Dunno if writing this is a good idea but I'll still do.
Firstly,I want to thank all coolval members for their love and affections for me ever since I became a member last year(dunno d month).I appreciate you all..Kudos to val for creating a wonderful site like this .
Secondly,I want to apologise for what am about to do or write right now.
I'm in pain as I'm holding my phone to type,the pain that can never be described to those that I've felt in the past.Life is like a torture to me,I tried my best to face it with all determinations but I can't seems to defeat it.
It feels like every chance I have is a bad chance,every choices I make Is a wrong choice.it's like am alone in this worldly life with no one to console me(Tz like am in a prison yard).I own nothing,no freedom,Anger is my daily bread,hatred is personal padi,sadness is my daily routine,love is greatest enemy,happiness is my worst nightmare .
I tried making people around me happy maybe I'll find happiness from them but everything prove abortive.
Only tin that kinda give me comfort is music but everybody around me is against it.Am fed up of everything.My existence has no meaning to me,why am created is not clear to me.I found every part of my life bitter.I swear if I found a gun right now I wouldn't think twice before I burst my brains out I swear with my life.
I'm sorry to say this but am thinking or should I say I wanna end everything and feel peace.Am sorry guys but I think this is the best I can do for myself.
If u dnt hear from me within d next 72hrs it means am gone for good...
The real charliebryn...
I wish you all the best ...
peace...