got to my mother's place I parked outside and cried like a baby..I don't want to lie I honestly let it all out..When a knock came through the window I wiped my tears away and rolled down the window Rudzi: Why are you...Are you crying?What is really happening here? Get in the yard I will follow I could see the worry in her eyes.she walked away and when she parked at the drive way I parked behind her..She came to the car.She got in the passenger and sat looking at me.Her mom made her way to the house. Rudzi: Why are you crying Les? I'm a man but I'm a broken one so being strong right now is out of options. I cried..Not a silent cry but a real cry. Me: She is gone Rudzi..They took our baby's life..He killed her. Rudzi: What are you talking about? Who killed who? Me: Boss.He killed Ontha... She looked at me then fainted... Me: Baby...Rudzani wake up!! I shook her..I reached for the bottled water and sprayed some on her face until she opened her eyes. She looked at me for the longest time. Rudzi: I'm gonna walk out of this car..Get in that house and find my twins sleeping do you hear me? Don't tell me bullshit. I didn't say more.She got our and I followed.She was walking very fast. When we got to the lounge everyone was there except for dad and Shaz.. Rudzi: WHERE IS MY DAUGHTER? WHERE IS SHE? She said that looking at Itu Mom tried giving him to her but she refused. Rudzi: I don't want him.Give me my daughter.Take me to my daughter. Mom: Baby she is at the mortuary..take heart child. Rudzi: Take heart? Are you telling me to take heart? I...I... She wailed...she screamed a painful scream..If I'm feeling this hurt I can imagine how she is feeling..9fucken months for her to lose her now..She fell on the floor and cried.Itu was also crying..Funi (Rudzi's mom) asked to use the bathroom and the maid showed her..Rudzi got up Rudzi: I want my daughter Lesley..Please tell them to bring her back..You promised..You promised to take care of us.Why? Why? She was holding my t-shirt and hitting me in between.I forced to hug her and she cried in my arms..we went down on the floor and sat there crying together..

So sad You will pay for this with your life Boss

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CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* 48 LESLEY Days went on very fast.Rudzi was on the mattress.She didn't utter a single word to anyone.She even lost weight.Her routine was to bath and breastfeed Itu...She didn't even lay an eye on him because to me I think he reminds her of Ontha.Im only waiting for tomorrow's funeral then I will go on a killing pree.No one does this and gets away with it.I know it won't bring my daughter back but I will have peace knowing I got justice.What I have in mind will obviously work... RUDZANI I can see them all trying as hard to comfort me but honestly they don't know what I'm going through.They don't know how empty I feel.The emptiness can only be filled by my daughter.Whoever took my daughter away is busy having a good time while I'm here weeping..I pray God avenge for me.I pray justice gets served this time.He got away with raping my sister but right now I swear I will go high and low to see that they both get justice for what was done to them. LESLEY The following day. The funeral was intimate since it was a baby.We only had family and close relatives over..It was an emotional roller coaster for us...Rudzi was not crying and it bothered me.She cried only the day she found out but now she is not crying..She is bottling everything inside and it's not good for her...When we came back from the cemetery we went home and I changed my clothes and wore black jean with a black shirt and a straight cap along the outfit I wore black timberlands.I am mourning my princess..Rudzani was in the nursery playing with Itu's fingers lost in her thoughts..I kissed her cheek. Me: I will find him.He shall pay for all he did to us. She looked at me with teary eyes and I kissed her lips and started walking away. Rudzi: Take care.I can't lose my baby and you at the same time. I nodded and walked away...That gave me courage that she was giving me her blessings... I found Ethan in my car and he was also wearing like me Me: And then wena? Ethan: Didn't think I will join you? I'm in on this..She was my princess too you know.. Ethan: Boys get in the car.We need help with something. He was talking to the two security guard. They got in and we drove to the warehouse.. When we got in he asked the four guards to tie them up and they did.The door opened and boss and Stan walked in with our other four guards. Me: You had all this planned didn't you? Ethan: Yeah I did...First the two guards who accepted money to let this fools in the house... Me: What? Ethan: Yeah they betrayed our trust. Without thinking twice I blew their brains...We were left with the two fools Me: How could you? We are family. Stan: You hurt me with Shudu. Me: All because of a pussy?That only wanted money from you? She never loved you bro.You are fucked up dude.Im not gonna let you die so easy.You are going to jail for a long time.The house camera showed everything so before we hand you in we have something to complete first.. The guards held them down and we injected them to sleep... The tattoo artists got in..We asked them to draw tattooes of women at their back extending to their butts..It gotta have breasts..They will be daily food for jailbirds...Lets see how miserable their life will be..Ethan has connections inside both police officers and jailers.. They got done pretty late because we cross night..The guards cleaned the mess of the other two guards and we cleaned ourselves. In the morning we took them to the police station and gave the officer involved in the case the tape.. Ethan: Now let's go and have some drinks.. We went to a nearby bar and drank..We were actually doing this to get wasted....We went on until it was 1pm..I only heard cold water being poured on me..Like ice freezing water..I saw Ethan also cursing.We were home and I guess the guards drove is. Mom: What is wrong with you two...What kind of a curse is this? Firstly you don't sleep home then you come here drunk and singing songs like mad people. Ethan laughed. Ethan: Calm down old woman we can actually hear you if you speak in a low tone. Heee this guy is mad as hell.Mom won't stop talking if he responds back. Me: I'm tired now can I sleep? I didn't wait for a respond..I went to my room and Rudzi was sitting on the bed .. Me: I feel less a man.I failed you..I failed the twins and I failed myself RUDZANI He fell asleep before I could respond him .I don't blame Les at all.I would also feel less a man if my child was to be no.I would also run to anything that will make me forget for that moment..I haven't talked to anyone yet but his mother managed to make me eat since I'm still breastfeeding..I looked at him sleeping and he was restless..There was no peace written on his face.God is this our life now? Is this what you brought our way? Five months later

dont be discouraged,all will be well

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CRYING BLOOD,BLEEDING TEARS* FINAL INSERT 49 Five months later. LESLEY Me: Is this the last bag? Rudzi: Yes Me: Okay. She was holding Itu whom she didn't want to let go since the funeral..Life has been hard.Whenever spoken to she will give a one word answer.She has even went far to make him sleep in between us.Yes I haven't touched my wife since the funeral.Im a man and I can't go on like this..Worse I haven't even touched a woman since so believe me when I say I'm hungry. We got in the car and I drove to my parent's house.. Dad has been out of the hospital for 4months now and even Shaz. Me: Babe Rudzi: Hmm Me: Can you drive? I'm so tired.I will hold him She gave me a death stare.I got the message and focused on the road When we got home we went in the house where everyone was in the lounge.We joined them..Itu crawled to dad and he lifted him up. Dad: so son why have you called a meeting? Me: Well dad during the time when we had quarrels with Boss but before he killed our daughter Rudzani suggested that we move away from here.Away from all this and I refused because I wanted to be near my family and for my children to grow knowing everyone..But now we are in a different occasion..Our daughter died and our lives will never be the same again.So I have decided that we will move..We need to find ourselves.We need to get through those together...I don't want to lie I have been keeping myself busy with work and Rudzani has been suffocating our son with her holding on to him for her dear life.She doesn't feel safe here anymore so leaving is the only option.I can't stay up all night because my wife can't sleep due to wondering if someone will come and take our son away from us.Its not healthy.We have packed our bags and we are leaving. Dad: Where will you go? Me: America..Dad this is also a big opportunity to expand our family business..This side you will get someone to stand in for me.. Mom was already in tears. Mom: but America is far son Me: And it is a place which is different from home.Nothing will remind us of our loss except our minds and hearts Shaz: Excuse me. She got up and walked to the kitchen..She is big and looks ready to give birth.Its a pity we won't be around when that happens but we have Skype to help us connect. Ethan: Don't mind her being too emotional it must be the hormones.. Rudzi got up and went after her. Mom: Does she ever talk? Me: Still one word answer..The only person who gets to hear her talk is Itu and dad. Dad: She will come around. Me: Its one of the reasons I want us to go..Plus I'm starving.5months is a lot for a man. Ethan: What? Are you telling me that you haven't had a cookie since Me: Yes I haven't...I don't want to pressurise her into it.I want her to heal and then we will get to live as a family again Dad: I wish you all the best son. Me: Thanks dad Mom: take care of them Me: I will. Mom took Itu from dad and he refused..Hai ke mathata.. Happiness is all I ever needed.Im someone so peaceful so after what my parents did to me I thought it was the end but no losing my Princess was the greatest pain I ever felt..She left with a portion of my heart.Wherever she is I hope she is watching over us.She will always be loved and missed.My promise to her is to tell her twin about her when he grows up. I am LESLEY and this was my story RUDZANI Me: Hey are you okay? Shaz: You are like a sister I never had so it's pretty hard watching you leave. Me: Don't worry we will Skype.We will not lose contact.. Shaz: I hope so. Me: Now stop crying. I wiped away her tears. Shaz: Are you okay though? Be honest Me: I'm not.I don't think I will be okay.Whenever I think about her I get pains all over...I bonded with her.I held her in my arms..I shared moments with her..Its hard forgetting her whereas I'm also afraid that when time goes on i will forget her. I don't want to forget her Shaz.I carried her in my womb..I expected her. She hugged me as I wailed for air.Whenever i break down I find it hard to breath. Shaz: I will be okay love. I wish it will be okay.I wish all will be well but I guess with time we shall see.. We said our goodbyes at the airport and got in the Pilusa company plane. In my life I thought pain was what I went through at home but honestly pain is what I experienced when I lost my daughter.That is where I can i was CRYING BLOOD AND BLEEDING TEARS..I hope where we are going life has good things in store for us.Far away from the place that reminds me of my loss...Who knows maybe Les and I will come back for our traditional wedding because white wedding we will do it this side..He will send his family to my mom in his absences..As for mom I left her with my business and with the help of my assistant she will pull through...God might have taken my daughter but I'm grateful for all that he has done for me..The gift of life and the people in my life My name is RUDZANI and this was my story..

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