The woman, who goes by the username "scaredthrowingaway on Reddit", writes that she truly wants nothing more than to be a mother. But because she hopes to give her child a bright future, she can't have a child right now.
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Little Thing:
I can feel you in there.
I've got twice the appetite and half the energy.
It breaks my heart that I don't feel the enchantment that I’m supposed to feel.
I am both sorry and not sorry.
I am sorry that this is goodbye.
I'm sad that I'll never get to meet you.
You could have your father's eyes and my nose and we could make our own traditions, be a family.
But, Little Thing, we will meet again. I promise that the next time I see that little blue plus, the next time you are in the same reality as me, I will be ready for you.
Little Thing, I want you to be happy. More than I want good things for myself, I want the best things for the future. That's why I can't be your mother right now.
I am still growing myself. It wouldn't be fair to bring a new life into a world where I am still haunted by ghosts of the life I've lived.
I want you to have all the things I didn't have when I was a child.
I want you to be better than I ever was and more magnificent than I ever could be.
I can't do to you what was done to me: Plant a seed made of love and spontaneity into a garden, and hope that it will grow on only dreams.
Love and spontaneity are beautiful, but they have little merit. And while I have plenty of dreams to go around, dreams are not an effective enough tool for you to build a better tomorrow.
I can't bring you here. Not like this.
I love you, Little Thing, and I wish the circumstances were different. I promise I will see you again, and next time, you can call me Mom.
PLEASE,I AM ASKING YOU READING THIS,IF YOU SAW THIS MESSAGE THE VERY WEEK SHE DROPPED IT,WHAT COULD YOU HAVE DONE?
DO YOU THINK SHE WAS RIGHT?
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